Dear Adam - How could that be?

Magelang, 20 December 2015.

Match between Rumi and Mawar. At that time, Rumi was a child who grew up in an orphanage belonging to Kiai Abdullah's family.

Kiai Abdullah and his wife run the orphanage on the basis of self-sufficiency. They have a desire for this orphanage to produce children with character and noble character.

Kiai Abdullah has two children from Mrs. Sri Amanah, namely Mawar and Firman. Both were educated with a fairly good religious background.

The 'Najwa' Orphanage also has a boarding school that is ready to accommodate several children who want to deepen the problem of Islam or emigrate.

One day, Adrian Maulana came. A naughty boy who is merciful. The work is messy.

Kiai Abdullah warned Mawar not to be close to the man, because he had promised Rumi to get them married soon.

That night, Mawar began to get close to Adrian. They began to fall in love with each other, even the disgusting incident happened in an orphanage soup kitchen.

The two people are making love, until a struggle occurs between them.

"Mas, what if you know?"

"You're enjoying it, so what are you worried about? Don't worry, I'll take the responsibility, if you're pregnant."

Adrian smiled inwardly, because he was able to make a beautiful Hafizah have sex with him in a third of the night. Or better known as female Koranic memorizers.

"How could I marry a country girl like you. Hah, it turns out you can also satisfy me!" thought Adrian.

A week after the incident, Adrian disappeared from the boarding school. And, two weeks later, Mawar felt nauseous, and her period was late.

Mawar's cries shot like arrows. A promise that was just a promise, she felt herself disgusting, he also refused the sermon from Rumi.

That afternoon at 17.00.

Rumi came to Kiai Abdullah's place to fulfill his request to marry his daughter.

"Assalamualaikum."

"Walaikumsalam, want Rumi."

Ustadzah Sri welcomed Rumi to let him in. Inside was Kiai Abdullah sitting on the sofa in the living room.

They sat together, except for Mawar who locked herself in the room.

"War, there is Mas Rumi in front."

Calls from Mas Firman he ignored. No answer at all.

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Pov Mawar.

My mood is quite torturous, let alone a blue line as a sign of my stupidity. He who I believed was a lie and left a trace in my womb.

My tears dry up, I feel depressed too. The sermon from Mas Rumi means nothing to me, I really don't deserve him.

Abi and Umi don't know about my sad condition. They will consider me an immoral woman, how can I not give myself on the basis of love, but now suffering for me.

"War, there is Mas Rumi in front."

I deliberately ignored the call from Mr. Firman, because I was really not ready for my condition to contain the seed from Mr. Adrian.

I just sat in the corner of my bed while lamenting my stupidity over the offer of love that ended in adultery.

"What should I do?" My mind screamed, while the fetus in my womb was innocent, only myself and Mas Adrian were entitled to sin.

My eyes started to have dark circles like panda eyes. My tears are no longer able to flow.

That night, I still remember that incident.

"War, you love not the same mas?"

I tucked my hair in while smiling at him, and nodded in agreement.

Mas Adrian hugged me, he even tried to stimulate me so that I fell into a feeling based on love. That night, in the kitchen we did it. In fact, a pleasure between us.

After finishing the sexual activity, he kissed the top of my head.

"Thank's, honey. You are my girl."

After that, we both tidied up our clothes, and took turns leaving the kitchen, so no one would suspect what we were doing.

Remembering all of that, brought tears to my heart, my heart was really crying over my stupid fate.

I realized, all will know, even I have to prepare myself to get anger from umi and abi.

Right now, I don't dare to say everything, because umi just got out of the hospital. I do not want umi why.

Thinking of leaving the house quietly. I wanted to isolate myself, until I was really ready to face my family. Especially Mr. Firman who is always possessive of me.

Mas Firman really loves me, but I often make him angry. In fact, he once warned me to stay away from the thing called dating. Turns out he was right that this incident had really put my life on the verge of collapse.

*

In the living room, Sri serves black coffee sweetened with palm sugar for Rumi. Every now and then Rumi sips it while talking with Pak Kiai Abdullah.

"How, son Rumi?"

"Pak Kiai, I agree, but what about Mawar?"

"That rose, what did I say, son Rumi, how did he refuse, son, Rumi?"

Rumi could only be silent.

"Bi, Mawar refuses Rumi, because Mawar doesn't love Rumi."

"Rose?"

Mawar's refusal broke Pak Kiai Abdullah's heart, and Rumi could only remain silent.

The atmosphere turned tense, after a few minutes of Mawar's refusal.

"Huh..."

"Nduk, what are you doing?"

Mawar ran without an answer, she looked panicked and afraid of being caught. She was afraid that her family would find out.

Mas Firman grabbed Mawar's arm and cornered her against a wall, she was really scared, cold sweat broke out. Incredible goosebumps.

Mas Firman's face was red, his eyes were sad. Rose's restless heart is extraordinary.

"Dek, why did you refuse Rumi's proposal, didn't you agree to marry him?"

Mawar could only be silent in defeat, her lips seemed to be tightly shut. Tears just dripped from her eyes, she was shaking half to death to tell the truth. She felt her life was like entering a haunted house.

"I'm sorry, sir."

Mawar's tears flowed profusely, she couldn't hide in guilt. Her heart couldn't take it anymore.

"I'm pregnant, sir?"

Mas Firman's body shrank for a moment, he wanted to be angry with his beloved sister.

"Who did it?!"

"Answer!"

Mas Firman tore Mawar's body, he seemed to be silent.

"Once again, I ask, who are you pregnant with, deck?!"

"Pregnant?!

"Umm?!"

Sri holds her chest, shocked to hear that her daughter is pregnant. A sudden heart attack took him to the hospital. When Mawar approached, Mas Firman brushed him off.

"You go away!"

Mr. Kiai Abdullah was surprised to see his wife fell unconscious.

"Abi, how about umi?"

"It's all your fault, deck!"

"Word, what happened?"

"She's pregnant, mom!"

A great slap on Rose's cheek. Can only sob.

"Mom, I'm sorry Rose."

Pak Kiai Abdullah dismissed and refused an apology from his daughter. Rumi tries to help Pak Kiai Abdullah's wife.

Sri was immediately rushed to the hospital, but in fact in the middle of the journey his last breath.

The atmosphere of grief at the residence of Pak Kiai Abdullah, while Mawar was expelled by Mas Firman from his family's residence.

Rumi could not help Mawar, because the woman refused and chose to leave.

Since that incident, Rumi never heard from Mawar again. Then he got a scholarship offer in Seoul, South Korea. Then he accepted.

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