chapter 1 Mc past

MC' fuck another boring day of school and another 6 hours listing to something that my brain can not register because I have a low IQ ah some Times I think the way the world works is just a circle for normal people like me it's the same fucking thing every day wake up and go to the toilet after that go to the kitchen get something to eat drink coffee so you don't sleep in the class or my Karen teacher will call my parents I just hate my life this world is fucking shit if you don't have money then you are nothing if you are not handsome then you are a nobody if you don't have a talent you are a failure if you are not smart that means you have no future ah way just way must people like me have to suffer just because we are not handsome doesn't mean we don't have a heart I bet you everyone like me is suffering I just want to escape this world I want to feel something way just way ( teardrop ) I been thinking about something those last few years what happens if I get killed by a truck like really I have nothing to lose in this day and age women only thing about killing men and their is no women that want to start a family with me and I will 100℅ not get a good job because of my iq so that's way I have been saving money to buy a truck from the dark market I really want to find out what happens if I die because of a truck just thinking about meeting Rob makes me grin way would I not I can make my fantasy become reality I can finally escape this horrible life of mine, " hey god of this world, I never believed in you do you know way will there is a saying that goes like that ( don't believe what people tell you you got to see it with your own eyes first to believe it because you don't know if those people are lying ) so that's way i never asked help from you and probably will never because you will never answer I mean way would you you are God as people say you have the power to create and destroy anything you want way should help a mortal that will not give you anything in exchange you already have every thing you want what I am getting at is i just want to say to you FUCK YOU FOR GIVING ME THIS HORRIBLE LIFE ah that felt nice ok let's get this show on first thing on my check list is i need to get red of my virginity lets see fake Id card check my moms PayPal card check don't worry mom its not for V Bucks ( Fortnite ) its for the better good now let's go to the red light district way do i have protection remember kids always use protection anyway here in google maps it says that this place has five stars will her is is how long i can take you guys you guys wait here it won't take long until I come out will I will see you in a minute [ 15 minutes Later ] oh hey there as you can see I am a man now a full fledged man will losing my virginity check will there is one more this that i have to finish i need to tell my crush that I love here before I let truck-kun to take my life will that is way I am in front of here house will lets ring the bell first remember I have nothing to lose if she says, yes then i will not do it if no then fuck this world its not worth it anymore will lets see what she says first before I decided * walking sound * * door opening *

crush" O hey H***** what brings you here I haven't seen you in school yesterday is every this ok."

Mc" will you see I have come to say that I have a crush and I want to say will you be my girlfriend " closing my eyes I know what is about to come let's be real I did this just to not have regret I already know what she will say I just want to hear and see it with my own eyes not my imagination

*gasp*

crush" H***** you know we are just friends rig.."

stoping her I already know that I just want to hear that

Mc" I already know that I just want to hear that you don't have to be nice to me I came here fully knowing that will before I leave I want to tell you that you are a beautiful woman and a kind, please choose the right man don't judge someone by their looks there are a lot of good people that women don't see what I mean is take care of yourself this is the last time I will see you I am going to a far place I hope you have a nice life goodbye Melissa"

*tear drops*tear drops*tear drops*tear drops*

waking away with tears dropping from my eyes looking at the Uber driver looking at me with a tear in his eyes because I have told him that I am going to confess my feeling to my crush anyway getting instead of the car he started the car and drives off

Driver" you know the same thing happened to me do you know what is the sad thing is the people will only look at the outside and make assumptions but they don't look at the inside (teardrop) I just want to tell you don't give up always try harder and work hard I have no chance to do that I am already too old to do anything but it's not too late for you "

what a nice old man but sorry I have no hope for this world there will never be a change we will forever be controlled by this cursed fate I just have one last thing to do before I go meet truck-Kun you see my family is really poor so I decided I will sell something that I will not need for long and give the money to my family as a gift for raising me especially my mom that had to sell her body to get her children to another country because some fuckers want others, people, to worship a God that had not one even once shown his face to them because of them my family had to suffer just thinking about that, makes my heartbreak just way must we suffer I had enough this is the last thing I do for my family the guy that I made a deal with offering 29 million and I agree on it and I asked him to deliver the money and a note with it to my family in from of me that says [[ hey mom if you read this then I died you see I had enough of this world, I know I have no future because I am a failure you see I all ways admired you in many ways you sacrificed so much for me and my siblings but you always keep that smile on your face i know how proud of me you were when I fight other kids because they said something bad about you and my family and I know that you love me even when we fight because I don't study I just wand to say I love you do much that this world, can't even hold it you and my siblings are the only thing I have in this world that I care about this, money is my last gift to you my family please live a happy live with it forget me I know it's a selfish request but please forget me and live your life and don't you dare do something stupid just know that I love you and don't waste this opportunity that I made for you and my siblings take care mom love H***** A***** ]]

Mc" hey man can you do me one last favour can you kill me with a truck I already have one you just need to run me over " looking at the guy just came after giving the money to my mom he looks at me like I am crazy

guy" will I can is this your last dying wish "

Mc" yes it is " saying that we drive to where I put the truck he looks at me one last time before lighting a cigarette on still looking at me

guy" you know you are the most unique person that I have ever seen let's get this over with" saying that he gets in the truck stepping on the gas penal going at full speed

Mc" goodbye mom love you don't ever be sad and fuck you World"

*crash*

{{ please don't do what is said in this chapter it's just fanfiction it's only imagination nothing more }}

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