I am Alpha Scott

SCOTT POV

There were no exact words to depict how much I hate myself. With prolonged inconclusive thinking, I ruffled my hair with my both hands trying to remember amples of memory from last night that I could not recall. I breakfast hate in the morning with no apetite to ingest the meal Reina brought me. Seeing Roman and having a mocking confrontation with him completed a full main course of a terrible meal served in the morning.

Staring at the wound on my leg, I cursed myself for not being able to heal quickly from the undeniable inflicted harm I got from Diana's silver dagger. I ought to be certain because the inoculated poison from my wound reeks of the concoction of wolfsbane and toxins that I personally made for the Devlin's company.

It got to be her, but why? My body have already recuperated from the poison yet, my wounds are still taking time to heal. I smashed the glass window with my knuckles and watched my fist bleed. In a matter of seconds it healed like nothing happened. I am still me, I believe.

What made my leg wound heal slower… silver? No way. I will not be like my father who loses his mind at the sight and touch of silver.

I took my gunmetal lighter Roman left on my side table. Grazing it with my thumb as I hold it up, I sniffed it sensing a deathly menace. Have I really turned to a monster? Am I a threat to the life of my Luna?

Roman was quite certain that I might have become something savage unable to keep my clan safe, moreso Diana. He'll be confirming it by the next full moon. Now, it makes me more concerned if it's true.

Am I becoming like my father who's anxious of the moon? No way, I will not be like my father. PERIOD.

But, what if.. what if Roman is the real monster and he's just planting deceit over me? He must be.

I am not just only a born leader, but I am also the son of both Alphas Viktor and Karin. My life is as valuable as a diamond in a mine. I am the rarest pearl under the sea. I may have lost a bit of my memory at a most vital moment, but it doesn't prove my incompetency. I am Alpha Scott.

My father have always reminded me never to make mistakes, and be the greatest Alpha I can be. Be the greatest Alpha like Viktor and Karin. In every welt and whip on my bare back, my father made sure I am the strongest and wisest Alpha the Grayback Clan would ever have. And so, I will be.

Long before, I was taught to demolish my fears for they serve as weaknesses. My father reiterated that fears are easy targets to one's destruction. My mother stood by his side both in tears and in approval. I never had one, until I imprinted. I shrink in fear at the thought of losing Diana, and not being able to be with her. Right now, I could hear my father's voice behind my head telling me to consign my new found fear to oblivion with a slap on my face. But it is, what it is. I love Diana, and I will love my Luna tenderly for I am nothing like my father.

But where's my Luna? Where's Diana? I cried inside hearing the horrible things she went through to survive the night. And I died a little, knowing she found sanctuary in Roman's arms and not in mine.

I have to find her, before the whole town do something they'll regret. I have to find her before Roman completely takes her away. I know Stanley wouldn't dare hurt her. Unclear why I shouldn't imprint, Diana isn't to blame for all that's taken place. She is innocent as a child.

I grunted as I tried to walk. I clenched my fist at the unbearable pain. Enduring the affliction upon exertion, my phone surprisingly rang. My heart pounded heavily seeing Lucas' name at the screen. Bring me good news, bud.

"Talk to me", I said.

Lucas: Found her

Hearing his words brought delight in my heart as I took a long deep breath. At this instant, I wanted to grow wings and fly.

"Where? ", I asked as I hurried out. "On my way", I replied. I rush out as I wince in every long rapid step, forgetting the pain and hoping in vain. Passing the now empty streets of the forlorn town, I looked straight ahead with my weary and yearning heart.

I walked in long decisive steps in a specified direction. The trees were lesser compared last night. I went deep into the woods until I hear my own breath out of pain. Then I finally reached the banyan tree where I expeced Diana would be.

I walked closely and slowly until I saw a dangling shiny object. It's the necklace Diana gave me. I held it and flinched as it burned my skin. I touched it again cautiously, and this time, I felt my skin hissed at the burning heat of the silver necklace. Maybe it's just the heat of the sun making the silver scorching. I grabbed the necklace by the pendant instead and kept it in my pocket.

"Where are you, Diana?", I uttered. I lifted my eyes up as I sensed the familiar scent belonging to the person I'm longing for. I turned around, and exhaled sharply parting my dry lips as I look at her standing in front of me.

Dressed in an oversized grey tunic and standing barefoot on the leafy ground, she smiled at me with her tantalizing sapphire eyes as she nods at me. I walked towards her at a slow pace with my gaze locked at her. She seemed fine despite all the dirt on her face, arms and legs. No visible wounds, scratches or broken bones noted from head to toe.

I held her cold cheek as her tear fall. In one swift move, I locked her in my arms burying my face in her neck. She sobbed a little, I tear more..