Children.

After breakfast and our long talk, its time to go back home. I go upstairs to take my shower and enjoy the quiet before heading back home. I know tonight Joel will be coming to pick up the girls and I have things to discuss with him.

After we get ready we head back home, I see Ichiru is happy to see the twins. He picks them up giving each a hug, I just watch still feeling lost. I spend some time with my girls, talking to them, and asking if they would like to come to stay with me or stay as they are. This time I give them the option, to do as they wish, instead of just pushing it on them. I changed their whole worlds last time, and this time I want them to have a say. I explained why I didn't do this earlier putting most of it on the twins, but that now I am doing better with them as they are older and now sleeping through the night.

"Mom, I see why and we both understand. We just don't see to understand that, why is Ichiru their father or even here? I mean, we know if you had any way of making an Anime guy real it wouldn't be him, even though he is the cooler one. I know how much you liked Zero. It would be him here, out of anyone. I know that for sure. Not that we even know how any of this is even possible." Bree states.

"I know its a lot to take in, trust me. It's the same for me. Yes, it's true I really like Zero and would have chosen him, it just seems that couldn't happen. I got his twin instead." I answer, not sure how to answer or what to say.

"I guess in a way it's like having him, just in a better way. Ichiru isn't a butt like Zero. Maybe that's why it was him instead. You get the looks that you really like for some weird reason and a better personality." Bree states.

Ichiru just laughs and heads into the kitchen with the babies.

In a low voice, I say, "But isn't that wrong? To like him for looking like someone else? Someone, you really care about?" I answer.

"In this situation mommy no. I mean who would think you would get to be with any anime guy. If you like him why not? I mean there has to be something besides his looks that you do like? He seems to really like you, for you. He also is a great dad, he is always here helping you with the babies. You can't only see his looks can you, even if it started that way." Bree replies.

If she only knew the truth, yet she is still right. He is a great person in his right, him looking like this, just adds to it.

"Your right baby. There is more to a person or even an anime man, then just his looks. You should like more than that. I liked Zero for more than his looks, I liked how loyal he was. How he never left her." I answer with a pain in my heart, knowing he left me.

"I don't see Ichiru leaving you. Plus there is an up to this, he has no Yuki. Zero could never love you the way he should, he was bound to her. Where Ichiru isn't. Yea he loved, that Vampire lady but I don't think it was written as in deep as Zero was with Yuki. Plus Ichiru didn't live that long to really do much in the anime." Bree mentions.

I sit there taking all this in from a child, who is right. It takes everything I have not to start crying, to burst out in tears. He could never love me the way he should, he was bound to her. Those words cut deep.

I just nod, not able to really answer that, it hurts too much. I get up going into the kitchen to get a glass a water to calm myself.

"Hey, are you ok? I heard what she said, I know that had to hurt. I didn't mean to eavesdrop I was just going to get the babies bottles when she said it." Ichiru states.

"She is right, it did hurt to hear and take in but she is right. I always knew it, I just didn't want to let go. I was selfish, I wanted him and I didn't care how I got him. I guess in a way I asked for what I got. I still don't take it back, I just wish it didn't end this way." I answer.

"You didn't deserve a lot of what happened, even if he was bound to her. He did love you, maybe not always fully but he did. She doesn't remember so she doesn't know everything. Plus when we want something really bad we are all selfish. Its just nature." Ichiru says.

"Yea I guess your right," I reply walking back into the living room.

I Know her daughter was right, but I saw a sadness in Alexa, I didn't want. How loving my brother brought her a lot of pain through these years for different reasons. Funny how you can love someone so deeply and yet they can hurt you the same way at times. I know my brother wasn't perfect but I don't want her to forget that he did care. It might have taken him a while to realize how much but he did. I wouldn't say she was the love of his life, but she was at least one of his loves. Just like if this goes well, I will just be one of her loves, I know I can't take his place. I saw that from when he was here, no one could. She put him on a pedestal and made him out to be someone perfect. Someone who could do no wrong in her eyes, now she sees little by little that wasn't true. He was a human being with flaws just like everyone else. I think him being her fantasy for so long, did this. I am just hoping she can move on, as what I felt this morning in her arms I want more than anything to be. I just know I have to see through the truth, that if I really go with this, I may just be her seconds, may just be here for the twins, and most of all, just because I remind her of him. So I guess I am no better than she is, in a way. We are just willing to take whatever we can get to be with the one we love