What is life?

Life

What exactly is life?

This may sound strange and absurd, but I don't know why this question has been haunting my mind for the past few years.

life

What is life?

Is it as long as we can breathe, our heart is still beating and our mind or brain is still functioning normally, we can be said to be alive?

But what about those who are crazy or rather have brain disorders?

How about those who have been in a coma for a long time and are still unconscious in their long sleep?

How about those who are very old and cannot move to do anything else but lie in their damp and cold beds. Where they can't move an inch and where every second is full of hell called boredom?

What about those whose mentality and mind have been destroyed by life? Where they feel that life is full of endless pain?

And what about those who feel their lives are empty and hollow? Those whose lives are empty because they do nothing, those whose lives are empty because they are tired of working and those who have no meaning and purpose anymore? They can only continue to be lost in this mortal body with a sense of emptiness.

Are they all still included in the definition of 'Life'?

Are they 'alive'?

I know that this may sound rude and inappropriate to say, and also there will be some people who will feel offended and angry using the above example, but here I really don't mean to intentionally offend anyone.

I know that this question is very unnatural, useless and a waste of time.

And I know most of you will think what kind of question is this, perverted, crazy, stupid and useless.

but I don't know why and I don't know when I started thinking about this useless question.

this question that other people rarely think about.

Why?

If you ask me why I'm thinking about this useless question.

Of course I don't know the exact answer

Even I myself would like to know why I think of this stupid question.

Maybe it's because I'm bored?

Maybe it's because I'm curious?

Or maybe I always think of this question because...

....because I also feel emptiness in myself

I feel lonely in my life

My life feels empty

and without me realizing it, time has passed too far, too far. ...no, maybe it's more like I'm trying to close my eyes to the fact that time has passed, passed too far and can never come back.

.....

On the outskirts of a small town, in the western part of the country of Idnersia.

there is a house that is a little far from the local settlement. the house that once looked unremarkable with a large yard, now looks shabby and unkempt filled with dust and tall bushes towering

in a room inside the house. there is a dark and silent room, there is only light from a lit monitor illuminating this dark room.

In front of the lit monitor, a man in his mid-twenties was sitting staring at the monitor screen.

The man is about 168 centimeters tall, with a slightly chubby body, and fairly long black hair, and a face and skin color like Southeast Asians in general.

wearing shorts and without cursing any clothes, the man looks focused

sitting on a bench made of plastic, the young man seemed very focused on seeing or perhaps more precisely reading the series of text written on the monitor screen

with a relaxed expression, the man enjoyed reading the series of texts or perhaps more precisely the web novel in front of the man's monitor screen

slowly by slowly, word by word and sentence by sentence the man enjoyed it all.

don't know how long the young man has been sitting on the monitor bench without moving much. the young man still enjoys staring into his monitor screen.

time continued to pass and the sun that shone brightly outside the room had finally disappeared into the darkness of the night.

sometimes in the dark room the man laughs and smiles to himself staring into his monitor, as if this dark and messy room and this lit monitor are an earthly paradise for him.

The man lived with freedom in this small and messy room. Without the slightest worry, annoyance at the words of other people who are jealous and full of lies, can relax and laze without limits, there are no rules that need to be followed, and free to do anything.Is this nothing but an earthly paradise in this rotten and corrupt world?

Well... Although in the end you also have to work to pay for electricity and the food you eat. But in the end this place is a paradise

The man continued to stare at his monitor.

From the sun still hanging in the blue sky to the moon illuminating the night sky, the man only moved from the monitor when he needed to relieve himself, eat and drink. The rest of the time he just stared into the lit monitor screen.

Sometimes he reads comics

Sometimes he watches anime

Sometimes he reads novels

Sometimes he plays games

And if he gets bored, the man starts scrolling through his social media.

In this small, dark room, the man feels very happy

If you're hungry, just eat.

If you are sleepy, just sleep.

Here, in his little paradise, there are no rules to limit him or people to scold and nag him.

Well... This is the life of a Hikikomori as people often say

...

"Huh... Damn it, why did it have to run out in the middle of a battle that was in the middle of a novel" the man complained in a very dissatisfied tone.

Feeling his mood is not good to lust for reading novels anymore. Finally, the man opened a website that often uploads comics illegally.

Opening the website and looking for the comic he wanted to read, after a while the man felt annoyed

"Fuck... Damn, what a pain in the ass. Aren't there any interesting comics being updated? Why is it filled with comics whose stories are not clear at all damn it..."

