Sadness

LUKE

I wake up again after sleeping and telling my dad what I think about him. I hope that they have left me now and that they will not return again. I know that I am going down a dangerous path and it will probably be a despair that I would not be able to come out from. I can feel how the darkness is taking me over because I am dying and no one can do anything about it.

It almost feels like the dying part is not so bad but the part where I need to leave Mikayla on her own, that is the part that is worse for me. I can not believe how deep she has crawled into my heart in the small amount of time that I got to know her. How is it even possible that one woman can have such a great effect on me?

I sit upright in my bed because after sleeping I feel a bit more energetic. But it is as if the life has already been sucked out of me. It is as if I do not want to do anything. I am trying to think of what I should do my last few days on earth but nothing comes to mind.