Alcohol could numb a person's nerves, making them immune to pain. Yet, he still felt uncomfortable and irritable.
The more he drank, the worse he felt. He couldn't pinpoint the source of his discomfort.
He should have captured her, punished her, taught her a lesson. What was there for him to be uncomfortable about?
As Jian Yufei said, was he indeed a masochist?
When she escaped, he had wished he could kill her. Now that she was back, he couldn't bear to lay a hand on her. Merely thinking about it was enough to upset him.
He couldn't understand himself anymore!
He wasn't supposed to be like this. He was supposed to be decisive and ruthless, not such a vacillator.
But, no matter what, he couldn't completely extinguish his emotions!
He despised himself for being like this!
Ruan Tianling smashed the liquor bottle, feeling slightly better. His heart felt notably lighter too.