Leaving the Dream

Emily

I am not one hundred percent sure about what just happened. Was he a figment of my imagination? Did I subconsciously create him in my dreams? If I did, go me! He was gorgeous. My heart is still reacting. I feel flushed, a little turned on. His voice; deep, dark and sensual. Every word that came out of him sent a little electric pulse down to my cookie and a shiver up my spine.

I am still standing in the middle of my studio apartment looking at the closed door, wondering what I am supposed to do next. Part of me does not want to leave. What if I never see him again because he was just a dream? I feel like I have three goals now, get a career going, kill my enemies, find that guy and latch on like a parasite and have parasite babies. I cackle at my own insanity.

I guess I will just sit around and wait for Gabby. Sam said she was coming, and Sam... for such a massive beast, he was adorable. I will have to ask Gabby what she did to him. He was so upset. Just thinking about him makes me giggle. When Gabby gets here, we will figure this all out.

I did not lie; I thought about all of it, it is not like I had anything else going on while I was stuck in here. I was initially hurt, not devastated, but definitely hurt. Even if my mate didn't want me, he could have just rejected me and moves along., but he wanted me to suffer. He wanted to see me broken. Someone hated me to that limit. I could feel his excitement as he was hurting me. I would be lying if I said a small part of me wasn't cracked, I still felt a little afraid of leaving this safe place. But I am not broken. I am not letting them break me.

I close my eyes and lean my head back against the futon frame, waiting for Gabby. I miss that bitch. No sooner than that thought popped into my head, my wolf is in front of me. She is circling around nervously, pacing back and forth. She was a cute wolf, smaller than most, with glossy brown fur and white socks.

"Where were you, Gabby? I needed you," I asked. I am irritated but relieved she is here now.

"I am sorry, I am so, so sorry. I felt so ashamed because I couldn't help you. I am worthless and weak." Gabby sits down in front of me and puts her head down between her shoulders, her ears are flat and sad, and she whimpers.

I slide down next to her and hug her. "I love you, Gabby. You will never be worthless or weak. You are my best friend and the only one I have ever been able to count on, so never leave me agian. That shame isn't yours or mine, it is theirs. They should be ashamed." It is the truth. Gabby means everything to me. I do not think I could live without her.

"I promise," Gabby said and rubs her head against me.

"So, you and Sam? What did you do to him?" I ask with amusement in my voice.

Gabby perks up immediately. " Fucken A, did you see him? Woof, and I am not telling you what I did." She laughs and rolls around like she is deranged. "Hot diggity giggity, do you think we will see him again?" Gabby pops up with all seriousness. "Since we no longer have a mate, can I breed Sam?"

"Umm... that is not how that works. You are the girl; it is the other way around you damn perv, and I am pretty sure you need him on board for any of that." I laugh at her sad look. Dang weirdo.

"What did his human look like?" Gabby asked, instantly about Sam's other half.

"Smoken, older but worth climbing that mountain," I answer. " Maybe I will breed him..." I teasingly say, not that I thought I had a chance.

Gabby laughs at that, "We should probably get going" she said "We have a lot to figure out."

I agree and get up off the floor dusting my bottom. "Shall we?" I ask. Gabby nods and we step out of the apartment.