Dark clouds again

Ah yes fate, my good old friend, today again, we meet.

I thought you had forgotten me , I guess I was wrong; you were only planning something big.

You see the water, the water has always been my enemy, whether snowing or raining, it had always been.

And fate? Fate always used the water to fight me, and it usually struck during my birthday period.

The time I drowned? It was few days to my birthday.

The time I was adopted by Mr Peters? It was few days to my birthday.

The Time I found Jacob cheating? It was few days to my birthday.

The time Grey and I almost went apart? It was few days to my birthday.

The time my mother died? Few days to my birthday.

Today was March 8, exactly two months after my mother died.

They would have buried her earlier, but I insisted they didn't, because I didn't believe that she was dead.

To me, that isn't her lying down in the coffin with her eyes closed, it was someone else.

To me, she isn't dead, the body I saw that day wasn't hers, it was someone else's own.

This was the first time since the year began that it rained.

It rained so heavily, I thought it would be the end of the world.

I sat under the rain, refusing shades from people with umbrella, tears in my eyes as I stared at her grave.

    ' Jamal Harrison Wilson

       1976- 2022 '

I insisted they bury her with her maidens name.

I don't know what to say honestly because believing that she was dead sounded like a myth to me.

The funeral was over but I refused to leave, I stared up at the clouds pouring it's frustration on me.

Now, I know I was completely alone.

No one even dared try to tell me to go, I wanted to sleep here all the days of my life.

Funny how she was the one always worrying that I would leave her alone in this world, guess who left first??

Memories upon memories began flooding my head, bringing a fresh batch of tears to flood my eyes.

I wasn't sobbing, I wasn't whimpering, just steady tears flowing.

After all we've been through together?? Just when we were about to finally settle down and be happy, she dies.

Was I really anticipating happiness?? Really? How sad of me to think happiness will come. Life had promised me one thing, there will always be dark clouds looming about my head, even if the rain stops, there will never be a rainbow, never! And I would have to deal with that till I finally leave this world.

After all the tears, struggles , trials, pains, agony, and sorrows she had been through,we had been through!! She's gone. Never to return.

Suddenly, the rain above me stopped falling and I looked up and saw an umbrella shielding me from the rain.

I turned and saw Grey standing beside me quietly, looking at her grave.

"It's time to go Bella" he said softly, not even looking at me.

"I'm not going anywhere" I said.

"I understand" he replied.

Yes he did, he lost his mother too.

I didn't say anything.

He pulled me up and wrapped his arms around me, pulling me in for a tight hug.

"You're all I have now Grey, please don't leave too" I sobbed.

"Bella, I swear to God under this rain and beside your mother's grave, I will never leave you" I said sternly.

I started crying again, this time more vigorously.

I had lost everything, I had lost everyone.

If Grey leaves too, there's no doubt that they would find me in my room hanging over a ceiling fan.

"I had chosen to remain strong all my life because of my mother, because I didn't want her to break down too, now she was gone, who was I going to be strong for? Who?". I cried.

" Be strong for me baby, be strong for me" he whispered in shaky voice.

Grey was crying? For me?

" I can't, I can't do this anymore Grey, I can't do this, I'm tired" I cried harder.

"Please Bella, pull through, pull through for me, do it for me. " He choked out.

"I'm not gonna survive this Grey, fuck no!" I cried unable to control myself.

" You're gonna survive, don't give up so soon, just relax" he said

"But Grey, they killed her because they didn't see me, they wanted me not her, why did she have to die, why did they kill her?!!!" I screamed

He was silent , he didn't say anything.

"Bella please, I know this is hard for you, trust me I understand, but you have to be strong. Your enemies, the people that killed her, they want you this way , they want you to give up, that's why they killed her. But you have to be strong Bella please, do it for your mother, whether she's here or not

And as for the people that killed her, we'll find them, I'll make sure of it, and I'll make sure they pay for it dearly, I'll make sure to kill them" he assured me.

I stopped crying,I was quite, allowing the rain around us cover up for the silence as he held the umbrella over my head and his other hand around me firmly.

"No" I started" I'll kill them myself" I said sternly.

    Grey's Pov

The past few months have been the worse we've ever had.

I thought when my mother died I overreacted, I was wrong, Bella's own was worse.

That day when Maxwell told us that her mother was dead, Bella fainted, I had to call the emergency department In the airport to help her come back.

I sped down to her house,the one that her mother lived in and saw a large crowd gathering there.

Bella ran in and started demanding for her mother.

But they said they had already carried her to the mortuary and Bella almost strangled the person that said that demanding that they bring her back home that she wasn't dead.

I asked her house keeper what happened.

The woman said that they were in the house the previous night when they started hearing strange noises coming from outside and then immediately some group of men bounced in with their faces covered holding guns.

I asked about her security guards and she said they had murdered them all and only one managed to escape and called for the police.

Then she said that they were asking for Bella and they said that Bella wasn't around.

They accused them of lying saying that Bella came back a week ago, signifying that they had been stalking us.

When Bella's mother tried to protest saying that Bella wasn't around, they shot her and left just before the police arrived.