"Starting from Japan, why are all the fantasy comics isekai bruh... Where isekai the plot is really cliché again, the workers die because they are hit by a truck or are tired of working, are called gods and told to choose over power skills for provision in iseka, where the gods there are in various forms, ranging from small children, loli, onee-san or wise grandparents. Isn't the gods supposed to be portrayed as more noble? Why are the gods there dressed so sexy and make men horny?"

"Plus the plot is all the same, the MC immediately ops to create a harem and defeats the demon king easily without anyone dying. The MC is hurt and betrayed by her boyfriend or friend then immediately becomes overpowered and becomes a demon king. The average story is really fucking boring... Not to mention the main character looks like Kirito all like that... Since when did the comic industry in Japan start to decline a lot"

"Not to mention that this Chinese comic is filled with cultivation and a system where the main character is really arrogant, the MC why does he have to be so damn arrogant, and the npc here is too arrogant and stupid like he has no brain. The plot is mostly the same, although there are also stories that are still fresh"

"Huh... And finally Korean comics. Indeed, in Korea it is very unsafe there, where there are many MC comics with a past that are always bullied. Is it true that the residents in Korea are so apathetic that other people are bullied and no one helps them? After all, every time who wants to help the MC from bullying, why does it have to be a damn beautiful girl, the other Korean guys are cowards or lazy, what? Where else most cases of bullying are in the school environment again. Where are the teachers in the school woiii.... They eat blind salaries or what, how come they never hear rumors when a student is bullied, see a student who is injured or dirty their clothes they just accept it without investigating further? It's so horrible that the teachers in Korean comics"

"Not to mention the fantasy comics, why do so many comics take the theme of gate, rebirth or regression. Like there is no meaning. Where the MC easily increases his strength, the plot is the same again. The plot is also the same. Isn't that the authors in Korea are quite lazy? Bruh... Make the plot and plot more creative, even sleepy reading fantasy comics. Well although there are some Korean comics with fresh and interesting plots, but why are most comics "old". Most now are MC regression then op and become gods. I swear the plot is very boring. Still better than cultivation comics from China"

In the dark room, the man in front of the monitor complained alone without anyone accompanying him.

The man probably felt very annoyed because there was no other interesting reading that made him quite frustrated, so he started complaining and commenting on his own.

After commenting on the comic alone in the darkness of this room. The man feels so tired that he doesn't want to read comics for now.

The man opens social media to look for videos that can entertain himself who is currently sedan

Is this nothing but an earthly paradise in this rotten and corrupt world?

Well... Although in the end you also have to work to pay for electricity and the food you eat. But in the end this place is a paradise

The man continued to stare at his monitor.

From the sun still hanging in the blue sky to the moon illuminating the night sky, the man only moved from the monitor when he needed to relieve himself, eat and drink. The rest of the time he just stared into the lit monitor screen.

Sometimes he reads comics

Sometimes he watches anime

Sometimes he reads novels

Sometimes he plays games

And if he gets bored, the man starts scrolling through his social media.

In this small, dark room, the man feels very happy

If you're hungry, just eat.

If you are sleepy, just sleep.

Here, in his little paradise, there are no rules to limit him or people to scold and nag him.

Well... This is the life of a Hikikomori as people often say

...

"Huh... Damn it, why did it have to run out in the middle of a battle that was in the middle of a novel" the man complained in a very dissatisfied tone.

Feeling his mood is not good to lust for reading novels anymore. Finally, the man opened a website that often uploads comics illegally.

Opening the website and looking for the comic he wanted to read, after a while the man felt annoyed

"Fuck... Damn, what a pain in the ass. Aren't there any interesting comics being updated? Why is it filled with comics whose stories are not clear at all damn it..."

"Starting from Japan, why are all the fantasy comics isekai bruh... Where isekai the plot is really cliché again, the worker's uncle died because he was hit or exhausted from work, was summoned by a god and told to choose an over-power skill for provision in isekai, where the god there is a variety of forms, ranging from small children, loli, onee-san or wise grandparents. Isn't a god supposed to be portrayed as more noble? Why do the gods there dress so sexy and make men horny?"

"Plus the plot is all the same, the MC immediately over powers the harem and defeats the demon king easily without anyone dying. The MC is hurt and betrayed by his girlfriend or friend then immediately becomes overpowered and becomes a demon king. The average story is really fucking boring... Not to mention that the main characters all look like Kirito... Since when did the comic industry in Japan start to decline a lot"

"Not to mention that this Chinese comic is filled with cultivation and a system where the main character is really arrogant, the MC why does he have to be so damn arrogant, and the npc here is too arrogant and stupid like he has no brain. The plot is mostly the same, although there are also stories that are still fresh"

"Huh... And finally Korean comics. It's very unsafe in Korea, where there are many MCs with a past who are always bullied. Is it true that the people in Korea are so apathetic that other people are bullied and no one helps them? After all, every time who wants to help the MC from

Bullying why does it have to be a beautiful damn girl, the other Korean guys are all scared or lazy? Where else most bully cases are in the school environment again. Where are the teachers in the school woiii.... They eat blind salaries or what, how come they never hear rumors when a student is bullied, see a student who is injured or dirty their clothes they just accept it without investigating further?

