CHAPTER ONE HUNDRED AND ELEVEN

What's taking Mr. Phillips so long? I need to disappear before they figure out I am not there.

Logan would be angry because he won't have access to my child. It's all that he wants now, so I have to leave and make a new name and life for myself.

Jerome?

I need to let him know that I am safe and make a way for him to come with me. I cannot leave him behind after he stuck with me all these months without complaining. Making sacrifices and taking care of me, more than he should have.

I can't leave him behind. Jerome!

I had only been sitting there for about fifteen minutes before Jer's voice sounds off in the distance. "JAMIE! JAMIE!" I heard him calling me.

"JAMIE!" Jer shouts and I cringed behind the tree where I sat, waiting for Mr. Phillips who still hasn't arrived to pick me up.

Jer, why is he out of bed and on this trail in his condition?

"Jer!" I cried, moving from where I sat to meet him, hoping that my bastard of a husband isn't here with them.

Jer turns and smile, while my heart breaks stating at the results of the ugly beating he received, during the few hours, he was held hostage.

I wrapped my arms gently around him, "don't ever leave me again" he whispers, above my head as he towers about eight inches over me. "You are all I have Jamie, please don't scare me like this again." My strong brother cries and I join him because now it is just the two of us against this wicked world.

Palming my face, he lifts my face up to his, "for what it's worth, I think you misinterpreted the conversation, mom and the guys were having. You all all people know that Grey would never, ever put you or your baby in danger." Jer says, looking down at me with a solemn expression.

"Then where is he? Why hasn't he been home? Why is he keeping secrets from me?" I cried, knowing deep down that Logan would never hurt me, but he is making decisions and doing things that he doesn't want to and it is just to keep me safe. If I wasn't here, then Logan would not have to go down the path his mother rescued him from.

Nodding, "I know, but I am tired of being a burden Jer, I'm so tired. The nightmares they keep coming and coming and I can't make them stop. I'm so afraid that, in saving me, he could lose his life and I can't , I just can't let him sacrifice his life for me." I hugged him tighter, crying against his broad shoulders, when I felt myself being taken gently from his arms.

I know that touch anywhere, so I didn't look up, I just allowed him to hug me, but his chest felt hard and it's as if he wasn't breathing, but I still didn't look up because I know that Logan would be so angry with me and I still won't regret trying to run, because he will be safe without me and our baby around him.

"Ride with me" he said above my head, but I'm sure he wasn't speaking to me.

"I'm good, I'll hike back with the guys" Jer refused and I looked and turned to Jer, who I am sure was in pain and I tilt my head towards Logan, encouraging him to accept his offer.

Nodding, he turned around, "you guys remember the trail?" He asks Cameron and the four other men who came to help them search for me.

Chuckling, Cameron nodded, "oh yeah, we gotta learn these trails out here, before anyone goes missing again." He tips his imaginary hat to us and turn to leave with the guys.

Looking around, "where's your luggage." Jer asks and I point towards the tree trunk where I was sitting.

Logan releases me and puts one of my hands into Jer's, "take her to the vehicle, I'll get that" he says to Jer and walks off for my small luggage and handbag, while Jer leads me to a black jeep and helps me to climb in. I chose the back seat, because I don't want to have to deal with Logan's silence right now.

"Mr. Phillips" I started when Logan cuts me off.

"He's at home. He knows that I am here." He says tersely and I rest back into the seat, braising my body for the rough ride back to our cabin.

The balance of the drive was in complete silence and I honestly prefer it this way, because I don't want to discuss my feelings right now and if Logan isn't ready to keep in the loop of things, then my feelings won't be relevant.

Mom and Mrs. Stanley were hovering at the front entrance of the cabin when Logan pulled up, rushing towards the jeep to greet me, but just as the jeep stopped, Logan climbed out and walked into the cabin, still brooding.

Engulfing me in a hug, then releasing me for Mrs. Stanley to hug me, before hugging me again. "Sweetheart, why would you leave like that? Do you honestly think that you mean nothing to us?" mom kisses my forehead and since Logan came to pick me up, this is the first time I cried.

"Thank God, Mrs. Stanley realized you were missing, otherwise..." she trailed off, turning to me, "otherwise your husband would have killed us all." She says without a smile on her face, shaking her head, nervously at the thought.

WHAT IF I HAD GOTTEN AWAY?

My handbag, with my personal documents!

Turning to Jer, who was still standing beside me, "my handbag?" I reached out as he leans back into the jeep for it and took out Logan's tote bag, where I shoved my few pieces of clothing.

"I am such a pathetic fool" I muttered. "I couldn't even runaway successfully."