Drowning in thought

No human is born innately good or evil it is the environment that molds them into what they will become once they reach adulthood. Many take that as a wise thing to teach our children to be good beings and spread that on for a hopeful tier of no hate or war.

That quote might be true social interactions can affect a child's growth but there's another part that is forgotten. The environment itself, not the people but the plant's dirt and air these things can alter the genetic construct of people it can affect a child's intelligence and even their preference for food and the like.

Now, why did I say this for?

Honestly, no reason but a thought lingers in my mind.

I who am the creator of everything that lives breathes and thinks.

Am I evil or good or am I neither?

Maybe when I made this world I was neither but what about now?

I am a man that lost my dearest my innocence was ripped and taken from me.

I who watched the stars fall with a smile whose hope kept my people afloat became twisted my optimism became nihilism. My hope still stood but its purpose was for vengeance and to bring who I loved back from nonexistence.

I am a man who would slaughter innocent lives for my goal but at the same time I would make their end swift and merciful. I am the man who walked countless lives I have been a Saint and a demon to centillions.

I am a man who is a withered husk of a young boy that only wanted peace and I fulfill that with endless war and blood. Maybe I have my answer but I still wish to be who I once was but then again good and evil are the same thing just different perspectives.

A hero to one is a demon to the rest and a demon to one is a hero to all. I believe my goal is just but others would probably deny it and that is ok for I never cared for the opinions of hypocritical life.

Odin remembered a memory of one of his most recent lives. He compared it to his younger self and was full of melancholy the mood shift was evident to the patriarch who kept taking looks at Odin.

Odin got up and excused himself and quickly left the arena. Walking around the residence Odin was truly lost in thoughts that he couldn't pull himself out from. Many memories hurt and stabbed at his soul and many old memories comforted him, his sorrowful expression was easily displayed.

But his face soon twisted and became filled with anger he pulled out archetype and started to slash around the air releasing his stress.

From afar Ikke and the patriarch followed and watched Odin. They watched as Odin swung chaotically each swing was discordant the air the ground and even himself were slashed at.

The two quickly tried stopping him but he lashed out when they got close. Even though the patriarch was much stronger than Odin he was very keen and could feel the strong intent to end everything around him.

Around his body, the dao of death was exuded and the area around him started to die. The two noticed this and quickly retreated Odin returned to his random swinging and the dao calmed itself.

Inside odins mind trillions of thoughts played at once. Nearly silent music played a distorted mess filled with crackles and then moments of clarity. In these clear moments, he became calmer but it didn't last long he danced and swung to the music he heard.

His blade cut into his arm but he ignored it the blood that was supposed to come out didn't another cut came to his body that too didn't bleed. Even after he cut his hand he didn't bleed or notice after an hour did he finally pull himself out of his thoughts.

He looked around in confusion before realizing what he had done. He looked down and picked up the hand he had cut off and placed it on his wound. It quickly reattached itself and he made sure the cuts on his hand and legs were healed too.

To gain the dao of death one had to experience death with this dao one would have an undead body as long as their soul was safe they could survive anything. Of course, their body was like a fresh corpse yet somehow they did not rot.

'Guess I really needed to vent seems I'm still human that's good but I might need to remove my emotions so I can complete the plan I guess I'll split my mind but let's do that later.' Odin thought as he walked toward the duo.

"Hey, guys sorry about that let's forget what happened ok?" Odin said as he gave the duo a gentle smile.

The duo did not see a gentle smile but death as traces of the dao of death still lingered on Odin. The duo took this as a threat and nodded fearfully before trying to change the topic.

Odin easily noticed this and laughed in his head.

'Seems only my wife can look at my ugly face maybe it was my smile that drove my kids away or the constant beings that came to kill me and my kids or it was everything I truly am a failure of a husband and father.' Odin thought as he chuckled and walked with the duo back to the arena that was still having the rankings.