Why do you think you are here?

Mid terms were soon approaching and Christmas also which meant one thing

   Winter dance.

We always had our winter dance a day before Christmas eve. I never liked attending them because it was always boring even though Trish had tried to force me each time but it was all in vain. I went freshman year but like I said, boring.

For the past three weeks I had visited two therapist but all didn't get anywhere and I was visiting another today.

     Great.

"Hey b". Trish greeted me as I approached her car.

"This is such a waste of time." I muttered opening her door.

"Ash don't be like that. It will help you." She stated as she started the car.

"I know and I love you for it."

"Duh!" She said and I smiled

    30 minutes later, we arrived at a three storey building.

"Is this the place?" I asked Trish.

"I hope not" The building looked like it had been there for ages with it's worn out paints and old windows.

"Why don't we go in?" I asked as I opened the car door.

"Yeah sure." She got out and added "You know what they say, don't judge a book by it's cover. You may never know, the inside might be better." She said locking the car and walking beside me.

"Yeah sure." I muttered as we walked into the building

"Okay yeah I take back what I said, this place is fucked up." She muttered as we entered through the double doors. The inside was painted white which if not looked at careful will look brown. The paints were peeling off and small ugly greek statues were everywhere and I mean everywhere. The paints screamed depression.

"Hey we are here for therapy?" She said in a questioning tone to the receptionist.

"Do you have an appointment?" The woman snapped at us.

    Woah bitchy much?

She looked in her late twenties and was currently dressed in a pink body hug top and I couldn't see what she was wearing underneath because she was sitting. Her black hair was packed in a tight bun and she had brown eyes.

"Okay listen you bitc-"

"Okay that's cool Trish." I interrupted Trish before she said anything out of line and I turned to the bitch.

     Okay listen here you bitch,

"We have an appointment so can you please suck up your bitchy mood and tell us where her office is at." I said super sweetly with a fake smile.

"First floor, down the hall then turn right and first door by the left. Take the stairs, elevator is out of service." She said glaring at Trish.

"Why am I not surprised." Trish said and I glared at her.

"Now that wasn't so hard was it?" I asked her and before she could reply, I turned to Trish. "C'mon let's go." I said pulling her hand and walked away.

"Bitch." I heard Trish say to her and I chuckled.

We arrived at the door and the door had a 'Dr kelma' on it.

"Look we are here." Trish said dryly.

"C'mon let's go." She said knocking once and opened the door.

Inside was an office painted cream. A lady in her late thirties was sitted on a chair concentrating on whatever task she was doing and looked up when we entered and smiled. Books filled everywhere on her desk, floor and even shelves. There were so many books it reminded me of the library.

     Been long I visited there.

The woman stood up her smile widening. She is really pretty. She was dressed in a black knee length dress and her hair was packed in a bun. She had striking hazel eyes and pearly white teeth.

"Hey welcome, I'm doctor kate kelma" She said and extended her hands.

"Ashley." I said shaking her hand.

"Trisha." She said waving.

"Nice to meet you. Why don't you have a seat."

"Thanks but I think this is a kind of personal stuff so I'll be outside." She said moving to the door.

"No problem." Dr kelma said.

"Bye Ash."

"Bye." I said and sat down.

"Okay. Let's begin. So do you know why you are here Ashley?" She asked taking a note and pen from her desk.

"Um......to....to get well?"

"Okay let me put it like this, why do you think you are here?"

"Well, my friends currently think I need help and-" I began to say but she interrupted me.

"You think you don't?"

"Um I...." I couldn't say anything because I didn't know what to say.

"Tell me something, did you have any kind incident that made your friends think you need help?"

"Yeah."

"Would you like to share it?"

"Not really."

"Okay." She said and wrote on her note.

"This incident that happened, did nightmares follow?"

"Um, yes?"

"Since when?"

"Almost three years now."

"Any specifics."

"Can we not discuss this?" I don't why, but I snapped at her.

"Well, we need to discuss, to know why you are here." She said calmly and it was ticking my anger.

"Don't you know why I'm here or isn't it your job to know?"

"But you don't."

"What?"

"Do you believe you need help to overcome this?"

"I......." I didn't know what to say.

"Listen miss...."

"Colton." I said and her eyes widened before she continued.

     Must know the name.

"Miss Colton, if I remember clearly, I asked you why you think you are here and not what your friends think."

      Why am I here. Do I really need help? Why should I need help when it's all my fault.

I thought to myself

"This is bullshit." I stood up and left slamming the door behind me.

    I'm here to clear my guilt. Right?"

"Hey panda." I heard when I got downstairs.

I looked up to see Christian waving at me as I walked towards him

"What are you doing here?" I asked confused.

"I'm here to pick you up."

"And Trish?" I asked walking towards the door

"She had to go, so she told me to come pick you up."

"Oh."

"How was the session?" He asked as we started walking towards the car.

"Bullshit." I said and he opened the door for me and I blushed and muttered a quick thanks

     Damn you blush.

"So I will take it as it didn't go well?" He asked as he entered the car.

"Yeah."

"Wanna go somewhere?"

"Now?" I asked unsure

"Yeah."

"In uniforms?"

"Yeah sure why not."

"Okay then let's go."

"Where do you want to go?"

"Anywhere but here."

"To the movies then." He said and started driving.

Few minutes later we got to the movies and Christian parked his car.

"Wait here." He said got down, rounded the car and opened the door.

"Why did you do that?"  I asked as I got out.

"Because I wanted to do this." He linked his fingers with mine and I blushed.

       Oh my god

I could feel butterflies in my tummy and I'm very sure my face is deep red by now.

"C'mon let's go."

We walked inside and apparently only two movies were about to show and they both were horror.

"So what's it gonna be panda, invisible man or countdown?"

"Um...."

"Oh my gosh, you guys are so cute. Such a lovely couple." The girl behind the counter squealed.

"We-" I was about to correct her but Christian beat me to it.

"Thanks. We'll go with countdown." He replied with a smile.

"Luckily for you guys, we are having a discount for couples today. 20% off." She said with a smile as she handed us the tickets.

"Thanks." Christian said and paid for it.

"I can pay too you know."

"I know."

"So what are your names?" The girl asked.

"Christian."

"Ashley?" I was confused with why she was asking us.

"Oh my gosh, Chrisley. That's so adorable." She squealed.

"Thanks again." Christian said with a small wave and turned to go into the threatre.

"See you next time!" The girl called after us.

"Why didn't you deny that we weren't a couple?" I asked him when we were out of earshot.

"Then we wouldn't have gotten this discount,would we?"

"Still-"

"Just chill okay. You make it sound like us being a couple is a bad thing. Jeez."

"But there is no freezer." I said pouting and Christian stopped in his tracks and looked at me confused.

"Wha- ohmygod Ashley seriously?" He asked finally understanding.

"What?! You said I should chill but I don't see any freezer around." I said innocently

"Let's just go okay?" He said shaking his head.

"Get ready to be scared." He said as he handed our tickets to a man and he opened the door to the movie room for us.

"Well the feeling won't be new anyway." I muttered to myself.