Chapter 15 Avery

Avery's POV

I stopped drinking. Sort of, it's kind of complicated.

Today is my first appointment with a counselor. She's is supposedly going to help me work through my problems.

"Hi Avery, my name's Jeffrey"

"Hey"

"We're just gonna get to know each other a bit before we jump into anything"

"Ok"

"So what type of movies do you like?"

"I'm a sci-fi fan"

"What's your favorite sci-fi movie of all time?"

"I guess I'd have to go with...Space Invaders, the whole saga"

"Really? I thought I was the only one"

"Your a Space Invaders fan?!?"

"Of course! Wait, what's your favorite movie?"

"Space Invaders Race against Time"

"Mines Space Invaders 2 Kickstart Hope"

"Really? That one was kind of lame"

"Ha! Rude"

"Hey I'm just telling the truth"

"I think we're gonna get along great"

And we chatted about Space Invaders for the next half hour until the session ended. He gave me his number just in case I needed to talk through something and I left.

Me and Amy had planned to meet up at the park to talk about things.

"Hey"

"Hey"

"I heard what happened with Scarlett. Is she okay?"

"Yeah she'll be fine I hope, she's pretty tough you know"

"She really is"

"Now let's talk about you"

"What about?"

"About the drinking"

"I've stopped for the most part"

"Still, why did you start in the first place?"

"It doesn't matter" I got up from the swings we were sitting on.

"It does matter, what's going on?"

"Nothing leave it Amy"

"No, i want to know what's going on with you"

"I'm telling you it's nothing"

"It's not nothing"

"Why can't you just accept that answer!"

"Because it's not true."

Why can't she not try to help for once?

"Fine."

"Go on"

"I've been feeling really just, empty lately. I can't feel anything, and then suddenly all the emotions I haven't felt come flooding out and because of that, I get drunk sometimes. It's the only thing that make me feel better. And for the numbness, I'm still try to figure out what to do about that."

I looked down at my old shoes that I've had since Junior High.

"Your not thinking about hurting yourself are you?"

Amy got up and came closer to me.

"Are you?"

"No..no I'm not"

"Really?"

"Well I think about it but it's not like I'm actually gonna do anything"

"Avery please if you ever feel like you need to feel something and your thinking about doing that. Just tell me. So we can talk it through"

"Ok."

Then we both got into my car and we drove to their foster house. We both got out because I was going to see Scarlett. I haven't talk to her since I passed out on their couch.

"Hey girls"

"Hey Adam" I said.

"Scarletts upstairs, she probably sleeping since she just ate."

"Ok we'll go check on her"

Me and Amy walked up the stairs to see Scarlett wasn't in her room. A little worried we went to the bathroom and heard her throwing up. So we went in.

"Scarlett not again" I said worriedly as I ran over to her. She had her hand in her mouth and she was crouched over the toilet.

"Leave me alone"

"Stop it"

I grabbed her and she pulled away.

"Please can you two just go"

"We're not going anywhere" Amy said.

"Come on we can talk about it"

"I'm tired of everyone trying to talk to me, I don't want to talk"

Amy cut in "ok then we'll just sit"

"Fine"

And we sat there without say a word for about 20 minutes before she finally cracked and started talking to us.

"I feel like everything's going really good right now. And then fucking Andy had to fuck it all up. I hope he burns in hell"

"Is that why your doing this again?"

"Yeah"

We both hugged her tight.

"I'm really sorry guys"

"You don't have anything to apologize for"

"I know I'm a really pain"

"Your not Scarlett" Amy said.

"Just look at me. I have cuts and scars all on my arm, I'm trying to puke up my food. I'm sorry I'm such a mess"

She just so happened to be wearing a short sleeved shirt and we could see all of her cuts.

"Those scars don't define you Scarlett"

"It feels like they do"

"I'm telling you they don't. You'll grow up and have a great life. I know you will."

"You really think?"

"I know. We both do"

Amy nodded in reassurance.

"Ok, thanks guys"

We hugged again and went into Amy's room.

"So why are you here Avery?" Scarlett asked.

"Just swinging by. Me and Amy were talking at the park"

"About?"

"It doesn't matter"

"Oh come on, I spill my heart and soul out to you two and you guys can't even tell me what your talking about" She said obviously annoyed.

"It's big sister stuff" Amy said.

"Big sister stuff my ass"

"Woooooow Scar that's why we don't tell you certain things"

"Why because I curse?!? You both do that too!!"

"Actually I don't curse" Amy said.

"Yes you do stop lying"

"Actually I don't think I've heard Amy curse. Like ever"

"You've seriously never said a curse word"

"Nope"

"Aw this is sad. But this is off topic, I'll be coming back to this when Amy's not here. But seriously what we're you guys talking about?"

"Your just gonna think it's your fault Scar" I said.

"Yeah your probably right. And that's because it most of the time is my fault"

"Well this one isn't your fault"

"Then tell me what you guys were talking about"

"Scarlett-"

"Tell me"

"Fine, you got this one Amy"

I got up and walked towards the door.

"Where are you going?" Scarlett said

"To the bathroom"

"Is it seriously that bad you can't be in here when she tells me?"

Amy looked at me with that kind of worried look but didn't say anything.

I sighed and agreed to stay.

"Well Scar" Amy started off.

"Avery's been going through some stuff lately. That's why she was drinking so much that day."

"What type of stuff"

I cut in.

"I can't really feel anything like I used to. And then all of the emotions just flood out as you saw when I was passed out on the couch."

Scarlett looked at me with a look I've never seen before. It was just pure concern.

"I'll be fine though" I added trying it to let the atmosphere get too depressing.

"I'm sorry. I feel that way all the time and I know how hard it can be"

"Yeah, but I'll get through it"

"Just-"

Then she stopped.

"Just what?"

"Just don't be like me"

Then there was just a silence in the room.

"Why would but I wanna be like you?"

"Really?"

"I think your forgetting all your good qualities"

"Yeah like your very funny, and sweet" Amy said.

"Your kind of an asshole sometimes but an excellent drinking partner"

"Jeez I've never felt so hurt and lived at the same time"

"So those a perfectly great reasons I would want to be like you"

We all laughed a little at ourselves. And went downstairs to hang out some more. We watched some tv and joked around a bit and then it was time for me to go. I said goodbye to then and started heading back home. On the way back I got a call for my boyfriend Jamie.

"Hey babe I'm on my way back"

"Ok that's good, how did it go?"

"Me and Amy talked about things"

"And Scarlett?"

"She understands"

"That's really good babe. I'll see you when you get home"

"Ok, love you"

"Love you too, bye"

"Bye"

And I hung up. Jamie has always been there for me. Through thick and thin, I don't know how I got so lucky with him.

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At Avery's House

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"Hey I'm home"

"Hey I need to talk to you about something"