WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?

I fixed my beach dress, we're on the beach right now. He said he wants to take a break from work with me. I'm so lucky to have Lycus, he is such a caring and loving boyfriend.

"It's so peaceful here," I whispered

"I agree, I want to live here… with you," I look at him and he is looking at me. "I really want to marry you, Danae," I can hear the sincerity in his voice

"So am I, I want you to be the father of my child in the future," he intertwined our fingers.

"I promise I will marry you,"

I WOKE UP and that memory of us on the beach was still vivid as my eyes were swollen. I cried a lot last night. How could he do that to me? We've been together for six years… He cheated on me with the girl he met two months ago!

I look at my window and I can feel that my tears are ready to slide down to my eyes. "I don't want to cry anymore!" I screamed as my cry became sob. It's so painful, it hurts!

"Oh, God please help me to move forward again, I don't want to be like this anymore," it's been one week since we broke up

I can't stop crying, I'm so hurt. He left me without reasons or explanation, I asked him why he cheated and he didn't give me a reason!

I cover my hands into my face as I sob. How to forget you? I want to forget you! This is too much…

I put my laptop into my lap, my heart cracked once again when I saw our picture. I immediately deleted it. I want to forget, to heal and to forgive. I'm ready to forgive him… just reasons, just give me reasons… I want to be okay, I want him out to my sistem

"Why are you doing this to me?" I whispered while sobbing. Every night and every day I'm like this and I can't help myself. I can't move on and I can't move forward. He said he will marry me but it was a lie! I didn't cheat on him, I gave him my all… but it is not enough! He still cheated, he still left me behind. Now he's happy while me is suffering all day and night.

I want to show him who he left behind but how? I can't even get up without crying. "Help me to help myself, I can't do this anymore,"

I wipe my tears and stand up. I looked at the mirror, I saw eye bags under my eyes, swollen eyes… messy hair in short I'm a mess. I took a deep breath and bit my lower lip to stop crying. I can't help but to ask… what is wrong with me?

I've been a good partner, I avoid what he doesn't want. I did everything… All the things I did so that he would be happy with me. I fixed his broken soul, I helped him to stand and move forward. Why does he break my soul now?

I was there when there was no one for him. Why does he leave me behind now, when he knows that there is no one for me?

"You're so unfair. I'm not asking for indulgence, but I hope you think me first before you cheated, I hope you think that you have a girlfriend," I shook my head and gulp and I am going downstairs

I cook my food, everytime I cry, I get hungry. Last 7 days I've always been in my room and I'm not eating breakfast. Every corner of my house there's memories of us… How can I forget him?

My phone rings so I pick it up. I seldom use cell phone these days "Hey," I answered the call

"How are you?" the serious tone of my friend Iris, she's on Dubai

"I'm okay, I'm going to be okay,"

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"You have a lot of problems I don't want to be burden,"

"You're not burden to me," there's a hint of disappointment in his voice

"I'm sorry, I have a plan to tell you but I seldom use phone because I'm a mess these days," I said

"Be okay, help yourself. I'm going home next week," I didn't answer and just ended the call

"Help yourself," a sad smile appeared on my lips. How can I help myself though?

After I eat, I take a bath and get dressed up. I don't want a reciprocation. I already let him go, I don't want to care about him anymore. I want myself back, I want my soul to be healed. And be fixed. I just want him to realize what he have done

I planned to go to our cafe since I didn't visit our cafe. "How are y'all?" I ask our crews

"We are good, Ma'am. The cafe also," I just nodded

I sit to the swivel chair and I made myself busy

Someone enters the door. I'm too busy so I didn't look at it

"Ma'am?" I look at one of my crew Hershey

"Yes?"

"Someone wants to give it to you,"

I'm wondering who and what was that "What?"

Hershey gave me a necklace and that was my necklace that Lycus bought for me 6 years ago!

"W-Who gave this to you?"

"He doesn't want to tell his name, though he said you already knew who is he,"

My heart is beating so fast. I really know who he is… it is really over. Taking back my things huh? Don't worry I'll give all your things tomorrow.

I decided to go home after I finished what I was supposed to do. I cleaned up my house because in one week it was not only me who was messing also my house.

I put his things into one box and I am going to call a delivery boy to deliver this to his house. I wrote a letter and put it inside the box

I want this to be done. Give me reasons why.