Let it go

"Hey Bryan! let's to the mascot! It looks fun?!" said a little girl who looks like she's going to be really beautifull when she grows up.

"But it looks scary?.." said a little fatty who's name is Bryan, he looks ordinary and a little cute because he's still a kid. Being fat is cute when you're a kid.

"Don't worry! Mom said it won't hurt us! hehee! She said there's a person inside and this mascot seems to have a girl inside! And I'm here! i'll protect you! Don't you know who i am? I am super Sandra! shhoooong! The super hero who save's the day! let's go! let's go!" said the little girl who's name is Sandra.

"A-alright, but you have to be close to me?.. promise?" said the little fatty.

"Of course! Your my bestfriend! I will never go away! heehee! Go! Go! Go!" said the little girl that started running after.

(few minutes later)

"Alright kids! You both take a sit beside the table, let's take a picture! hehe! Is the party, fun? Come here quick! The party is over! we'll go home after this picture!" said Sandra's mom, just like Sandra, she's energetic.

"Yes Mom/Auntie!" said Bryan and Sandra

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Hey guys! that was the oldest picture together with my love Sandra, just the two of us. Haha! I'm just a small scaredy fatty back then.

We're really close at that picture, almost hugging each other.

The second one is when we first got to school. We got a picture in a bench, in some play ground, don't remember where. And of course I'm still a fatty, less cute but not repugnant. Currently, I am still a fatty, but not cute but also not repugnant, I am not too fat that i will look like a giant meat ball. I only have a beer barrel belly and a pretty huge stature but i'm still me just slightly more courageous and slightly successful in my business.

Right now i'm preparing for a wedding and tomorrow, i will meet my lovely Sandra in her wedding dress at the altar. hehe.

I know it's obvious, but you see, i really love her so, that i will do everything to make her happy.

Sandra is always there for me starting fron when we met when we're kids. She saves me when i'm in trouble, specially with bullies. And i also cover for her when she does something bad, like breaking something in their house or somewhere else.

I realize that i love her when we are high school students. You see, i'm a geek, kind of cliche when you know that i'm also a fatty. I always help her with school stuffs. In return we always get together to do it. Oh, i forgot to say that we are neighbors. It was at that time when i over came my fear of darkness when the electricty's gone black out, because i know we both are scared of darkness specialy the sudden darkness. I heard her cry out of shock from the sudden black out. Then I forgot my fear, i only want to find her.

Well... I didn't get to find her because mom found us. haha. Kind of funny because i stumbled in darkness to do so and when i'm almost there, it was finish. But it was okay. Cause she's okay. I love her after all.

hmmmmm... There's too much to prepare when you're holding a wedding. 'sighs' I really want see her in her wedding dress already. I know she will be pretty. But i want to know how pretty she can become.

It's also this troublesome when i'm preparing for the engagement. No, I think, preparing for a wedding is more troublesome?

Anyway, this is for her, so i will persevere.

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Now i am standing the altar, waiting for her to have her beautiful entrance.

now she's walking slowly towards the altar looking forward, teary eyed from happiness.

Her mom and dad is also teary eyed, specialy her dad, no, he's already crying, alright.

Some of her girl best friends are also teary eyed.

Me? I don't know if i'm crying already or i'm just teary eyed or maybe having red eyes.

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".... Do you swear in front of good to love your this lady in front of you ti'll death do you apart?" said the priest.

Of course my answer is I do. I'll do everything to make her happy after all.

Then the priest also asked her the question and of course she answered i do. And now she's already crying out of happiness.

I'll do everything to protect that happiness. I love her that much. I will sacrifice even my own happiness for her, I know i will...

"Congratulations! You may kiss the bride!" said the priest

Then here it comes! She kissed...

Him...

This is why i said i know i will earlier, because i already do.

I know she will be happy, he's the love of her life and she's the love of his life same as me.

He will surely make her happy just like me.

I know! I'm not him! F*ck! hoooo!

I already know. This is her happiness after all.

I'm her best friend after all.

That's why, I will just be standing here at the side of her husband, as the best man, recommended by her to her newly wed husband before the wedding.

But it hurts, you see.. I don't know how to deal with this.

I just wish for time move faster right.

Because i'm all sweaty now, face full of tears shivering legs, tightening heart, i'm afraid that i won't be able to hold on if i stayed here for long.

I guess... This is goodbye. Maybe I shouldn't have been here all along? Maybe i should have been brave enough to even confess my feelings for her long ago. Maybe, just maybe, I am the one hugging her now.

No! I shouldn't regret! She's happy now! I should just be happy for her! Even if it hurts so much.