Prologue

There is a thin line between like and love. Indeed, both expressed our feeling. But, there's a real difference between both. When I like you, every second of my life is full of happiness, but when I love you, every day feel like the world will collapse. Deep down, I want you to find your happiness with all your smile on top of that. But, my ego doesn't work like that. It's fragile and can break easily by your happiness which works like a ticking bomb. I'm worried, scared, frightened that you will leave me after you see another happiness from others. The happiness that can destroy "We" and only leave "Me".

But in the end, I couldn't force what had already been written for us. I couldn't force you to stay as I want. Now, my life is finished as if a time that losing every second. I'm hopeless and drowning in my sadness. All I can do for now is hope you find your happiness there, in the place that me, Aksa doesn't exist. At least the place without a chain from me. You free there, while I will pay every sin that I did to you. I will feel all the burden that I gave you. There's a thin line between the burden that I give to you and myself. The burden that I gave to you in the past is about my worried about you finding another happiness beside me, while the burden that I give to myself right now is about my regret that you found happiness from a man like me.