What I deserve? Ep6:

Despite me being shocked.

The stranger woman asked me if I take her twin kids and 3 dogs for a walk everyday to park. Kinda babysit them so she will pay me and I'll be able to get food for Tyin and Moon.

Will you do that? You have to take my pets for a walk everyday at 5am and from 4pm to 9pm I have to babysit twins and take care of the dogs as well.

So tell me quickly Myin Kim are you willing to take the job ?

I thought for a second and noded yes.

OK great come to my house tomorrow at 4:50am don't be late.

At least I got a job I didn't care how much she will pay me just I needed money to buy baby food that's all.

That day I managed to make a mushy rice for my brothers and fed them. They didn't ate much cause they didn't had teeth.

I put my brothers to sleep at 9pm and both of them used to hold my half while sleeping.

After they slept I finished my homework and came back to bed and hold their hands otherwise they will wake up and cry all night.

Oh yeah about my amma she doesn't came home at night sometimes so I was always there with my brothers at night and I didn't used to sleep because I was worried if both of them woke up and started to cry and I had another reason too which never led me to sleep.

I don't know if this reason is valid or not but I used to wait for my parents. Hoping that maybe any of them appears but they never came. Never and some place I knew that they will never come.

I can't explain this feeling that I had to go through every night and waiting for them every night was eating me inside.

The clock was running 11 pm, 12pm, 1 am and so on. I could hear my brothers little snoring, both of them used to sleep talk for a few minutes, I could hear the wind blowing outside, I could hear the birds twittering somewhere on the trees, I could hear the bugs talking, every night I counted every second that I waited for them.

I saw the deep dark night turning into the day everyone sleeping. Nobody knew what was going through nobody never knew not even my brothers knew that I stayed awake for so long....... I don't have words to describe my that pain.... But I know one thing for sure I was alone all the way here I was alone.

Now, it was 4:30 about the time middle of the night and day.

So I get out of bed and filled my brothers millk bottle with water again. Changed their diaper while they were sleeping. I washed my face, brushed my teeth, combed my hair with same struggle.

I kinda had to fight with my hair every day till I turned 16 . I had little just a little bit longer hair than a tomboy.

It was now 4:45 I grabbed the keys of house and ran to work.

I was scared it was my first day of doing job.

I was shivering. With the little fear I knocked the door and a lady came and said " oh, nice right on time", come with me she handed over her pets and told me take them on walk for 40 minutes and then feed them.

Those dogs were scary, they had big sharp teeth, scary eyes and they were fast. It was so hard to handle them. Seems like they didn't want to be friend of mine.

God sake I'd say it's was way to difficult than you think..

However it was my job and I didn't had any other option.

Running, scratching myself and one of them bit me. Me being myself I didn't cried when he bit me. I grabbed him and looked him in the eye and peted him.

All of the dogs seemed quite astonished towards me because instead of hitting them after being bitten by them I was demonstrating love and care to them.

Omg, after staring at me for a while they slowly started walking towards me and I sat still, frozen, I thought I made them furious.

But they jumped on me And started licking my face.

I assumed they were happy and kinda became my friends.

I tried to play with them with a ball and they kinda liked me.

I think animals are more loyal rather than human beings.

Anyways, after little fight and good start of friendship with the pets I walked them back home.

I went back to my house and get ready for school.

I didn't knew what to do when a dog bite you so I had an ontiment so applied that on my wound. It was bleeding so I struggled to cover it with the band_ad.

Brothers were sleeping I went to school, my amma still didn't returned home.

In school studying and bullying continued for a while. I seem like I can't do anything about being bully.

After returning home from school I was tired but I had plenty of work to do.

Imagine being at the age of 7 and you have responsibility of, two siblings, school, job, probably house chores, stress about parents, depression, anxiety etc.

And you forgot about yourself In all this rush........ I forgot that I'm just a small 7 years old girl who also deserves to live and be happy...... Maybe....

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