chapter 5

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As I was approaching the mansion, I saw a private jet coming.

This was one of Don's.

They normally came to pick him up when he needed to go somewhere fast.

It had its own little ran way it landed on.

I did not want to think Don was leaving again.

I walked inside only to bump into his at the door wearing a white suit and two of the maids carrying a suitcase for him.

"You kidding me?" I screamed at him.

He stopped looking guilty but the maids went past us. My hands were on my waist

"Honey..."

"You're leaving. You just freaking got here! And were you even going to tell me?" I interrupted him.

"Yes honey i was looking for you. I have to go to Florida right now but..."

"What the hell? Don, what the hell? I have been waiting for you for two weeks and you just leave the next day? How dare you do this to me?"

My voice was shaking. Like i was about to cry.

"Wifey..."

"Don't you wifey me! Don't you fucking wife me! Don't you dare! You don't care about me at all, do you? I just told you this morning i felt abandoned by you and you promised you would never make me feel like that again. And what are you doing right now?"

"Please understand Elissa..."

"Why should i understand you when you don't understand me? Huh?.... Actually tell me one thing, how long are you going to be in florida?...."

"Three weeks.." He mumbled that..

"What?.."

"Three weeks." He said more audible.

"You're not leaving Don Campbell!" Looking at him with a serious face completely done with his bs.

"Elissa don't be like that.."

"Don't be like what? What the hell is this Don? Do i have to lock you up for you to stay with me? I hate you right now!"

I put one hand, palm, on my forehead taking deep breathes.

"You don't mean that baby, you don't." He hugged me while I just stood there not hugging him back.

"You know how my business gets. I'm not doing this on purpose.." He added.

"Then why can't I ever come with you then? You never wanted me to work so its not like I'll be missing work or something."

"I wish you could but this isn't a vacation for me, its me going for business."

"Why Don? Why?" 

He then kissed me deep as he held me close.

"Forgive me my love please, just this one time. Don't hate me Elissa, don't say hate me. That hurts. Please. I promise I'll make it up to you." He said as our foreheads touched.

"That was exactly what you said in the morning. Your promise to me to be here, and you're breaking it right now."

"Its not on purpose Elissa..."

"Are you married to me or your job?"

"You but...."

"You're basically one of, if not the richest in the country. You made more money than anyone can spend in a lifetime no matter how reckless they are with it. Why can't you slow down for me?"

"Its not just about the money. To remain at the top, I have to keep working like I'm still at the bottom."

"But at what cost? I'm not happy Don can't you see that?"

"I can see that Elissa. It will change soon, just give me more time "

That was exactly what he said last year. And the previous year.

I knew, it was obvious he wasn't staying with me at home. So i nodded to let him go.

"I love you elissa. Never forget that. With all my heart. You are the person i love the most on the entire world. I would do anything for you."

"Why not do the one thing i want then? Settle down with me, i don't mean marriage because we're already married. I mean be ready and here and start a family with me. Its been four years already."

"I don't like being away from you Elissa. Its not something i enjoy. That's why I'm always flooding you with phone calls checking in on you. And i want a little one too. That has your eyes, your smile....  What can i do for you to forgive me, a cruise vacation to the Caribbeans? That can be arranged. A new car?"

The only way he knew how to apologize was with gifts.

What can i say?

Maybe a gift would make me feel better.

"Maybe.... But right now, I want a pony."

"A pony?"

"Yes. I want a pony and I stallion I could ride whenever I wanted."

"Okay baby. It will be here first thing tomorrow. You got my black card right? Make sure you buy anything you want. Anything."

I just nodded as he gave me the last kiss.

I watched him walk over to the jet.

It was a little loud and its propeller was doing a number on his hair.

I watched as he got in, the door closed, and the jet flew away.

Sigh! Why do I even bother with him? Why do I try when he has clearly chosen?

Its job over me.

Over my emotions.

Over my needs.

So i wont try anymore.

If he doesn't care about being with me, I won't care about being with him either.