Chapter 12: Mood swings

~20 minutes into the lesson~

SMACK!

Feeling pressure on my head, I slowly sat up, rubbing the sleep from my eyes and yawning.

"Rise and shine miss Willa, have a nice sleep?" The teacher spoke with a sarcastic voice.

"Well, it was until you decided to hit me with a book," I said with a fake smile leaning on the palm of my hand.

All the students were looking at us, some started laughing but the teacher was NOT amused.

"Shouldn't you be doing this at the end of the lesson because now you're wasting other students learning time," I said speaking my mind. I was in a real bad mood suddenly, and I could stop myself. Maybe I shouldn't have come to the college today. I hate being woken up too.

She got her metal ruler out from the pages of the book she hit me with. Normally, the ruler is used as a pointer for the board but now she was pointing it at me.

"You're being very arrogant and rude today You're an adult now miss Willa, not a child, so start acting like one." She spoke in a frustrated tone. I grabbed the ruler with my left hand, I bent it back so it was pointing at her.

"Isn't it rude to point? And how am I supposed to act like a grown-up when your the one treating me like a child." I said with a raised eyebrow, her mouth seemed to have dropped open a bit. Before I could giggle at her expression, a hand grabbed my arm.

"She's not feeling well, I'll take her to the nurse's office," Neo said, roughly dragged me out of the room. The teacher didn't have much say since we had already left.

Walking down the hall I snatched my arm back, I could feel he was angry too because his grip was tight.

"Idiot." He said turning to face me.

"If I hadn't taken you out, you would have lost it again. What did I tell you?" He said raising his voice in the empty halls. Taking my arm he rolled the sleeve up slightly showing me my darker veins. Once I took in that I needed to calm down I looked at him. He held a very firm stare. I slowly nodded, understanding he was right.

Hearing random footsteps down the hall, that was our signal to move. Instead of grabbing my arm, Neo found a new way and grabbed the collar. Quickly stopping myself from getting choked, I had one hand on him and my other hand holding onto the collar. This is the first time I've held on to him, I never thought it would be like this though.

Walking into the nurse's office we read a note saying she won't be back until the afternoon. He finally let go of my collar and I felt like I could breathe again. My mood had started to change to feeling guilty and anxious for acting like such an ass towards the teacher. Unconsciously, I started chewing my nails and pacing.

Neo watched me for a few minutes before saying something,

"Stop doing that you're making me uncomfortable." He said with a sigh. I stopped and looked at him with a worried glance

." Sorry." I said but then it went quiet. I started to replay my actions and thinking of what I would have done if I wasn't so moody.

As if Neo knew what I was doing he walked in front of me. My emotions, right now, were very confused. If anyone saw me right now they would think I was bipolar. I continued to stare at a certain spot on the floor that I had been looking at for the past few minutes. Suddenly I felt a waterfall down my cheeks. I stopped biting my nail.

"Are these...Am I crying?" I looked up at Neo quickly, he quickly raised an eyebrow at me.

"Umm yeah, your crying." He confirmed calmly.

"W...Why? Is it normal?" I asked while I kept brushing my years off my face.

"These aren't my normal symptoms," I said sniffling, I then tried to stop myself from crying by fanning my face down with my hands. But it didn't work.

"It's probably because your human, you feel and understand more emotions now." He spoke as he walked away and came back with a tissue. What he said made sense, but it was scary I never realised how emotional it was to be human.

"Human crying is depressing, I don't..l-like the feeling..o-f it down my face," I said in broken sentences. I had gotten so upset that my breathing pattern had changed and it kept making stuttering. What is wrong with me?!? I should have stayed off today since I wasn't sure how the full moon would affect my human form.

Neo chuckled at the state I was in, before directing me over to one of the beds. He sat me down and then sat next to me.

"When will it stop!!!" I cried out and my head fell onto his lap, which made Neo laugh more at my dramatic reaction.

"Once you let all your tears out, you'll be fine." He said looking down at me.

"Okay.. h..have my veins gone?" I asked, forcing myself to calm down and only stuttering a few times. He moved my hair slightly to get a better look at my neck, he then grabbed my arm and looked at that.

"Yeah, they have. But now your eyes are red and puffy." He commented, my eyes started to water up when I looked up at him.

