The last hour of your life.

The paper felt light in my hand, I kept reading a certain part of it over and over again, it was the part where the girl finally accepted that she was in love with the man that was made for her, somehow did that part looked forced and unrealistic. I took a deep breath and letting it all go in a deep sight, I closed the book and looked around in my room.

I saw myself sitting on my bed in the mirror, my light green eyes where the first things I found in the mirror, after that my black hair that was tied in a ponytail. I got of my bed and walked to the mirror and touched it lightly with my fingertips, I felt the coldness from the mirror and in some strange way did it feel good. I wanted to turn away from the mirror again when I suddenly felt dizzy, and after that begin my heart to hurt, I tried to walk but I collapsed on the ground in one go, I tried with my last breath to scream for my parents who where downstairs, but by the time my head hitted the ground started everything to become dark.

By the time I heard people talking did I see my parents in panic next to me, my mom held my hand with a lot of force while my dad looked white… he didn't have any colour on his face, his eyes looked sad while my mom was crying river's of tears and saying that everything would be fine.

Although she did say it and looked at me with a face that really looked like she meant it… I wasn't stupid, I just knew that I wouldn't survive this.

Ever since I was diagnosed that I have a very weak heart was my world over, I couldn't do anything like running wild or do something else than sit with my ass on a chair. I was very weak, the doctors always told me to be careful with everything I did, because it could go wrong any time. I lived with that fair for many years, while I suffered, did my parents everything for me to make my life easy. I went to school because I really wanted to but if I didn't say that, I would have probably stayed home for ever.

I was put inside a white room and the doctors took my dad away for a talk, I was left alone in the room together with my mother -Who was still crying her eyes out-

"Mom… Please don't cry" My voice sounded weaker than I expected, it surprised me.

My mom's eye's grew a bit wider and she got rid of her tears with her hands.

"I'm sorry darling, it was just… I heard you scream so I rushed to you and there you where, unconsciousness and lying there like a dead person, it got to fast to me and I couldn't move for a second." She looked to have an emotional fight with herself so I didn't say anything and waited for her to continue.

"Your dad called the hospital and well… here we are, ha." She really did look like she was gonna cry again.

My dad walked inside again without the doctors and I saw that my moms face turned pale, she looked at my dad and than back at me, she did a few times and then she started to cry for real

"No.. P-please say it's not true.." She walked towards my dad and hugged him and my dad did the same, when they letting go, came my dad towards me.

"I'm sorry honey… I-I.."

"It's fine dad, I kinda understood the situation when you left the room." My dad looked very pitiful but I couldn't do anything to make it better for him.

"How long..?"

"an hour.. at most, your heart is at his limit, they can't do anything for you anymore."

"I understand.." I gave of a weak smile and my mom couldn't say anything to me and neither could I.

That hour was a nice one, I was letting go of a lot of secrets and so did my parents, I was getting weaker and weaker and indeed within a hour was I at death's door…

I just closed my eyes and I felt myself drifting away, I couldn't even hear my parents anymore.