[~95~]

Trying to erase you from my mind and my heart, eventhough i dont know what happen between us. Do you want me to do that?

Don't you want to tell sth? Do you really want it?

Mr.H, I dont know what to call our relationship, when you stare at me, or just look me at one sec, or just checking on me, or just stand behind me, or just try to make conversation with me, i know my heart doesn't beat as usual.

Every single night, if i have a time, i waste it for someone like you, trying to make me feel like you actually love me like what i do. But what actually your heart feel? Does ot feel what i feel rn? Or just me in this situation.

You dont feel nothing or you just act stupid and forget about what happen? Do i have to wait until my heart forget about you? Until i never search for you again? Until im sure my heart doesn't beat for you again?

I ever try to don't look at you when the badminton, you know? But, do you feel sth? Or am i just a dumb to fall for you alone? Or do i have to ask myself about I deserve you or not? Don't make me feel like this.

I have try to understand myself, but i cant understand you. If you actually have feeling for me, why you just go with her like nothing happen? And you do that for several times, and i actually sick of it. Trying to understand that you just a friend with her.

I have try the best i can, to impress you. But, it seems you don't do the same? If you don't have a feeling for me… then why you stare at me like that? Why you often check on me? Why you always by my side? Why you look like that? Why you care about me? Why you listen to all my stories? Why you give me your time? Why you always in my mind? Why you make my heart beat? Why you smile like that to me? Why your laugh is so cute? Why you do all the things like you have a feeling?

Am i so dumb for you? Do you have to go this far just to make my heart break? Do i have to really erase you or not? Please, tell me Mr. H