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<Episode 24> 24. Queen of Unfulfilled Desires

"Package delivery!"

As I soaked the intercom with rain, a delivery person wearing a hat with a logo dutifully stands there.

Taking the rectangular package handed to me, I express my gratitude.

"Thank you for your hard work."

"Oh, yes... cough cough."

"?"

However, there's a strange atmosphere between us.

Was he watching my broadcast, or was he captivated by my pretty face?

Although it was a misconception, the hint was clearly written on the package.

<Product Contents: Premium Dragon Black XXL Vibrating Dildo with Pearl Spikes (For Advanced Users)>

The title is so conspicuous.

Among the small letters in the same font, these provocative words like "premium" and "dragon" catch my attention.

My face turns beet red, and my teeth grind.

It seems the delivery person also wanted to confirm something.

Who would use this, on the verge of dying of loneliness? ...Damn it.

"Thank you!"

I slam the door shut in his face.

"Doesn't this trashy seller have any sense to change the labeling!?"

I mutter to myself.

Whether the delivery person is still outside doesn't matter.

I'm also angry at the company that produces such things.

"Putting a dragon in a sex toy for no reason. Did they bring it from another world, ripping off a dragon's penis?!"

I rant loudly, throwing the package onto the living room sofa, but the feeling of being duped doesn't disappear.

Especially since I pressed the purchase button myself on the internet, there's no one else to blame.

I wash my face briefly to manage my morals.

BJ Seonhwa, real name Lee Seonhwa, bought something from an adult shop for the first time in her life.

A vibrator, to be precise.

And the biggest size.

At 27, in the prime of her life and health, it might seem strange for a woman like her to become interested in sex only recently.

It all started after meeting Chae Sunwoo.

Despite having dated men since college, few were interested in anything beyond just dating.

At that time, Seonhwa dated men out of curiosity due to the pressure from her surroundings and to gain experience in case relationships became miserable when she got older.

But dating turned out to be less fun than she had thought.

Moreover, sex was not just uninteresting but completely lacking in excitement.

She had hardly masturbated, and there had been only one enjoyable sexual experience in her entire life.

Until she met Chae Sunwoo.

The first time was just painful, and she barely felt any orgasms.

But the second time... it was amazing.

Every touch sent shivers down her spine, and her lower body burned with desire.

For someone with little sexual experience like her, it was not surprising.

And at the climax, she even let out cute whimpers.

Unconsciously, her whole body accepted Chae Sunwoo.

"Ugh! Damn pervert, just go away!"

Recalling the sweet kisses from the voyeur and the sweet encounters, she occasionally regrets what she has done.

She bangs her head against the luxurious wooden pillar in the living room.

Her neatly tied platinum hair sways.

"...Well, maybe this horny hysteria will end with just this."

She scratches the long package on the sofa like an irritated cat.

Rummaging through the packaging cardboard, a large black vibrator suitable for security use came out.

"Well, it seems to be about the same size."Except for the black color and pearl spikes.

When searching for items similar in size to Chae Sunwoo on the site, all of them were labeled for advanced users, with none labeled for beginners, even though they were supposed to be for advanced users.

Gulp.

I swallow once.

Premium Dragon (abbreviated) dildo.

It's an outrageous sight, even just holding it in my hand doesn't feel real.

"To think something this size actually arrived...."

Seonhwa had two hypotheses about her burning sexual desire.

First, she decided to accept that she was noticeable in bed.

Then, she wondered if her body desired Chae Sunwoo, or if it desired a big dick.

This part is still unclear.

That's why she bought it.

For the first time in her life, and in a special size at that.

Now, all that's left is to see the results in action.

She stealthily walks into the bedroom with the dragon dildo.

Embarrassed, she covers the bed with a blanket, pulls down her panda-patterned fur pajamas and panties halfway, and inserts it.

"Ah... Ah! Ah... Agh! It hurts!"

It's not a good sign from the start.

It was too big to insert into the dry inside.

She gently applies oil to the entrance to protect her skin.