We checked the security cameras outside and it was evident that they came in and shot the security guards.

Then there was a black SUV parked outside waiting for them, as soon as they got in , few minutes later, someone inside threw out their dead bodies indicating that the person had shot them and then drove off.

The question was, who was the person, why did the person kill the same persons that was sent to work for the person, and why did the person want to kill Bella.

Bella wasn't even interested in hearing the story, all she wanted to do was to see her mother..

By the time the police arrived and rushed her mother to the hospital, she was dead.

We started investigations immediately and one of the assassinator that managed to survive till they took him to hospital was investigated on and he revealed that he didn't know who the person was, that he never even saw the persons face because the person had a mask on, all he knew was that the person had a blonde hair.

Same blonde haired person that made Bella drown.

The assassinator said that the reason why the person shot them was because the person asked them to kill only Bella but went on to kill her mother, and the person was angry.

That was all said before the guy died.

Bella kept on demanding to see her mother's body, and when she finally saw it, she broke into tears, crying and wailing , unable to control herself.

She kept on saying that her mother wasn't dead, and that if the person she was looking at was actually dead, then it wasn't her mother, she didn't allow them to bury her, she insisted that they shouldn't bury her, that she was sleeping and she would wake up, sometimes she talked crazy and I would fear that she was moving mad.

After she finally accepted that she was dead and after the burial, I had lost count of the numbers of times I had woken up in the middle of the night and not find Bella in bed, I would look for her in the entire town till I'll finally find her in her mother's grave begging her to wake up.

I would have to beg her to come back to the house.

Most of the time, I wouldn't be able to sleep, because she would be crying all night and I would have to hold her assuring her that she would be ok.

Maxwell had to handle most of her jobs, the news was out already that Bella's mother was murmured in her house so she wasn't mentally stable enough to work.

I begged her to eat everyday and most of the time,  I had to call doctors to put her on drip so she wouldn't faint, because she wasn't eating.

I couldn't even go to work, because I feared that if I leave her for one second, she might kill herself.

I can't count the number of times she had said I should just let her die because there was no point keeping her alive when her life was a misery and that she can't take it anymore.

I had gotten her psychologist, gotten her a therapist, all of them said that they couldn't handle her case and that she had to heal on her own.

Today, surprisingly she slept, she laid in my arms sleeping without being drugged or anything.

I felt inner peace in me as I saw her lying there so peaceful.

Then, she jerked out of the bed and ran to the bathroom, emptying her system.

I walked up behind her and held her hair up for her.

When she was done, she rinsed her mouth and looked at me.

Her eyes were gloomy and heavy and she could barely stand properly.

I wrapped my hands around her and kissed her head.

She had probably gotten I'll from the back to back crying and being stressed out.

I picked her up and carried her to our bed and sat down making her comfortable on my leg facing me.

She rested her head on my chest.

"I think I'm pregnant" she whispered.

What she said shocked me.

I mean, yes obviously I was expecting it, but at least not now, not now that she's a mess.

"When last did you see your period?" I asked.

"Been very long" she answered slowly.

I tapped her head slowly," I'll get the doctor to run a test on you today, okay?"

She nodded.

"Grey I'm sorry" she said quietly.

"For what?" I asked.

"I've been stressing you a lot these days, being like a liability to you" she said.

" I'm not complaining, so you don't have to worry about it" I whispered softly.

"Thank you so much Grey" she whispered and looked at me. Her eyes were heavy, but God knows , she still looked beautiful.

" I don't know what I would have done without you" she added.

I left a quick kiss on her lips.

" Just get better soon okay baby?" I said.

"I'll try" she said and I smiled.

" Your head still hurt?" I asked touching her head .

She nodded," a little" she said.

"You have to eat and take your meds" I said.

"I'm hungry" she said touching her tummy.

"Should I cook?" I asked.

Upon the fact that she was weak and all, Bella shook her head vigorously.

"No, don't, please" she said and I laughed a little.

"Bella, please" I whined.

She looked like she was going to cry.

"I don't wanna die by food poisoning" she said and I laughed, I haven't laughed in a while.

Maybe I should have tried getting her in a conversation, maybe she would have loosed up earlier.

I played with her cheeks.

"Baby,it's late, we can't order anything, just let me show you that I can do it, please" I said.

She sighed," okay" she said.

I smiled and picked her up, boy was she heavy, then I placed her on my shoulders.

"Let's go to the kitchen" I said carrying her out of the room , downstairs to the kitchen.

I placed her down gently on the counter, that was when I stared at her tummy.

Usual Bella had very flat tummy and all, but at this point, her tummy was looking bigger than usual.

I tried to hide the smile, fuck what if she's actually pregnant?? For me??!

"What if you're actually pregnant?" I asked staring at her tummy.

" I don't know" she sighed

" I mean I'm supposed to be happy and all, but..."

I placed my finger on her lips stoping her from talking.

"There's nothing to worry about, I just want you to heal and go back to normal" I said softly.

"Therapists have given up on me in just two days trial Grey, how long am I going to continue like this?" She said sadly.

