19.2: My World
My suicide note is quite stupid. I don't even know what Tobias likes about it.
After our little drama, Tobias stood by the shore for a long time, watching my brother do his thing as the sun sunk lower and lower into the sea's embrace. I, however, was adjusting the note's position and making sure that it will be easily noticed by my clumsy brother.
It really shouldn't be missed as it flaps noisily against the bench and the large rock that anchors it.
It's getting late and Jacob should be heading out of the waters any moment now. He does get out and I find Tobias staring at me with big, barking Benji in his arms, anticipating my reaction.
There's nothing to react to because this feels like cheating. And it makes me wonder if someone else had the guts to do something like this before. If the mere coincidences we see at the end of movies about someone finding their brother's or lover's suicide note are more than just 'coincidences'.