Am I okay?

The water is running out the water tap. The water fell in Lucius's hands, but it still ran down further till the sink and at last it would end up in the sewers.

He took the water in his hands to his face and washed it till he felt more refreshed.

*SIGH*

He sighed and looked at himself in the mirror. He looked pathetic. He who always needed to look the best for his fans, his face that always looked amazing so that he could capture his fans, he who lived with his looks for a lot of time is now looking amazing, red, and swollen eyes from crying, a red face that showed how embarrassed he actually was.

"When was the last time that I cried so much?"

Nobody answered but he never wanted an answer, he only wanted to express his feelings. Something he never did after becoming popular.

He smiled softly.

"I really changed a lot in a day, huh?"

After waking up he always looked at the mirror and like hypnotizing himself he changed everything about him. He made a roll about how he needed to be and changed to it after looking at the mirror.

The mirror was the helper to hide his emotions and to become the person everyone wanted, but now instead of hiding he showed it. A chance is what he got and the change in himself is what he did himself.

He closed the water tap and wiped his face clean with the towel. He only said he was tired to get away but after crying so much he suddenly felt tired for real.

He went outside the bathroom and was going to go to his room, but he stood still after hearing his family and friends talk.

They talked about who they should beat or when they should ask to change class. They all talked about how to make Lucius at ease. How to make him happy.

It made Lucius smile, but he felt regret too. He regretted what happened in his past live.

"I'm really fine so don't do anything."

They all froze. The person who they thought was already sleeping is actually still awake and heard them talking about something he shouldn't have heard.

"I'm really fine."

Lucius's brother nodded: "If you say so."

He actually didn't believe him but what could he do when everybody is standing still from shock. In the end, he just casually answered.

"I'm going to my room now."

"Go, go, we won't stop you. We'll call you when dinner is ready."

Lucius went to his room and lied down on his bed and closed his eyes while thinking what happened in just a daytime.

About how he met Lin and finally made a friend after a long time, about how she said that she would help him, about meeting Erebus, Ryuu, teacher Iyan and the others at school.

And about how he met his family after not seeing them in a long time.

[I missed you guys…]

He missed his mom, his dad, his older sister, his little brother and his childhood friends, Kai and Eira. He missed them all. Back then he didn't realize it but now after meeting them all he realized about how he was happy being together like that.

[Laughing together, teasing each other, quarreling with each other, the small things we did each day seems now special.]

Sometimes you don't realize how blessed you are only after losing it will you realize it. How closer something/someone is, how more you'll think it will be like that. But that's true and everybody knows but we all try not to think about it. Once it gone, you'll realize that what you thought that would be forever there won't always be there. The things that you thought that would stay the same won't always be the same. People change, they won't always be there.

That was what Lucius realized now that he is back. He realized that he wasn't a good person in his past life. That he was selfish and didn't cherish them as they cherished him.

He realized that he really changed after making it big. He didn't understand them back then but now he does.

He remembered how he went to this house after a long time and seeing his family.

His mom who looked older said with a worried look: "Are you okay, my dear?"

His dad who aged a lot more smiled weirdly: "What happened to you?"

His older sister with a complex expression on her face: "You changed a lot."

And his younger brother with an unknown expression: "Are you happy now?

Back then he didn't understand them. How could he not be, okay? He was fine and nothing really happened, his appearance didn't change he only became taller. And how could he not be happy. His dreams came true, and he became what he always wanted to be.

But now he realized. He was NOT fine, he wasn't okay. He didn't know what happened, but he changed, he changed a lot. He changed to someone they didn't realize. And…

[I wasn't happy. I felt empty…]

Maybe he already realized back then that he wasn't okay or happy and that's why he ran, ran away and never came back to this house. He just didn't want to realize it that what he thought would be the happiest time of his life was actually a hell special made for him, but he couldn't escape from it.

It was a place Lucius created and that place bonded him to it. There was no escape from it.

[Not that I tried to escape.]

He always thought that that was the place he longed for, and the place belonged to. But now he realized that it wasn't like that.

It was the place he longed but not anymore.

"This time it will be different."

He promised to himself softly.

"This time I'll be happy together with my loved ones."