Money

Lukas and me had been having the time of our lives being together. Who knew.. I was going to be happy like this again, I thought that maybe one day I could still be with David and just be in love with him forever. My feels for him and Lukas are the same.. sadly yeah I still think about him, theres really not a time that I dont think about him.  David was my first love the first to heal wonds. But Lukas is here to make things better to accept that things happened and move on.

After the days we spent together Lukas had seemed a little off lately, he's doing his pushed back and dressing a little nicer, I dont mind it but it's a little weird I met him a little differently. When I asked him about it he just said he got a job in Puebla as a waiter and that it's been going good for him for him. I don't believe it. When Dorin stayed with me for a while at the field, he gave me his number. So.. I'm going to be digging a little.

I started to file his number as I thought of a place to meet up, when he picked up he sounded happy, as I thought I heard screaming in the back. "I'm watching a movie sorry, let me leave the room." As I heard a door shut close he chuckled a bit. "So what's up Ginroo?" He chuckled as he called me wierd nicknames. "Feeling good about yourself...huh?" I said in cold tone. "Well yes, today work has been very fun." I could feel a grin on him. "Well.. can we meet??" I asked eagerly as I waited his response.  "Yeah, I can pick you up if you want." "No, it's fine I'll see you at the cafe???" "Yeah I'll see you like in 10." He said then hanged up quick as he did I started to get dressed into some dark grey ripped jeans and a light grey crop top and just some boots. I ran downstairs to find my keys to my motor and opened the main doors to let my motor out as I closed the doors I put on my helmet as I did I put everything away and headed out to Crown city.

After I parked my motor outside I waited inside the cafe as I ordered a crape and some hot chocolate. I waited and waited it felt like time was just stopping. Then I felt someone's hand over my eyes. "Hey!! Cut it out I need to talk-" as soon as I truned to see who it was I felt thier lips on mine.. David was kissing me so simple. I didn't feel any type of force, from him or me. I didnt know what to do or say. He pulled back and smiled. "You kissed me back.. I'm glad." He smiles and kissed my forehead.

Behind I could hear heavy footsteps stomping thier way towards us. David turned as well as me as I saw Dorin angry and threw a punch at David hitting him in his face. I was still stunned from the kiss as I felt Dorin's hand grab mine and took us outside. "What the fuck was that?!" He was so angry, I felt a little scared he saw my reaction and took a deep breath, as he pushed his dark coal hair back. Looking at me with his dark eyes. "Why was he there..?" He asked as took a deep breath. "I don't know.. I thought it was you but when I truned around he kissed me." I looked as I felt my heart get heavily, it felt like I couldn't breath. Dorin saw my reaction and pulled me into a hug and patted my head. "Its fine I trust you. But let's go to the field." He kept holding me as I just safe again, It was wierd that David kissed me out of the blue. More importantly why is he still here.. I thought he left already to who knows where.

Dorin let's go of as he starts pushing my bike as we walk together to the baseball field. It's no longer in use, I forgot why but out of nowhere there has just been a lot of weeds growing and some nice flowers. When we got there he parked it near the stands. And we went upstairs and sat on the benches. As we both took deep breaths and started to calm down. "I want you to help me stalk my boyfriend.." I looked at Dorin worried but with a desperate look. He looked at me surprised and chuckled nervously. "Wh-why would you want to do that..?"  I looked at him worried and concerned. "I know that he's not the type to cheat, but it's just... I'm not sure where he's getting all the money from.. he's been getting a lot of pricey cloths. He told me that he's been working really hard lately but what kind of job. I'm scared that he might be.." "hit man? Drug dealer, gun control?" Dorin cut me off as he said everything with a straight face I looked down nodding. He patted my head as if I were some dog but I knew that he ment that by his kindness. "Don't worry, I'll keep an eye on him." He smiled then kissed my forehead. As I felt more relaxed and feeling a bit uncertain of so many things. "You know.. I still get surprised by how many friends you have especially guys.." he looked at me as a goof. "Well that's simple I've always been able to always make friends easily and with guys I would always go along with their pendejadas." We both laughed as we would spend hours talking about the old days as we saw the sun set. It started to get cold. As we started to walk out the feild as Dorin kept pushing my bike. "I trust you." Dorin looked at me as he smiled. "What you choose, can either change what you see or the outcome." As he said that.. I couldn't stop thinking about anything or just nothing. We said our goodbyes and I went to catch up with my mom at the store.

Being with my mom at that moment felt like everything went back in time. Where I would stay with her for hours in the store until it was 8 pm. I missed my mom so much, what I choose will make a difference in the path I choose. What i decide goes. But right now I just want to stay with her. In her warm cozy arms. While everything runs around us, here in her arms her warmth her beating heart. Makes everything safe. Love is something so beautiful yet so ugly. I hope things will get better and that my doubts are just nothing to worry about.