Chapter 76

He looks confused at my question and I can only imagine how I must have sounded to him.

I feel like I'm going crazy little by little, and I don't know if it is as a result of the mentally taxing stress I have gone through these five days, or maybe it's just that I am simply dumbfounded by his nature.

Adrian is by far the most complicated person I have ever been chances to meet. Our first encounter had him speaking and sounding like someone who was older than his years, and had seen all the world and what it had to offer.

He sounded like someone who had disappointed those who placed their trust in him, and so he was ruefully discussing the details of this disappointment with a stranger, just over the running ocean, and on top of a bridge.

He had sounded like someone who was fully mature, and who knew the consequences of his actions, and that had been my first impression of him.

I had thought the first impression was honest enough to be lasting, but yet it seems it has changed so swiftly and softly all through the days.

Sometimes he would appear to be exactly who he is, a nineteen year old boy who had no idea of what life truly held, and had only been seeing the bad parts of it in this place. I saw in him a nineteen year-old who tried his hand at love, and had his heart exceptionally broken, and his family's trust betrayed.

Other times Adrian would become the morose aristocratic diplomat, who also struggled for survival here, and always had one hand behind his back, and the other hand in his pocket.

I almost wonder what lies beneath all these personalities because I do not think I have actually known the real Adrian. Well I must have glimpsed snatches and little bits of him from all the parts that he had portrayed, but yet I want to know who the real Adrian truly is. 

"Why do you ask?" he says, and my eyes snap to him. I can see his eyes are oddly endearing, and it makes me almost melt where i stand.

"You know how you requested that you not be ignored anymore?", I think I know where this question is leaning to, and so so I know the outcome. I nod complacently.

I don't think it would be fair of me to have asked Adrian to please stop ignoring me, and be honest with me about things, while I myself aren't being honest with him.

"Can you also be honest with me in return?" He asks, and even considering the fact that I already knew what this question was going to be, I still feel butterflies in my stomach at actually hearing it.

He also wants to know everything about me. He also wants us to be honest with each other, and to become each other's support system. I can only imagine the sort of turmoil that he must have been going through in this place, and yet when he saw me, he chose me without thinking twice. I think that should be enough to entail us being honest with each other.

The real thing we have is actually each other, and I see an opportunity in this. I will not lose it that easily.