"Then that's left for you to decide, it's for you to either continue like this, or dust yourself and decide that this is over" I whispered.

"I'm tired, I just want it to end, I want this bad dream to just end" she said.

I placed my arms around her waist and laid a gentle kiss on her lips, I wanted to pull away but she pulled me back deepening the kiss.

At that point, all the functioning cells in my body started begging me to pull her clothes off, but this wasn't the time for that.

She pulled away.

"She's actually gone Grey? For real?" She asked sadly.

I nodded," but she's still here, everywhere, watching you and watching over you" I said and kissed her forehead.

"I miss her Grey, I miss her so much" she sobbed in my chest.

"I miss her too" I said

She sighed.

"Don't worry, I'm your mummy now" I said.

She pulled away from me and looked at me for some seconds before letting out a small giggle.

That alone made me happy, that was the first time I was seeing her smile in a long time.

"Grey you can't be my mom, you don't have a vagina" she said giggling.

"Well I can cut my dick off if you want" I said grinning because she was laughing.

"No, please don't, I prefer it that way" she said snuggling into my chest.

Fuck this girl was so adorable.

"I'm happy you're smiling" I said softly.

" Thanks for making me smile" she said.

"Well I need to cook" I said trying to pull away from her.

She pulled me back," please don't" she whimpered.

"Bella, cmon I thought we already agreed on this, I'm not that bad at cooking, I just haven't cooked In a while, that's all" I said.

She sighed.

" I know I said I wanted to die earlier, but I change my mind, I don't want to, not now, not ever!" She said making me laugh.

" God, I missed this part of you so much" I said stroking her cheeks.

" I'm just tired of being depressed and all" she said

Then she finally let me go.

" Don't poison me Grey, I'm really hungry, just cook something up , okay?"

I smiled," yes ma'am" I said smiling and started looking for ingredients.

"Where is my phone?" She asked.

"It's in our bedroom" I said.

"I haven't seen it in a while" she said and went out of the kitchen.

A moment later, she came back with her phone beeping with notifications.

It kept on beeping for almost 20 minutes, then it stopped when I was done cooking.

" I'm done" I said setting the food in front of her.

"Lasagna?" She asked surprised.

I nodded smiling.

She took a deep breath in and then out,then she tasted it, she was quiet for a moment, then she tasted it again and smiled.

"Wait, you cooked this?" She asked.

"Did you see anybody In the kitchen with me?"

"Fuck Grey no way, this is so good, I take back whatever I said about you before" she said devouring the food.

I smiled," told you I was good" 

Then my phone started ringing.

This late?

I checked the time, it was few minutes past 3.

"Martins?" I said picking the call.

"Dude, there's something you need to hear" he said.

"What is it?"

" So remember the black SUV? The one that was parked in front of Bella's house? The one during the night of her mother's death?

Well we checked the car distribution companies and they said that they recently sold a black SUV to someone under the disguise of a construction company, after much investigations, that construction company doesn't exist.

We were able to track the car down, it was found in an abandoned building in New York, the car was discovered few days ago, and we did some finger print and DNA test, there was nothing found in the car, nothing at all"

I ran my hands through my head.

"This person is a psycho, I mean how was the person able to do all this without leaving a single mark, what kind of clean job is this?" I said.

" Honestly, this isn't something normal, it's very crazy, but don't worry, we have the entire police force on our side. We'll find this person, trust me, we will" he assured.

" But why would someone buy a car not up to a year and abandon it?" I asked.

" From investigations, that person also bought a car from another company using the fake construction company name some time ago, that same period that Bella drowned, the car was found parked outside directly behind the pool , we assumed that the persons intentions were to carry Bella's body out but that was when you came in"

"Have you checked the security footage for that day?" I asked.

"The person was masked, the only thing that was seen was a blonde hair". Martins said.

"Fuck, and DNA test and finger prints test on the steering wheel and other parts of the car?" I asked.

"There was a pack of black gloves found in the car, signifying that the person wore them in order not to get caught, this person is manipulative as fuck"

I placed my hand on my head.

Who is this person and why is the person after Bella? I mean I would understand if the person was after me and all because I knew I had a lot of enemies, but why Bella?

"Do you think the person is using Bella as a weapon realizing it's your weakness? What if the person in question is after you?" Martins asked.

I exhaled.

"Dude, I don't know, even if the person would want to attack me, the person would want Bella alive,as a bait, probably kidnap her that kind of stuff, not want her dead" I said confused.

"Does she has enemies?" Martins asked.

"No, not any that she can think of"

"Think about it, is there anyone that envies her or something she has or wanted a position but she took it away from the person?" Martins asked.

"Honestly I don't" Bella said, instantly reminding me that she was still here and heard the whole conversation.

"I mean what's there to envy in my life? It's from sorrow to sorrow, and honestly I feel sorry for whoever is envying me, because the person has no idea what the person is thinking, I'll swap places any day anytime." She said emotionless eating her lasagna.

Emotionless like me

" It's okay Bella, I promise you, we're gonna find that person and kill the person" Martins said through the phone.

"Nope" she said. " I'm gonna kill the person"