Sharing Feelings!
Tara recalled his words, everything he said, she thought they were same cause he lost his parent's when he was twelve as well, but little did she have idea that he had to see his parent's last memories, and there was no one with him to share his pain, he was all alone! More than all the times, she now felt she was lucky, that she had her uncle, her father's elder brother, who was just alike her father, and also had supported just the way her father would have if he was alive! She even felt to be the lucky one to not to have herself see her parent's dead bodies, but he did! Knowing everything, now it really hurt her! Knowing that they really were similar felt hurtful!
While Aryan just stared up into her emerald eyes, which seemed lost, still laying in her lap. He knew she was thinking about everything that she should, and he didn't want to disturb her. He just kept watching her in silence, admiring the beautiful soul he had ever met, still holding her hand like a kid, well he didn't mind!
Tara when coming out of her halt looked down at him, caught his gaze which was right fixed on her, she was mused for a second. It was evening now, and the light sunlight beamed on his face along with hers through the open window, made her realise that they were just still, like this in bed, for too long! Almost from morning to evening! And his hazel eyes glowed in golden now! "It's better we change our plans and it's okay to not to attend the party!"
Aryan frowned, "Are you sick?" he asked almost concerned!
Her brows raised in disbelief before she rolled her eyes, "It is YOU who is sick!!"
His frown got deeper before he suddenly got up startling her, pushing himself away, "I am perfectly alright!!"
"You think I am blind?! Have you forgotten in what state have you been just a few hours ago?" she asked as if he was kidding.
Aryan shook his head, "You think we can skip our fate?"
Tara was taken aback. "Me seeing something isn't in my hands always!!" he said as a matter of fact! She nodded understandingly, he was true! Nothing was in their hands, neither their ability nor their pain!
Tara sighed, looking down her hands, "I accept!"
Aryan smiled, "You finally are accepting with someone!"
She looked at him in disbelief, was he trying to make her laugh now? She rolled her eyes, feeling done with him! She looking away, stared out of the window, sun was setting, as she looked out, he followed her as well! "Why don't you feel empty anymore?" she thought unaware that she had spell it out! Aryan was taken aback as his gaze soon settled on her who was still looking out the window, the golden and orange sky!
"You know what was I used to see in your eyes when I stare straight into them?" he asked almost startling her!
Tara looked back at him, and it took her a minute to understand that she didn't just thought about it but even had said it out!!
She just stared while he continued, "Emptiness!!"
"And do you know how it feels like to stare into emptiness?"
Tara looked confused, how could he see something like that in her eyes? How did it feel like to see it?
"At first....it almost frightened me!" he admitted, she was just silent, but secretly she was curious.
He smiled looking down his hands, "It's frightening because I know how it feels like to feel empty inside, and it often confuses you, you can't even realise where you are heading to and for what! Being unable to recognise yourself!!"
"Looking the same in you, it was really frightening!" he looked up, a glimpse of smile crept over his face, "But then, I saw you changing! You still act cold sometimes, but I do see changes! I see happiness in your eyes now instead of emptiness, spreading warmth that you never knew you had, instead of giving chills to others!"
He chuckled, "Sometimes annoyance and mischief as well!"
"And seeing you change made me realise that feelings were always within us and that is we who choose and allow ourselves how to feel! And after meeting you, I never wanted to feel empty, because you never made me feel so!!"
Tara just watched him in silence, everything he said was lingering in her ears, taking a deep breath, with a sigh she got up, "You need to pack your things as well!" she said, and looking him for a brief moment, she left the room!
Aryan downed his head, and a smile took over his lips as he breathed! Getting up, he started packing his things as well!
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Tara as she came out closing the door, leaned against the door, taking a deep breath, she tried to calm down herself, tears swirled in her eyes which haven't made their way down her cheeks yet! She never thought being understood was this relieving! Her heart strangely felt like to be lifted off from a burden which she never knew one could! Tara could hear him working on things he should, from outside, he probably was now busy packing up his things! She sighed, looking down ahead, Tara found those broken glass pieces of jar, and water spread over the floor! Taking a deep breath again, she pulled herself up. getting to clean the mess! She slowly picked up those broken pieces, before cleaning the floor, and then she went to her own room to rest, she hadn't had any will to have dinner, left in herself and so she just slept!
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Aryan after packing up everything, went out, finding the floor already cleaned, he smiled, going to call her for dinner, to ask if she needed anything particular to be prepared, he found her asleep after he made his way into her room, as he hadn't got any response even for three knocks! There he took a seat, on the couch near the window, facing her! He knew, it would have not been easier for her to fall asleep, not atleast with all those bothering thoughts! So he decided not to disturb her and instead occupied himself watching her!
For the first time in life, he felt relieved, though somewhere he found it wrong to frighten her by opening up while also saying things about her future which were just his assumptions which he actually believed, he also found it relieving, something in him which he felt made him breath in calm and peace! Tara! Someone he would have never wished to meet but would also have never wished to miss a meet! A half fairytale and a half mystery!!
He began to feel things which made him confused, he was glad but afraid as well!
He recalled everything that happened between them from the beginning, her cold attitude, her sudden mood swings, her no's which were actually a yes, and her cold emerald eyes. The gaze she fixes on, sending shivers down the spines of everyone and her way of speaking! Her gradually changing behaviour towards him and the closeness that blossomed between them! Everything felt like a dream in which he wished to stay for long, so long were there wasn't an end!
But the thought of forgetting this all just made him depressed. He would never wish to!!
According to how he analysed, that was it!! At some point he would become someone who couldn't even recognise himself and people's memories would start playing with him! A future where he didn't even have any future, what was this if it isn't being fated unfortunately?!
More than him, he feared for her, he might atleast live, whether in pain or agony, but she, if he was right, her end was way more cruel than him, how could he see her at such state?! Would he even be able to?
Aryan took a deep breath. 'It's strange that it doesn't have an end! Not a good one indeed! But can't we just try to find a solution!' he remembered her words, indeed, he hoped they could find a solution!
May be, though they were fated unfortunately, they were still fortunate enough to meet each other, and surprisingly many changes happened after they met each other. It might also be the way that they met each other for a reason! And they could actually try to change their life's to something better and that is why they were brought together!
Aryan just hoped!!
As he watched her, who was in a deep sleep, he was glad that she wasn't having any nightmares, he guessed she would after knowing everything, but she seemed alright! Lost of track of time and himself as he gazed her, Aryan wasn't sure of when had he dozed off!