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[DANSKIE MONTPELLIER]

COLD.

DARK.

PAIN.

NUMB.

Can i just kill myself for this to end?

Everyone... suffered. Thorie, Dad, JC,  Principal Ludfoe, Mom, Dreck, Dreina, Jayzam, Merch, Darren... Everyone. Everyone who were present at the funeral, as well as Dad's associates.

Tapos na. Tapos na ang imperyo ng Montpellier mafia. Funny that the mafia empire was just overthrowned by a avenging kid. Awesome!!

Stare. I stare at the darkened room wherein there are no lights at all. Except of course from the tiny opening of the thick metal door.

A 15 year old kid, prisoned in a supermax prison. Tuwang tuwa sa wakas ang mga police, lalong lalo na ang mga rumesponde nang mga gabing iyon.

Tears, are for the weak? No. That's definitely a lie. Hindi porket naluha ka, mahina ka na. It's actually being strong. It's considered as feelings.

Sa tingin mo masusukat ang kalakasan sa hindi pag iyak. No, right?

Ang masaklap don ngayon ko lang napagtanto. Tears are words that you can't explain.

Bakit kaya ang tao, nakakapag-isip ng sobrang tino at puro kapag malapit nang mamatay?

Malapit na kasi ako mamatay. Sigurado namang death penalty ang ipapataw na parusa sa 'min kahit wala pang litis litis sa hukuman.

Montpellier family is known for the most ruthless and cruel in this country [{(a/n: fictionally the biggest and richest country with a lot of criminals)]}

Our family also was the first top position CIA opponent. Kaya nga malaking kabunutan ng tinik ang pagpapabagsak namin.

MONTPELLIER MAFIA committed multiple murders, theft, drug trafficking, gambling, ran illegal bars and clubs as well as casinos, bribery, corruption (for those officials who were Dad's underling), loan-sharking (Montpellier Mafia banksmen) and many many plenty a lot more.

Kaya nga bigti na kami agad eh.

Dahil diyan, magfa-final speech na ako.

If i would be given a chance to live again, you know i'm dying, i hope i could eat sweets a lot cause in my time now, my head hurts like fuck when i eat some. I also want to establish deeper relationship with my family members unlike now, that i only love Dad in the family. Hindi niyo'ko masisisi kung ayaw ko kay Mom eh may favoritism iyon. Ayoko din kay Dreck na puro babae na lang inaatupag pero ngayon byudo na daw siya. Ayoko din kay Dreina na maganda lang pero walang utak. Also my second older brother Darren na puro auto lang ang laman ng utak. I want that in my next life, kung meron man, sana iyong pamilya na kahit isang kahig isang tuka atleast masaya at sama sama. Unlike my family now na sobra sobrang yaman pero nakaw lang naman sa ibang bulsa at nanggagaling talaga sa masama.

I know i'm  a savage person but that is what i am really made of kaya okay lang na masama ako sa susunod ko na buhay.

I wish to have Thoralid,  Jayzam and Merch remained as my friends. Sila talaga ang pain reliever ko, like drugs but more than that. Mas masaya pa sila kaysa ecstacy and party drugs. Not to mention Lowie who was just came along, being friends with MY friends. Yeah, u consider them as my friend now.

I want also na sa next life ko, if sakaling mabubuhay pa ako, i want my skills remain. Sayang naman ang 10 na pagsasanay ko ma-achieve lang ang pagiging absolute marksman— i mean markswoman ko. Sayang din iyong IQ ko na 200 kung bobo lang din ako sa next life ko. I really really really hope that it will remain.

Lastly, for my... uhm... Yeah. Basta! Let me tell you about him. He was just the man who came into my life and ruined my hard perspective in love. I really don't believe at it because, it's just for idiots who seeks attention their parents never gave them.

HE, that man, is — i hate him!! After loving him whole heatedly malalaman ko na ginamit niya lang ako? Masakit. As a woman. All woman deserves to be loved naman diba? Dahil sa kaniya natutunan ko ang love. Natutunan ko na ang love, is not a word. Love isn't for idiots who were seeking attention na never nilang nakuha sa parents nila.

For the first time, natanggap ko din na hindi lahat ng alam ko, totoo. Kasi ginamit niya ako— kasi nagkamali ako sa pananaw sa pag ibig.

Pero nang malaman ko iyon, noong gabing hinuli kami ng mga police, ni inis wala akong naramdaman nang ipagtapat niya sa 'kin ang lahat. Nasaktan ako pero hindi ako nagalit sa kaniya. Di dapat ako sangkot dun eh kasi away niya iyon kay Dad. Then he was clever. Kahit ako hindi ko matanggap noong natalo niya'ko sa chess at checkers kasi never naman talaga natatalo ang mga Montpellier pero natalo niya ako, and gayundin si Dad at buong mafia. Ngayong napabagsak na niya ang mafia siguro natatanaw na niya ang hustisya ng Daddy niya.

Tsk. If you come to think of it, kapag ba hindi pinatay ni Dad ang Dad ni JC, magku-krus kaya mga landas namin? If JC's Dad is still alive now, matututunan ko pa kayang umibig? Will i ever know that love exists? Lalambot kaya ang puso ko?

What if hindi kami nagkakilala? AYOKO.

Kaya nga, ngayon, nagpapasalamat ako— tanggapin sana pagpapasalamat ko kasi ngayon lang iyan sincere— na dumating si JC sa buhay ko, kahit ang main purpose niya ay ang gamitin ako to revenge.

So, here's my greatest wish whenever i have my next life again. If I'll be given the chance to live yet, mamahalin ko ang bawat tao na makakasalamuha ko. Gagamitin nila ako o hindi, i promise not to make my heart black again.