Thirty-Four

HE TOUCHED MY WAIST, "AND WHAT ABOUT TODAY? Do you want me to put on an act, go out there, and then come back here? Or can I stay directly just today?"

"If you go out, Mari will want to come here, and I'm not ready to talk to her today. So, just for today, stay here with me. Spend the night again," I side looked at the food that was now resting over the table on the side of the chambers. "We have food, so there's no need to go out."

"This is all so annoying," he exclaimed pouting. "I just want to marry you already, so we can do whatever we want when we want. But I also can't, because you set a boundary for that, which I can't cross yet."

That made me laugh, "Deal with it, then. Have patience. It's in your hands, not in mine. When you are ready to tell me and show yourself to me, we can even get married on the day after."

He bit his bottom lip, unsure, insecure, anxious, "Let's drop that for now," he sat down, making me sit on his lap again. "Sing another song to me, so I can stop thinking about this."

"What do you want to hear? What type of lyrics?" I held onto his neck, caressing the back of his neck with the tip of my fingers.

"Anything?" A nod. "Any song about someone who is into a person they can't have?" Well, that's quite specific. "Something I'll be able to relate to these past months while you were still with that jerk!"

His honesty made me giggle, "I actually do have some like that. Just don't forget I'm yours now, okay?"

A nod, "I know," he grinned. "Come, sing it to me, Hope!"

Let's go with If You Ask Me To by Charlie D'Amelio, a song that was quite famous around the time I died, and one of the ones I was listening to the most back in 2023, my last year alive as Anna, since I died November 2nd.

When I got up, he protested, making me giggle, so I took him by the hand and walked to the piano. I sat down, making him sit with me. "It's better with the piano."

But before I could begin, he came behind and made me sit between his legs, "Now it's better."

"Silly," I mumbled and he chuckled softly close to my ear. Taking a deep breath, I closed my eyes, feeling the tiles under my fingers.

It's nostalgic to play and sing those songs that used to be so famous on earth. I don't want to forget all I lived as Anna, even though it was tough. After all, it made me stronger, and quicker to get others' intentions. Singing them makes me remember all I went through there, so I won't get overwhelmed by my new life and forget all behind me.

Inhaling, I began.

❁

"Saw you at the party, but you wouldn't say a single thing. You smiled for a moment, then she kissed your cheek, that's such a shame. 'Cause I know that she can't love you quite like I could. So I'll leave your text on read, and hope you're overthinking everything. Saw me by myself, you said hello, and asked if I was good. She walked up out of nowhere, damn, I almost said that I love you. Now you're headed to her house to watch that movie you both like. While I'm up and losing sleep, what do I do if it's not me you choose?

But God, she's so pretty, and funny, and witty. I don't think that I stand a chance. And she's so fucking lucky 'cause all I've been wanting. Is you to be holding my hand. But it feels like forever, from minutes to seconds. To hours, been waiting for you. But she loves you too, I guess it's too soon. But I'd come running if you asked me to.

Ah. (But I'd come running if you asked me to).

Had you to myself, but then you left and didn't even care. Didn't give a second thought 'cause you know that I'd still be here. If you always thought about her, did you have to waste my time? So if blue was never love then all this time, have I been color-blind?

But God, she's so perfect, no flaws on the surface. I don't think that I stand a chance. And she's so fucking lucky 'cause all I've been wanting. Is you to be holding my hand. It feels like forever, from minutes to seconds. To hours, been waiting for you. But she loves you too, I guess it's too soon. But I'd come running if you asked me to.

Ah. But I'd come running if you asked me to. Ah. But I'd come running if you asked me to. Ah-ah-ah. I'd come running if you asked me to. Ah-ah-ah. I'd come running if you asked me to."

❁

I felt his arms close around my waist and he paused his head between my neck and my shoulder. "I was right, it was a good idea to put this in the room. Now you will be able to sing to me when we are here together."

Feeling hot again, I felt that yearning consume me from the inside out. Taking his hands away, I got up and turned around, my face facing his, then I sat on him again, receiving all he had inside of me. My legs rested on the sides of his body. I moaned, hands on his hair, and then I couldn't help it and bit his right shoulder to hold the scream.

"Hungry again, darling?" He whispered satisfied, not bothered by my bite. Caressing my hair with one hand, while the other held my hip. "The look on your eyes was quite savage," he seemed just as out of breath as me, and I switched to bite his neck. "Mmm, you look like an angel outside, you are quite devilish as well, darling."

I bit his ear and began to kiss his neck, and jaw, until I reached his lips again, "I just want to ride you. To feel this majestic cock of yours inside of me," I whispered before kissing him, moving my hips forward, feeling him better all in me.

Just as drunken in the sexual energy as me, he gripped my ass, helping me move with more ease, also to satisfy himself.