Chapter21

#Chapter21

Cien-

I’m drifting…. The white substance laid out on the table that’s currently making its way through my system is doing little to numb down what I don’t feel because that’s the thing, I don’t feel a damn thing.

It’s always been like this. Feeling nothing. The numbness within my bones ran deep, farther than just the outside, it was like, I was always just emotionally disconnected. It had been like that ever since my first heartbreak but it wasn’t the heartbreak itself, it was the realisation that people were worthless, humans, blood demons, vampires, all of us, we were all worthless, never amounting to anything. Just mere phantoms, only existing, never having a purpose. Spending our entire lives feeding on other people’s emotions, chasing our own benefits, only ever looking out for ourselves, selflessness had no meaning within our world, it had no existence. People were just a fake image, delusions of what we wanted others to be, a disappointment.