Chapter 9

Rey POV

"Rey." I hear Ben's voice as if it's dancing through my ears. I groan and pull the blanket over my head.

"6 more hours?" I mumble. He laughs. The bed shifts while I tug the blanket down only exposing my eyes.

He's laying on my bed, propping his head up with his elbows.

"I-" His expression hardens.

"What?" I ask. My heart picking up the pace. So many possibilities are running through my mind.

"I think you should leave." He looks away from me.

"What do you mean?" I ask, sitting up quickly.

He doesn't say anything.

"Look at me." I command. "What do you mean?"

"I mean, I think you should go back to the Resistance." He snaps, still refusing to look at me.

"After all of this? You want me to If I leave you're coming with me." I snarl. I can feel my heart pumping out of my chest and my ears feel like they're on fire.

"I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I caused anything bad to happen to you. You're better off without me." I pull his face to mine so he's forced to look at me.

"I feel like screaming, crying, and punching something all at the same time.

"I can't be myself when I'm around you. You've destroyed Kylo and now I'm I need myself back."

"You are Ben. You've always been Ben. He's who you are." He moves over to the side of the bed and sits on it, his feet firmly on the ground.

"I've devoted my entire life to become Kylo and then you just walk in and destroy it all." He mutters.

"Do you think I this? We're connected. Something ties us together and you know it." I say. My heart feels like it's going to explode. There are so many things I want to say, I to say.

"Yes, I know. Maybe we can break it." He mumbles.

"You to break it?" I ask furiously. I stand up and pace around the room quickly. "Ben, I like this feeling. I love being with you. You make me feel alive."

He doesn't say anything.

"So everything you told me about wanting to turn to light and be with me was a lie?" I spit.

"No. I wanted too." He says quietly.

"You don't want to anymore? You still want to murder?" I bite my tongue to prevent myself from saying things I know I shouldn't.

"I think staying where I am is best."

"I'm not staying here with you. If you want to be with me you have to come." I yell, frustrated.

"That's the problem." He mumbles.

"If you love me you'll be with me." I suddenly feel like falling to my knees. I'm such a fool. As if I thought this was going to have a fairy tale ending.

"You are so perfect and capable of great things. You are going to guide the Resistance to victory. I won't get in the way of your destiny." He whispers, standing up and walking towards me.

"Then why are you telling me to leave?" My knees start to shake as I can see what's coming.

He stands inches away from me.

"Because I'm afraid." He says simply.

His eyes trace my lips.

"Tell me why every time I want to hate you, I can't do anything but love you." I whisper.

"I have that effect on people." He whispers, so softly I came barely hear him.

The tension grows between us. Finally, I relive it by slowly pushing lips to his. My heart feels like it's on fire, in a good way. The longer we kiss, the more quick it becomes.

The sounds of our lips together is loud, the sound of quick breathes in between every kiss is louder.

His hands wrap around my waist. I push  against him, feeling his heart beat out of his chest. He begins placing delicate kisses along my neck causing my head to go back.

"We can't keep doing this, Ben." I mumble.

"I know." He whispers into my skin. ___________________________