Chapter 56

Sky's POV

The final exam is done. Summer vacation is now waving at me. I don't know where should I spent my vacation. I don't want to be at home, I want to go somewhere. I want to relax and escape reality.

It's been a month that my relationship with Veia was ended, even our friendship. I became as cold as an Ice. I barely smile, laugh, and interact with others. I've been with Andrei, Clarkson, and Hillary for the whole month, they're trying to make me feel better, but I am still in pain.

My parents are now so worried. I don't know if they already knew about what happened. But, they've been trying asking me, but I always switch the topic. I'm not yet ready to open it up with them. I'm afraid they'll get mad at Veia. I really am so afraid.

"Sky?" Dad suddenly uttered outside my room. I get out of bed and opened the door. "Veia is here, she's waiting for you at the garden," he added.

I tried to be calm, "what is she doing here?" I asked.

"Go on and ask her," he smiled at me, then he pats my arm, "stop avoiding her. You need to talk to her, so you can now attain the peace of mind, Sky."

"Dad," I called him when he's about to leave, "did you know about it?" I asked.

He nodded, "a month ago. We just want to hear it from you, pero halatang napakahirap para sa'yo, so we decided to wait patiently," he said.

"I'm sorry, Dad," I uttered, sincerely.

"It's fine, Sky. We'll continue the talk later, but for now, kausapin mo muna siya," and he finally left after saying that.

I took deep breaths as I am heading through there. My footsteps are so heavy, my heart is beating weirdly. Tsk!

"Sky!" she approached me as soon as she'd seen me, "m-mabuti naman at nandito ka," she said.

I sat at the wooden chair, "you wanted to talk, right?" I asked. I am still so cold. I don't how can I bring back my old me. I am just so freaking hurt to death.

"Oo," she replied. "Gusto ko sana bago ako umalis makapag-usap muna tayo," she added.

She's leaving? Hmm. I think that's better.

"What do you want us to talk?"

"Sige. Dahil halata na ayaw mo talaga akong kausapin, didiretsuhin na kita," she took a deep breath, "gusto ko ulit mag sorry. Alam kong paulit-ulit ko na 'yang sinasabi, pero I'm really sorry. Alam kong mali ako na pinaniwala ko 'yong sarili ko at pati na ikaw na mahal kita. Pero, Sky, naging masaya ako na naging tayo sa loob ng limang buwan," she bits her lower lip, trying not to weep, but she can't control her emotion. Ako naman, I'm just listening, trying to know if she's being real or not, but I guess she really is telling me the truth, "Sky, aalis na ako at hindi ko alam kung kailan ako babalik. Kaya sana...sana maging masaya ka na, ha," she uttered in tears.

I looked at her, "okay, then I'll be telling you goodbye for the meantime," I replied.

She forced a smile, "goodbye, Sky," she stood up and was about to leave, but I held her hand, then I hug her.

I closed my eyes as she embraced me back. Hindi ko na rin napigilan ang sarili ko na maluha.

This woman hurts me so damn much, but she's also the woman I love so much!

"Veia," I uttered her name as I let go from hugging her, "I'll see you soon," then, I smiled, a real one.

She also smiled, "sana nga...sana magkita pa tayo, Sky," she said.

And I guess my world stops when she bid her goodbye through kissing my lips that I've been wanting to try.

"That is my gift for myself before our story finally ended," she smiled once again, then she finally walked away.

"Happy birthday, Vee. That's my gift for you, too. That's so special, it's my first kiss," I uttered. Then, I shook my head, smiling.

But, it suddenly faded. I remember, after I went home from Hillary's place, I asked myself...

How can I move on?

How can I forget you?

How can I stop loving you?

How can I let go of you when at the very beginning

I already give you my life and soul without any hesitation, Veia?

Yes, it's really hard for me to move on, forget about her, stop loving her, but I know someday, I can. I just need to slowly accept what happened, respect her still, and forgive, of course. Soon, I'll surely get over this.

***

As I went inside, Mom suddenly hugged me, "Sky," she uttered my name with a shade of sadness.

"I'm fine, Mom," I said, trying to make her feel better and not worry too much.

She let go from the hug and looked at me straight to my eyes, "fine? Your eyes are so gloomy!" she uttered.

"Mom...okay, I'm so hurt," I told the truth, "but, I'm blaming no one," their brows knitted, "I'm not blaming my Twin that we really are so identical and I have his heart, I am not blaming Veia that she really can't love me for who am I, I am not blaming myself for falling in love with her too much. I can't blame someone because, for almost 6 months that we've been together as a couple, I was so happy. It's just I really am so hurt right now and that makes me feel like I'm a half-dead. Too much love can really kill you."

Mom smiled and said, "pero, kayanin mo 'to, anak, ha?"

"Of course, Mom. I may feel the agony and downfall this time, but I know, soon, I can stand once again."

"But, Sky, never hides something again. Tell us everything that happened to you. We're your parents, we have the right to know about it," Dad said.

I nodded, "from now on, I'll tell you everything, Dad," I replied and he smiled right away.

I just realized that in every battle I'll encounter, I should always remember that even if I am playing alone, my parents are still there to guide and support me until I win.