THOUGHTS

The young man stared intently at the appearance of the comatose woman, to whom Yanarym had been dedicating her life for six years.

He'd been sponsoring Yarisa's entire hospital bills, from the day he started supporting Yanarym's career. In addition, he also made an investigation on how she became a vegetable, he doesn't really care about her condition. If he hadn't followed Yanarym here to the hospital, he had no intention of seeing Yarisa.

In Alyx's perspective, it was only natural that he would perceive Yarisa as nothing but a worthless investiture. Apart from being comatose for a long time, if she ever wakes up, she still would be useless and a burden on Yanarym's life. Nevertheless, when he heard what Yanarym said to the young doctor earlier. He realized how valuable she was in his endeavor to Yanarym's life.

Gazing at Yarisa's state, which was thin to the bones, being pricked by countless needles, and the only thing that was making her alive were that massive machinery all over her side. He knew that she was identical to Yanarym's appearance and somehow assumed that even so, he wouldn't be affected by seeing her. He takes back his words---he could feel the uncomfortable emotion rising in him just by looking at her. He couldn't help but imagine it was Yanarym who was lying on that hospital bed.

He turned his head towards the sofa where Yanarym was soundly sleeping. He walked to her and sat at the space beside her.

"You will die when she dies?" He hissed to himself, "Sweetheart, You never failed to stir emotions within me, do you know that? And I can't really do anything to you to make this all go away, it's frustrating." He peered at her face, trailed his fingers to her features. He thinks he won't ever get tired of engraving her face in his mind.

"But don't get me wrong, I don't hate you for coming into my life. I want you to continue bringing colors in this black and white world of mine." Alyx gently lifted her upper body and made her head cushioned on his lap before proceeding at brushing her hair.

"I'll save your sister so that the life you said that is hers will be back to you. And then, I'll have it all, isn't that right?" He casually says to her, like he was talking about catching a unicorn ang giving it to her.

Alyx became drowned in deep thought as he re-traced from the very beginning. How she approached Alvan because Alyana replaced her from that variety show that he plotted. How she was there at that banquet, and because Alvan drugged her she ran to the nearest restroom she could find that was where Alyana dragged him to talk in private.

If it wasn't for Yarisa, she wouldn't enter the entertainment industry, she wouldn't enter that dressing room, she wouldn't come to that party. Her involvement was because of Yarisa. Her only reason was Yarisa, she kept on associating with them because of Yarisa.

"You don't like Alvan but you gave him your body to rise from your status. You liked that doctor but gave him up to focus on your career. You let me do things to you because you think it's beneficial." He laughed dryly at what was said, he took her hand and lifted it straight to his lips.

"I was competing with the wrong person. After all, my brother or that doctor isn't even my enemy but your comatose sister. Isn't that funny?" Smiling, he restrained himself from biting her finger that was touching his lips because of the fact he realized.

"You don't even like acting, you don't care about it. It's your sister's dream, why are you giving her so much?"

He briefly mulled the situation and compared it to what he had with Alvan. The one that gets everything he wants without lifting a finger, even stealing the other has to satisfy himself. One has to work hard to have what he wants but the other would end up getting the most benefits from it.

He was not fond of material things, because he wasn't used to being pampered in luxury the way his parents raised Alvan. So, whenever Alvan would want what he has, he would nonchalantly surrender those because he didn't care.

"It's not like you were forced to take care of her. You have no parents to make you oblige about her, you can just abandon her. It's pretty easy to do so, especially if she's like this."

If he were to be asked, he would without hesitation abandon Alvan if he's in Yanarym's shoes.

"It's not because I have to, I just want to protect her and give her everything good in this world because I love her." Alyx was startled when Yanarym spoke.

Love? Why bother giving love when you can't receive it back? The world is black and white, there's give and take. Such a mindset of unconditional love, those only who keep on giving would never succeed in your life.

"You're awake." He said softly and smiled at her. "You left me earlier, you're not there when I opened my eyes yet you sleep here so soundly." He remembered that when he woke up this morning she was no longer in his arms and he immediately looked for her at the resort, and she was not there.

He found out that she had returned to Manila and visited the hospital where her twin sister was. Before he got to the door of the VIP suite, he saw Alvan standing in front of the room. With no intention of entering the door.

He raised an eyebrow at what he saw and ambled in his direction. He glanced from the inside and saw the young doctor and Yanarym, and it seems that they were too preoccupied with their dispute. His hand was frozen in the air hearing her outbursts, she hates him…