Chapter 64
I gently pulled my hands out of his grasp and held his hands. "Paul, I'm so sorry for what I said. I didn't mean it."
He shook his head. "I didn't leave because of what you said. It doesn't matter right now. Kim, what I don't understand is how you could make the decision to die. What were you thinking? Was it me?"
"No, no, no. It wasn't you." I looked past him at the wall. "Mostly it was Tige and an overwhelming desire to protect him. But I'll admit that it wasn't all Tige. Paul, I just wanted to give up. Hell, I'm only existing on borrowed time. I'm such a fuck up at this! I have no idea what I'm doing half the time, and Tige is supposed to be here, not me"
He shook his head violently. "Tige's life is no more important than yours!"
"Paul, it doesn't matter now because neither of us has to die. I can save Tige's life as well as my own."
Paul seemed to calm down. "How?"
"I have so much to tell you, but …"I looked around, unsure of how much I could say ...