I'm just another human on this planet, but why do I do this?
I never cared for others or feel any positive feelings toward my family or friends. So why must I act so kind, it's humiliating to say the least.
"Hey what are you staring at kid? Are you listening to me? Go apologize. You punched him in the face! You should know better than to do that to your classmate."
"Sorry teacher, I was just a bit angry."
"Yeah yeah, just go apologize."
"I will right away."
As I walked over to Feng Chao-Xiang. I started to apologize"I'm sorry for hitting you therefore I wish to stay good friends."
"Dude why do you sound so formal? Don't worry about it. This wasn't supposed to happen. If only the shit for brains teacher didn't interrupt us. We were suppose to find out who was stronger."
"Will you be quiet for once, I was being sincere."
As he grabbed me and basically dragged me out. Why must he be so violent?
"Come on let's just get to class."
As we got to the classroom, it was awkward.
As I sat down. Everything went back to normal like it always been. Never changed. Since nothing changed in my daily high school life, I decided to keep everything I desire a secret.
The normal daily schedule of 4 morning classes, lunch, than the other 4 and I go home after.
As my usual I would go home and go straight to my room as my family enjoy themselves, I would write in my diary.
Date: January 13 2015
Got into a fight. It felt exhilarating. How my hand just smashed into his skin. My knuckle hit his teeth. It's a good thing I didn't go out full force. I think my classmates pity me. I was doing what a proper human in this society with morals would have done. Do I have to keep acting like I care? For how long? It's getting really tiresome.
From: Mask
"Hey it's time for dinner get down here and eat."
As I hear the yell I quickly and Carefully put my diary away. They can't find this.
As my parents turn on the news while we ate, I heard him again. Very unexpected for him to get caught I thought for sure his plan was perfect. What was the mistake?
As I watched, my mother glance and said with despair, "why must they be so brutal? Such a psychopath can't stay in this society, he for sure will be sent to prison."
And as everyone agreed, so did I. I also have to keep my mask on if I want to keep my freedom.
[4 years later]
"It's now 2019. What do I do Zhang?! The serial killer I am investigating is going wild. This Mask guy is pissing me off. Why can't I find any clues? It's like they don't exist. there was no trace of this predatory. What if I find some clue? What if I die by that bastard? I don't wanna die! I still have so much to do in my life, i'm only 20."
"Feng you're drunk. Let me drive you home if u can't call a taxi."
"No! I want another round please? My great and awesome friend? Here have this bottle on me"
Smack!
"I said let go"
"Ok..."
As I drove him home. I knocked on the door and saw his mother."Sorry ma'am your son is drunk right now. If it isn't a bother tell him when he wakes up, lets not drink so much next time."
"I always tell him that he should stop drinking 3 bottles every time he goes out, but he never listens. I'm grateful that he has such a good friend"
As I saw her close the door and waved goodbye, I went back to my car. My face felt horrible, the mask I'm wearing in starting to fall. As I relaxed my face anyone would have seen that dangerous look in my eyes. Ones out for blood, my expressionless brows would scare anyone. As such I started to drive home.
When I got to my gateway I saw a bird. As I caught it, I opened the door and went into my house.
"I'm not in the mood for such pests today. So shall we have some fun?"
As I grab a kitchen knife that was by the sink. I thought on how the bird would be killed. I thought to myself. Maybe I should pull out their feather wings, that would be fun. As I slowly plucked the feathers I saw the hope vanish from the bird's eyes. I started to Smile. Yes, that what I want to see. In the end I had twisted it's head. What a shame. Taking the knife out was for nothing.
"Why would he be mad about me killing those people anyways? Not like they are important. Plus it was fun. Don't need to be scared my dear friend"
As I said to myself, I thought maybe I should play with him.
As I have woken up the next morning, I thought of ways to make him mad. How fun would that be?
As I went into the bathroom, I stared into the mirror like I did every day and thought to myself. let's do it tonight? "Maybe". As I said out loud.As I put my work clothes on and I went away to work. As I open the front gate I saw my friend."Feng, what are you doing here!? In your police outfit no less! You know people will wonder if something had happen."
"Eh. Don't worry about it, I'm here to take you to your workplace."
"Why?"
"Cause the train station had a problem last night. The detectives and police are there to investigate what had happened. And I'm here to take you to work."
As I replied with discontent cause of the nagging I will have to go through in his car."Come on you can't walk there and you know that"I gave up trying to convince him and got into his car. In this awkward situation of me being there. I somewhat have the feeling that I will regret letting him drive from the fact that he barely pass his driver's test and still traumatized from last time.
"Get ready Zhang, you'll be having a joy ride"
"NO!"
As I rode in that car, I think I lost 5 years of my life. While getting out of that car trembling I almost fell. Luckily he had caught me before that happened.
"Don't fall dude"
"Than don't drive"As I left and went into the building and up the elevator to my office I work at, now I saw what he was talking about before at the train station.
"Breaking news-at Beijing Railway Station last night there was a murder an adult male. With the previous knowledge of the other prior murders happening here in Beijing, the police are expecting that it is the same predator. The well known serial murderer and psychopath "Mask"."
Who did that? I never went out yesterday. I just killed a bird not some grown ass man. What do you take me for? As I thought to myself that this wasn't me who had done that. "Tsk how dare they" as I heard from behind me.
"Ah! Director"
"I understand that you are curious Zhang but get back to giving me your report, we have lots to do and so little time."
"Yes, sir!" So then I had gotten to my desk to work maybe for the next few hours. While later it is now break time. While checking my messages. I had been invited to a group chat for this company. And doing so I had accepted.
"DING"
-Message-
Everyone get ready for company dinner! This is my first time trying this out so everyone better come!
Being disappointed I might not be able to proceed with my previous plan. I had to go so I will have a alibi if I do anything rash tonight. And so I get back to work again for this boring office.