Dying then Dying (on the inside)

I awoke to the feeling of dying. As I would know exactly how it feels as I just went through it, I tried looking forward only to see my parents getting stabbed through the chest as a huge black claw was in front of me. Scared out of my wits, I started screaming and crying, trying to escape the feeling of a dreadful death as I saw the fox disappear and felt a burning pain on my stomach as I slowly couldn't hold on anymore and passed out

...........1 Day later......

I awoke to seeing wood and a cradle around me as I didn't see anyone in my immediate peripheral vision, I turned my neck and looked all around only to see nobody as I remember that the 9 tailed kyubbi just destroyed almost the whole village and almost everyone competent enough to keep the village stable as I lie in the cradle unable to do anything a GREAT idea came to mind,' I should try testing out my ability! But then again, would that be so smart there really isn't any easy ways to die besides trying to get out of the cradle and hitting my head against the ground, and I'd rather not wait forever for that to happen so I might just wait, or I could try and forcefully awaken my chakra, I have a lot of it right? So that should be plausible watching this show as a kid although I haven't seen Naruto in well over a couple of years almost a decade (this is actually true, I haven't seen Naruto since I was like 8 or 9 but I might rewatch it or watch a recap and fill in the blanks) but if there was one ninjutsu I'd always is the most broken one! Multi-Shadow Clone Jutsu! Whoever could forget that jutsu has to have brain damage as it's used throughout all of Naruto! Anyway, how should I even awaken my chakra?su I'd always is the most broken one! Multi-Shadow Clone Jutsu! Anyone who could forget that jutsu has to have brain damage as it's used throughout all of Naruto! Anyway, how should I even awaken my chakra? Should I maybe look for something in my veins, but how would I even do that? only one way to find out I have a long time anyway I should just mess around in my head to see what I could do so first things first let's clear my mind of all distractions however hard that may be.'

......around 3 hours later......

'Finally, I have fully cleared my mind of all other thoughts except for my own. Now, to think of a ball of chakra and move it around through my body....... I don't feel anything, aren't I supposed to have the most chakra on this planet at the moment????? Why can't I feel anything? Wait a second. I don't have the most chakra on the planet; all of it was sealed just a day ago!!! Noooooooo! Now it'll take forever! Calm down.... Deep breaths, deep breaths, just think about moving something through you

... 2 years later........

Finally, after expecting that process for what seemed like forever, I'm finally done. I can fully feel my chakra in my veins now since I can crawl, and the seal has lessened in strength, I should summon some shadow clones to help me with the leaf practice and getting the perfect control over my chakra here goes my first ninjutsu!

FORBIDDEN JUTSU: MULTI-SHADOW CLONES!!!!

.........Blacks Out.........