Chapter 1:The Start Of The Story

"Hey, Andrew, what are you up to? You've been staring at that window for an hour now." The girl on his right started talking to him, somehow her face seemed blurried.

They were in the back seat of a classroom, and the window in his left, blowed a gust of wind. He did not answer the question and kept looking out the window as if no one talked to him.

"Rude." She said with a bit of dissapointment in her face. Yet the boy she was talking to, Andrew seemed unfazed by her words. The bell started to ring. And everyone seemed to leave the classroom. "Well, since it's already recess, I'll leave you here, want to... no, nevermind. Bye!" she left with a smile.

Andrew for some reason stayed, "She is still wanted to talk to me, huh. I don't get it, I've been ignoring her since the first semester." He stands up. "Maybe I should start speaki-... No, it's better for her to not get close to me." He walks in the corridors with an aura telling everyone to leave him alone. "...He's here again..."

Someone hugged him from his neck or rather headlocked him not seriously thou. "Oyy, Andrew, when are you gonna start dating Rose?" A boy a bit taller than him spoke to him as if they are close. "I can't breathe..." He lets go and appologises with a "sorry". Well, Andrew doesn't seem to mind but still, it's annoying. "What does it have to do with you anyway?" Andrew answered with a Tired monotone.

"You antisocial idiot, you need to have more relationships. You won't last long that way." He spoke with a cheerful smile. "And? Please leave me John."he told him with seriousness. John was a bit downward by his words"...Okay, I will, but one piece of advice, the past is in the past man, don't let it bring you down. It wasn't yo-"

"That's not your business, now bye." He ran away until he reached the garden on his school, every flowers around him are dried, it also has webs around it as if no one watered it for so long.

He eats and as he eat, a small droplet of water dropped down the sky, Then it started to rain. He got on a shelter, a shelter with barely one people could fit but he wasn't alone. It was a little girl and she was speaking silently, he did not seem to notice it

"I will be late after the recess finished, not that it really matters..." He sighed. "All things have consequences and all decisions can change the world." The girl spoke. "What?" He was a bit taken aback by this randomness, Then he compromised himself.

"What did you just say?" He asked the little girl.

"This is a dream of yours and you'll be forever stuck inside it, LIVE BY THE FOOLISHNESS YOU'VE GIVEN YOURSELF."

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The alarm clock rung loudly in my ears, as I wake up. That dream again. I tried moving out of my bed but I seemed heavy. "Just a bit more."he slept again and woke up at 2pm He stands up and the sound of metal cans being crushed can be heard.

A room filled with trash and a room that smells like a dead mice. I looked in the mirror and saw myself, I can't recognize myself anymore, is that me? My body looks like socks filled with water, but I won't be dissapointed anymore. I already cried a lot this year. THIS IS WHO I AM.

Someone knockson his door, but he can barely walk towards his door. "Umm, it's your cousin. Maria and you are invited over to our family reunion." Took him a minute to get near the door but he did not open it. He sat behind the door. "Has no one told you yet?", He answered with a silent yet hearable voice. "Yes..."

"Well... you can go if you want, NO ONE IS FORCING YOU." She said with a cheerful yet pitied voice. "Thank you for telling me... I'll think about it. You may leave now."

After she left, he cried with a hopeless voice knowing he cannot blame anyone but himself. He wants to be better but at the same time, he wants to end it all. He knows he's pathetic yet he doesn't do anything about it, he's filled with doubts upon himself, that's why... He can't move on his past.

He stands and took a beer out of his fridge."pathetic", he said upon himself still he drunk, then he cried again because for him, he is helpless. he's 28 and he has no good future waiting for him, with a life and a body like that. It's only a shame for him to think that everything will be better.

He hates himself.