Blackout - Day Nine

Waking Jian once again 'felt' the void that had been left behind by his missing arm. Although sadness didn't threaten to once again consume him as he had cried to his hearts content yesterday which cleared most of the sadness that had bored it's way into his soul.

Depressingly pushing himself off of the floor of the tent he dresses himself as best he could with his arm. Thanks to the practice of yesterday he didn't fumble around as much but he still had some minor troubles which made him depressed even more. Head hanging low he exitited the tent and sluggishly made himself some breakfast with the last of the meat he had from the leopard that took his arm. Jian took great pleasure in roasting the leopard and then piercing its body with the fork he was using to eat it.

Doing also relieved some pent up anger he had bottled underneath the depression and sadness. Jian Quietly finished up his breakfast and then began to grumble about Tian Long taking too long as Jian was no longer confident about walking out of that forest if he had to hunt for his food as god knows how many animals, just at the start can kill him off the bat. Even more so now that he had lost a lot of power along with his arm.

Looking to the side Jian saw his sword pierced in the ground where he had left it last night after he had went to go to sleep. Walking over to the sword Jian then began to once again practice his sword moves which were a lot better than yesterday's attempt. Although he was very satisfied that he had become better at swinging his sword, he still became depressed after remembering that he was still weaker than before which meant that the beasts in the forest could kill him even easier.

Hours passed as Jian continuosly swung his sword and then adjusted the swing so that it would release a more optimal power with less strain. Although not to the extent that he could swing his sword with the same power he had before he had corrected multiple flaws in his swings thanks to his domain as a sword lord which helped him analyse what was going wrong more closely.

*Grumble*

Jian's stomach began to grumble and protest that it was time to eat however Jian just kept continually putting it off out of fear that he could lose more than just his arm this time.

*Grumble*

"GODDAMIT. FINE. YOU WANT ME TO DIE SO MUCH, I'LL GO GET SOMETHING TO FUCKING EAT. HAPPY?" Jian screamed out in anger as his stomach continued to grumble regardless which irritated him and brought forth the anger that he had been bottling up.

As if his stomach knew what he had said it grumbled in reply. To which Jian just then said, "Just great, even my own body is trying to kill me. What next?"

His stomach once again rumbled in reply.

Sulking that he had sunken low enough to argue with his own stomach he unsteadily set off towards the forest to hunt for something to eat.

Reaching the edge of the forest Jian's heart beat like there was no tomorrow as he continuosly had flashbacks of what had happened when he had let his guard down. However thanks to his stomach loosening the reigns on the bottled up anger within himself, this only served to anger Jian and put him into a rage.

Jian's eyes began to turn bloodshot as the anger consumed him and the flames of wrath consumed his soul as he descended into madness.

The next thing Jian knew was that he was back in the camp in the dark with animal carcasses littered around the fire as he dazedly stared off into the distance.

Shocked by the sight around him Jian fell backwards and landed on a carcass behind him. Blood gushed out of the corpse as he fell on it staining the surrounding ground with even more blood.

'What the hell happened?' Jian questioned himelf as he remembers nothing of what had happened during the time he had blacked out due to the overwhelming rage he felt when confronted with the flashback's of the time he had lost his arm.

Calming himself he begins to check his body for any injuries, luckily for him though his body was free of any injuries, the only thing he felt wrong was the urge to be sick which he fought off. Skeptical of this he then checked his status board and then became stunned as he had somehow levelled up to become a Rank 1 Level 6 near Level 7 which meant he must have hunted a lot of animals, much more than the amount that he could see now.

What Jian didn't know was that the only reason that he didn't bring back most of the animals is that whenever he ran into a leopard he would brutally kill it.

First he would skin its limbs one by one slowly so that they could feel the pain he felt. Jian woud then go onto cutting their limbs and then eat the raw meat in front of the animal and look it in the eyes so he could see the despair that collected in their eyes. And every time he wouldn't like the look they gave him as they were looking at him as if he was the monster, so he gouged out their eyes and made them forcefully eat them. Most of the leopards would then throw up when they were forced to eat their eyes.

The rage Jian had was so much that it turned him into a demon that hungered for the flesh of that which had incurred its wrath. Jian would be thankful if he knew that the black out prevented him from remembering that episode as he would surely look at himself like he was a monster, no worse, a demon.

After they had eaten their eyes he would then skin their bodies and then watch as they bled out, if they weren't dead already that is.

Mulling over what could have possibly happeed Jian quickly moves past as his instinct telles him that whatever he had forgotten was better that way. Collecting himself he starts cleaning up all the bodies and hanging them by trees so that their blood would drain out.

Doing all of that proved to be hard work with just one hand however Jian managed to pull through somehow and had tens of animal carcasses hanging from the trees.

Panting Jian dragged himself to the tent after washing himself and his clothes. Putting his clothes out to dry Jian then went into the tent and headed to sleep.

That night was not a night of peace as he had nightmares. The nightmares were about what had happened after he had blacked out, sometimes he would see himself just hunting like normal. Sometimes he would suddenly turn crazy and then start to attack a beast like he was possessed and then began to torture it.