Not anymore

I sat on the rooftop. The clouds are turning black. I can feel the little dots of rain. Seems like the sky is also crying with me. Thank God I didn't mention Teo's name on the letter. Otherwise I might faint that time. I don't know why God is doing this with me. Is this fair? I've never loved someone like him in my whole life. And I can't love anyone like him. He feels like my everything. Whenever I felt sad I only remembered his face and all the sadness were completely gone. But today, it feels like you've also taken that one person from my life. How will I survive now? How am I supposed to start my day without thinking of him? I will try to forget him.. I have to forget him. My tears aren't stopping. I want to scream so loudly. What will I do now? What am I living for? I don't want to live in this cruel world anymore.

I stood on the roof wall. Our school building is 10 storeys high. There will be no chance that I'll survive if I jump out from here right? Everything will be easier then. It started raining heavily. I am feeling so happy. I stretched one more step. God I am coming to you.