Chapter 3-A divorce request

"How arrogant of him thinking that I am doing all this just for his attention," I whispered in annoyance as I furiously walked back to Leo's room. But after a while of walking, I stopped in my tracks as I felt tears running down my cheeks.

"But he did have point...after all, I was the one who had been clinging on to him in the past. But did he had to say it like that?" I sobbed. "I guess in his eyes, I am nothing other than a nuisance wife who always seeks for his attention."

I took a deep breath and wipe my tears away. My eyes then drifted on to the painting of our wedding picture that was hanged on the wall.

"This is stupid, I had promised myself that I will be focusing on taking care of Leo. But what am I doing right now? Being hurt over what he had said?" I laughed at myself and continue walking to Leo's room.

When I came back into Leo's room, he was already sleeping soundly on the bed while waiting for me.

"Right now, all I need is my son. That's right, I don't need anything else other than him," I thought to myself as I caress Leo's cheeks.

I carefully lay down next to him without making any unwanted sound and embraced him gently. Looking at his sleeping figure, I unconsciously started admiring his face. "He looks adorable, just how could I neglected such a cute adorable son like this?" I thought to myself. But as I continued to admire his face, it suddenly reminded me of Lowell. The red pair of crimson eyes, tall nose bridge, and small plump lips were all from father. The only thing he had from me was my pure white hair and rosy cheeks. But other than that, he looks exactly like Lowell.

"Isn't this kind of unfair? You looked nothing like me, even though I am the one who gave birth to you. But to be honest, when I first saw your face back then. I was really happy that you looked just like Lowell, I guess that's how much I am obsessed with him," I chuckled to myself.

My thought then suddenly drifted off to the painting. I must admit, that was the happiest day of my life. Getting married to Lowell was a dream come true. But right now, it's a nightmare.

"Maybe if you had at least acted as you cared about me a little bit back then, I don't think I would've turned this bad. We could've been a happy family. But because of you, I ended up abandoning my son and wasted my whole life," I thought to myself as I stare at the wedding ring on my finger.

After the long night was over, Leo and I went out to eat breakfast after we woke up. As we were eating breakfast peacefully while having small chats, Lowell suddenly entered the dining room.

"Prepare for me another dish," he told the butler and sat down on one of the seats.

"Good morning father, what are you doing here father? Don't you usually have breakfast early?" Leo asked.

"I woke up later than usual today," Lowell answered while looking at me who's trying to avoid looking at him.

"Mother, are you ok?" Leo asked since I looked uncomfortable.

"I am fine, don't worry," I forced out a smile.

Leo looks like he knows what's going on, I guess my son is a lot sharper than I thought, or maybe I was being too obvious. But then again, it was hard to face him after last night. It's not just that, but the things that I've thought about last night scared me. It feels like I am going to turn back who I originally was, an idiotic person who's blinded by love. I was even sad by Lowell's words last night and cried. But what's worse of all was the fact that I had blamed everything on Lowell. It was all my fault at the start, neglecting my son and clinging on to Lowell even though he had made it clear that he was uncomfortable from the very start. But in the end, I blamed it on him for not loving me back. Those thoughts had scared me, even though I had told myself to forget about Lowell and focus on Leo. But deep down in my heart, it still craves for Lowell. Didn't the forty years had clearly shown that Lowell will never love me? I thought the love that I had faded away, but I guess it's still there. It's just that I had given up on everything. But right now, it doesn't matter if I still have feel for him. I simply just want to focus on Leo, I don't want these unwanted feelings to get in the way like back then, and the only solution to this is...a divorce.

"So not only that you behaved rudely last night, but you also decided to act the same and not greet your husband?" Lowell scoffed.

"Well, I don't think the wife needs to greet the husband when the husband didn't even greet the wife. Don't you think that everything needs to be mutual just like love?" I responded.

"It's pretty funny hearing mutual love coming from you when you're the one who had got me into this unwanted marriage," he smirked mockingly as he sat down on to his seat.

"You're right, I was the one who dragged you into all of this. I had taken away your freedom of who you want to be with back then," I vacillated.

"I didn't mean it like that-"

I quickly cut him off to say what I've always needed to say since the very start.

"And since you've always hated it so much. Let's do each other a favour and get a divorce because I am sick of this," I stated.

Leo and Lowell's eyes widened in shock at what I've just said. I knew that this was an unexpected situation, but it's better to do this before I turn back into my old self again. I need to free myself from these unwanted feelings.

"M-mother, did hear this right?" Leo asked in shock.

"Come with me to the office now," Lowell demanded as he grabbed my wrist and dragged me to his office.

"What are you trying to do here?!" he shouted in anger.

"I am not trying to anything, I want a divorce and I mean it!" I snapped and yanked my wrist out of his grasp.

"But...why?" He whispered.

"Why? Are you asking this after what you've just said?!" I shouted in annoyance.

I sighed and looked out the window for a while to calm myself down and then looked back and him.

"Look, you're tired of me and I am tired of you. Isn't this perfect?! This is a great opportunity for you to finally getaway as you've always wanted, so let's get a divorce!" I exclaimed.

"N-no..." he muttered.