Chapter 5

I haven't seen James since last night and I'm getting quite worried. I can't afford to lose another person I care about. I still don't him for what he did to my baby. I just can't bring myself to leave him though.

Soon the door opened showing James. He was holding a giant teddy bear and a bouquet of different colored roses. He had tear strains on his face. He walked up to me and got down on his knees.

"I'm so sorry for what I did to you and Isabelle. I never wanted to hurt you or kill our daughter. I just can't control myself. Please forgive me. I'll try my best to change," James begged me.

"I can't forgive you for what you did. I'm scared that one day I will be the next one in a coffin. You took away someone I loved. I need time and space to think about this. I don't believe I will ever recover from this. I also don't believe I will ever see you the same again," I said truthfully.

"DO YOU ACTUALLY BELIEVE I WANTED TO KILL OUR DAUGHTER? HOW DO YOU THINK I FEEL? I KILLED HER WITH MY OWN HANDS. I DON'T NEED YOU REMINDING ME OF SOMETHING SO HORRIBLE. I'M TRYING TO BE A BETTER PERSON AND YOU WON'T LET ME. I'M TRYING TO CHANGE SO I DON'T KILL YOU NEXT. I'M ON MY KNEES BEGGING FOR FORGIVENESS AND YOU WON'T ACCEPT IT," James yelled throwing the stuff on the floor.

I started to back away when he started to yell. He started to slowly walk toward me making me more afraid. I tripped over something on the floor. I started to crawl away but he gets on top of me. I was trapped between him and the floor.

"Please forgive me," he begged. I looked at him and saw someone so vulnerable. I couldn't say no to him.

"I forgive you," I said softly. That was the biggest mistake I ever made.

James pov

She said she forgives me! Yes! I'm so happy that she forgiven me. I thought I would have to beg and buy her things for her to forgive me. I can't believe she actually forgave me. She can be so gullible sometimes.

I'll make her regret forgiving me. I'm not going to try to change at all. I realized how much I like hurting Harmony. She deserves all the pain she is feeling. If she had a problem with it she would just leave me than.

After Harmony forgave me I kissed her with all the fake passion I can muster. Don't get my wrong I still love my girlfriend of course I just can't help myself when it comes to hurting her.

After I kissed her I got up and went to the door. "Where are you going?" I heard Harmony ask.

"I'm going out," I replied bluntly. I quickly slammed the door shut not trying to continue the conversion. I get in my car and drive to the bar.

I get inside and see a lot of people. I maneuver to the bar. I get a couple of tequila shots and vodka. I started to feel tipsy. I go over to the dance floor and go behind a girl. She quickly starts to grind on me.

Soon enough we get a little frisky. I of course leave her there after I finish. I look behind me to see the girl I slept with passed out. I leave her there going to my car. I pull to my house going inside.

Harmony's pov

I hear a car pull into the the drive way. I know it's James so I don't do anything. When he comes inside I see lip stick stains on his neck. I also smell some perfume on him. My eyes start to well up.

"Where have you been?" I asked getting upset.

"None of your damn business," James replies coldly. He turns away from me heading towards the kitchen.

"Why are there hickeys on your neck and why do you smell like perfume?" I ask raising my voice. He quickly turns around heading my way.

"You better lower your damn voice while talking to me. I don't know who the hell you think are," he yelled getting my face.

I back up trying to put distance between us. "Is it okay if I cheated on you? Your going around fucking other bitches," I say while tears streamed down my face.

He started walking toward me while I backed away. My back hit the counter. "I dare you to cheat on me. Watch what will happen. You are to never cheat on me you slut," he yelled.

"Oh! So it's okay for you to cheat on me but I can't do it back?! Why can't you ever just treat me right," I cry back. He slapped me on my face two times.

"What the hell did I tell you about raising your voice?" he screamed hitting me.

I screamed begging him for mercy and to just leave me alone. After what felt like hours he finally stopped and went up stairs. I pulled up limping up the stairs. I go into the bathroom looking at myself in the mirror. The woman there I couldn't even recognize.

She looked so weak and fragile. I cried even more. I grabbed the first aid kit and wrapped myself up. I looked back in the mirror. What happened to me? I used to be so strong never letting anyone disrespect me ever.

The person I used to be is long gone. I promised myself no more. No more abuse, No more belittling, No more crying, No more this.

I walked to the guest bedroom because I refuse to lay in the same bed as him. I quickly lay in bed crying myself to sleep. I felt the other side of the bed dip and the covers move. I felt a muscular arm wrap around me. I was pulled into a strong chest.

I felt a light kiss on my neck, hair, and temple. I heard a deep sigh. "If only you knew how much I love you. I'm a monster and you should escape. I just don't know how to let you go," James whispered in my ear.