"Oh no, will they stay like that?" I asked while my eyes filled up again. But before I could let my tears out, Neo laughed.

"No you idiot, they won't but you've got to stop crying." He said.

"Okay, I'll stop," I spoke in a determined voice and sniffled for the last time. Turning my attention back towards to the room. I was still breathing unsteadily for a while and keeping myself from crying. But when I felt a firm hand stroke on my head, the sadness washed away. Finally! I stopped, if I was going to cry anymore, my body would have started to dehydrate.

After minutes I started to come back to my senses but I felt strange, I've never fallen apart in front of anyone or any wolf before. Maybe I felt more emotional I've had to change a lot of my ways just so I could, somewhat, fit in with humans. But one thing's for sure, crying in a human form is horrible, the feeling of excessive water in your eye and it running down your face. Don't even get me started on how your face feels once the tears have dried up.

Brushing away my thoughts and feelings, I sat up, Neo had stopped petting me as soon as I moved. I didn't look at him for a few moments but he asked,

"Are you back to your normal self now?" I slowly nodded my head still ashamed of my actions.

"Will you tell anyone I cried in front of you?" I asked curiously, glancing back at him he paused,

"No, crying isn't a weakness wolf. Let's just go back to class." He said, in a monotone voice. He got up and started leaving the room, I followed close behind.

He seemed to have gotten a bit softer, come to think of it, maybe it's because his girlfriend was here. I decided to ask about her since he wasn't ready to tell me about himself yet.

"So, where did your girlfriend go? On a holiday? Her name is...umm...May, right?" The last question sounded like I was also asking myself.

"Why are you so nosey?" He replied, moving his hands into his pockets. I peeped around his shoulder looking at him.

"So are you, but I didn't complain." I said, thinking about how "nosey" he was last night.

He glanced down at me with a sigh but surprisingly he answered,

"Yeah, that's her name. She goes on business trips with her family throughout the year, she takes the opportunity to have a holiday. But when she gets bored she comes back on her own sometimes. She wasn't meant to be back for another month."

I pulled my head back but still listened to him talking about her, when he finished I asked more.

"Oh so she is rich like you and your friends then, what do her parents do?" He stopped and turned to me. He gave me a certain look that I have never seen him do. I also didn't understand it.

"They're the scientists in this town, but they do a lot. Not only are they in charge of training others to become scientists but they are also in charge of medicines.....that are not just for us humans." When he said that I gave him a confused look, he knew which part I didn't understand and continued to explain.

"This town is really in the middle of nowhere, the next place is a city which is half a day's journey in a car. So to protect us from certain animals and learn from them they put them in an enclosure." He looked at me with serious eyes. I furrowed my eyebrows,

"Are you trying to say they have caught wild animals and put them in cages? What kind of animals are we talking about?" I asked, whatever he was trying to say, I wanted to know more. But unfortunately, he couldn't continue as May came jogging along.

"There you are, I was starting to get worried. Oh and umm.. are you okay too?" Her tone changed when she turned to address me. I could tell she didn't really want to ask. So I just nodded,

"Yeah, thanks." I said and walked ahead of them.

I entered the classroom silently and sat down. The couple were close behind, as they both sat down in their seats moments later. May's seat was on the other side of Neo's. But for whatever reason, I couldn't understand why Neo look so serious and was so reluctant to talk about May's parents? There was something he wasn't telling me. In fact, he wasn't telling me much of ANYTHING?!

"Hey Lars, you calmed down yet. You know, your pretty funny." Zack said and dragged me away from my thoughts, I turned around and nodded my head,

"Yea I have and thanks. I was just angry to be woken up, I didn't get much sleep last night." I said.

Before I turned back around, I looked over at Lucy since she was looking at me first. She looked like she wanted to say something and then she did,

"I can tell, did you get into a fight? It wouldn't surprise me, how you go around like that." I didn't feel triggered by what she said instead it made me giggle. She was quite surprised by my actions and so was I.

I don't think I can cope with any more emotions, I want it to stop.

"No, I didn't." I said and thankfully stopped the stupid happy act too. Glancing at Neo's firm stare on me, I tilted my head and knitted my eyebrows slightly. Was he trying to talk telepathically to me? Confused he didn't stop looking until May got his attention.

Second class soon ended and I made sure to not fall asleep and cause another scene.

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