It's so horrible that the teachers in Korean comics"

"Not to mention the fantasy comics, why do so many comics take the theme of gate, rebirth or regression. Like there is no meaning. Where the MC easily increases his strength, the plot is the same again. The plot is also the same. Isn't that the authors in Korea are quite lazy? Bruh... Make the plot and plot more creative, even sleepy reading the fantasy comic. Well although there are some Korean comics with fresh and interesting plots, but why are most comics "old". Most of them now are MC regression then over power and become gods. I swear the plot is very boring.

Still better than cultivation comics from China"

In the dark room, the man in front of the monitor complained alone without anyone accompanying him.

The man probably felt very upset because there was no other interesting reading that made him quite frustrated, so he started complaining and commenting on his own.

After commenting on the comic alone in the darkness of this room.

The man feels so tired that he doesn't want to read comics for now.

The man opened social media to find videos that could entertain himself who was currently very bored.

But after just a few scrolls, the man immediately fell silent and his already bad mood became even worse.

For unknown reasons, he felt that he was really very tired at the moment.

What he saw made his mind very messy.

A sense of sadness and relief mixed together

It turned out that the post she was looking at right now was a photo, a wedding photo.

Where a man who is very unfamiliar to him is currently wearing wedding clothes with someone he knows very well.

A woman he had loved in the past, ... no, maybe now he also still loved the woman

Memories of the past instantly entered the man's mind

With suddenly trembling hands, the man pressed the like button on the post, and the man with both hands still trembling began to type on the keyboard in front of him.

His stairs were shaking and he was covered in cold sweat.

His breathing was heavy

And his chest felt a little sore

Little by little the man finally finished the sentence that was short but held a lot of emotions

'Congratulations, I hope you're happy'

That's what the man typed

....

in the dark room, the man closed his eyes briefly. alone on a plastic chair in front of a lit monitor screen. looking up where the ceiling of the room was dark and full of scattered cobwebs. The man stared in silence while muttering "Huh... married huh?"

'Life... really flew by, huh?'

In the darkness and solitude, the man stared into the distant void called life.

Memories of the past began to flash back in my mind, of how you and your friends played without a care in the world, enjoying life and youth together. Or memories of when you liked someone.

But without you realizing it, time has passed so fast

When your friends one by one suddenly give you an invitation to their wedding, it feels like time flies.

Friends who were always close to you at school, suddenly gave you a wedding invitation. it feels like an illusion.

And until finally the woman you used to love until now, finally also married. Living a new and happy life with a new person.

'weird, really weird'

'Since when did life pass so quickly? Like a mirage or maybe a dream? It feels like reality is unreal'

looked at her room that was cramped, dark, damp and full of trash scattered on the floor with a blank stare.

"What a mess" is what he thought.

with the monitor screen still on, the man walked out of the plastic chair in front of his computer monitor

stepping into the pitch darkness of the cluttered and dust-filled room. turning on the lamp in his room and stepping forward towards the mirror that was already looking worn and dust-filled.

The man gazed into the mirror that he had not used in a long time and cleaned it with his bare hands.

the dust on the mirror flew up and clung to his palms

slowly, slowly, and slowly, finally the mirror, which was full of dust, is now better.

the image of a man, ...not exactly the image of himself reflected clearly in front of the mirror that still looks a little dull

a man with black pupils and black hair is depicted in front of the mirror. his hair that used to look short and neat, has now become long and messy, his body that used to be thin and well... ordinary, has now become 'a little' fat and 'a little' uglier than before.

Staring at himself silently in front of the mirror, the man snorted coldly and captivated softly.

"hahaha... what exactly happened to me? why do I look so pathetic now?"

'Ironic' was the word he could express when he saw himself in front of the dull mirror.

Looking at the cluttered room the man stepped over to the monitor that was currently on. he walked over to his computer, and for some unknown reason, he was too tired to do anything.

The man shuts down his powered-up computer and walks over to his messy mattress

Lying on his dingy, damp mattress, the man looked up to where the lights were still burning brightly.

In this eerie silence and stillness. For some unknown reason, I don't know why it feels so exhausting today.

And unconsciously the man who always stayed up late every night, for today closed his eyes and fell asleep much earlier than usual.