When she finally tries turning on the vibration, it's even worse. It stimulates her delicate pink genitals as if roughly pressing down.

"Uh... Ah... Huh...! Useless dragon like this!"

Thud!

After struggling for a long 20 minutes, seeing no improvement whatsoever, she throws it onto the floor.

The dragon dildo, with its middle section broken clean off.

27,000 won wasted in vain.

"Whew...."

It wasn't the big dick after all.

She wanted to ignore it, but it was indeed the problem.

She wants Chae Sunwoo.

It could be a sign that she wants a man, not necessarily Chae Sunwoo, but the experiment she tried a few days ago didn't confirm that.

Putting her pajamas back on, Seonhwa walks out into the living room, lost in thought.

Now she knows what she wants.

But she hesitates several times while looking at the phone number for <Voyeur Chae Sunwoo> displayed on the black iPhone.

Even though her finger hovers over the call button, her strong pride stops her.

Would Seonhwa, the great, call the blackmailer who filmed her first?

It's unthinkable.

Starting the conversation first is already uncomfortable, and the other person even has a record of stalking her.

But even endurance has its limits.

Moreover, as her ovulation period approaches, her lips break out in pimples, and her stomach becomes so upset it's serious.

"But I still don't want to be the one to initiate contact like a prostitute...."

Whether it's this way or that way, it's a problem.

For days, her reason and emotions, id and ego, have been fighting fiercely.

Thud! Thud! She hits nearby furniture in frustration and slumps down.

"What am I doing while I'm like this!? What's that bastard doing!?"

Sparks fly from her head, directed at Chae Sunwoo.

"When he was willing to pay, why hasn't he contacted me once? Did he only want to do it for a day?"

Although Seonhwa and Chae Sunwoo's relationship started as a doomed one, their recent encounters haven't ended too badly.

While her cooing and cute antics during kisses were undoubtedly embarrassing, that's why the mood wasn't bad.

The one who has tarnished the queen's image herself is speaking, but... I think I've given in quite a bit to the squeaky voice that men like. Therefore, Chae Sunwoo, who hasn't contacted me even once, is just too cruel. I even returned all the money he gave me. I sacrificed cash from broadcasts and offline encounters. It's uncomfortable to ask for a one-night stand, only to cut off contact afterward. However, this is strictly Seonhwa's personal perspective. If I had called, Seonhwa would have definitely been angry. She would have told me not to delude myself and not to let the voyeur crawl back. She's a queen who's capricious and selfish. "Sigh...." I cool my complicated feelings with cold water from the refrigerator. Anyway, what's needed now is naturalness. There has to be something natural that will let me let go of Chae Sunwoo's leg and bring the encounter while upholding my dignity. While frowning, sitting at the table and scrolling through my phone, I find one connection with Chae Sunwoo. He's been silently supporting BJ Seonhwa as her ardent fan since earlier in her room. "Alright, this should work...." Pretending to send a group message, I send a private message to Chae Sunwoo. * "Ha." ○○○ Bank Balance: 1,318,096 Whenever I check the remaining amount in my internet bank account, I feel gloomy. After sleeping with Yoon Mina, an additional 1 million won was added, but the slender balance with one digit missing remains. Here's the rent, maintenance fees, food expenses, communication expenses, motel expenses. Money that will soon disappear without a trace when billed at the end of the month. Although there are missions and rewards, there's no news right now. So I may have to increase the hours of the convenience store part-time job instead of exercising and meeting women. Ding! Finally, an alert from the hacking tool... no, it's another notification. A message from a major platform, Americatv. <Beauty Specialist BJ Seonhwa> sends a message: -The cold winter is approaching. I hope all the fans who always cherish me will dress warmly and take care. -Halloween is coming soon, followed by Christmas. I hope everything you do this year ends well. -I will always listen to the viewers. Thank you^^ "...What's this?" The queen, who sells men but has a high nose, sent a message asking how I'm doing. It's so affectionate that you'd wonder if something was wrong with her. "Is it a form of business? Or did the manager write it?" It might seem like a macro. .... Looking at Seonhwa's name on the screen, I momentarily revived the past, but I shake my head vehemently. It's true that things have been going well lately with the increase in sexual encounters. But Seonhwa is different from Yoon Mina or Ha Yeon Soo. She's like a wild horse, and approaching her recklessly might get you kicked. If you approach her recklessly after completing the mission, you'll definitely bleed. As much as I miss the cute voice of the queen ringing in my ears, I keep memories in the past. * "What the heck?!" The message I sent with great determination has been left unanswered for two hours. I was planning to bounce back at a high price if he showed any action from his side, but there's nothing to bounce back from or stand up to since there's no response. Since it doesn't show if he's read it or not like on KakaoTalk, it burns even more inside because of the lack of indication. "Alright, let's see who wins, you or me." I had no choice but to write one more message and endure it. *

<Message from <Beauty Specialist BJ Seonhwa>: -<Let's Meet Once> [User], I would like to express my gratitude once again for the love you have shown, especially this month. -Please take good care of yourself. -By the way, I'm doing well, but I'm a little worried about how you're doing^^ -I always listen to the opinions of all viewers, so feel free to contact me anytime! She's really commendable. She runs this business very well. I don't think she has many viewers for nothing. Even though she appears calm on the outside, she sends personal messages with sincerity. If she were a large corporation, it would be a hassle. I admire her delicacy. I only admire it. * "This guy for real!" Bang! Bang! Bang! After staring at the phone all day, I pound the desk as soon as the window gets dark. Despite clearly hinting at his intentions, this insensitive fool still hasn't replied. The last two sentences were blatant signals from Seonhwa's perspective. "I can't take it anymore." Since it's come to this, I'll take the final step. * When the phone rings, I check the name and immediately answer. "Hey─" "Hey!!!" I shout. I had to cover my ears for a moment to protect my hearing. For some reason, I thought Seonhwa was calling me directly, but she suddenly screamed at me. "Huh? What's, what's wrong?" "Hey, hey! What are you doing right now?!" "What do you mean, what am I doing? I'm getting ready. It's almost midnight, aren't you sleeping?" "No, I... Oh, anyway! What about that thing?" "That thing? What thing?" "You know, that thing." "What thing are you talking about?" "That... well, forget it. It's too late now, let's talk about it tomorrow when we meet." "Wait a minute. You want to meet?" "Meet me at the café we met before at 10 o'clock. Don't be late this time." "Hey, hey?! Why are you suddenly asking me to come out? What's going on?" "Oh, just come out! Got it? Don't be late!"

The call ended just like that. It was a one-sided initiation and a one-sided cut-off. Short and thick, it passed like a storm. What was that? Lying back on the bed again, I tried to figure out what Seonhwa meant by "that," but I couldn't. It's late, so I might as well sleep. * "Sigh...." I take a deep breath after ending the call. My heart races as if I've played a nasty prank, and my fingers tremble slightly. Throughout the call, she insisted on "that thing," but in reality, there was nothing. I just pushed forward recklessly. Now, I have to come up with an excuse. "Damn it." Suddenly, a slight realization dawns on me. I've acted all haughty in both broadcasts and reality, but I felt frustrated and awkward, so I pushed forward. Because I wanted a man who satisfied me. That's right, the high and mighty queen. I'm ashamed of myself, making me dislike myself. "Uh... ugh ♥" But when I remind myself that I'll see Chaesunwoo tomorrow, I can't control the overflowing energy in my body. The moment of realization was brief, but the heat on my cheeks doesn't dissipate. I start thinking about what to wear tomorrow and how to speak. Then, I start imagining things going well and even picturing sharing a bed. I blush at the thought of imagining being in bed with a man for the first time in my life. There's a faint warmth emanating from my forehead. "Ah... really! I'm crazy, I'm insane!" I rush to my room and flop onto the bed, kicking my legs like I'm swimming. I both dislike myself and enjoy it at the same time.