ALICIA

"So what are you guys making ?"_I asked them.

"Chicken and mashed potatoes ", said Katelyn.

"Since when did you start to know how to cook? ", I asked her as I poured myself a glass of water.

"I don't, Erin is cooking.", she said.

"Okay ill be in my study you can call me when you are done ", I said as I made my way to my study.

I had never seen my sister hang out with anybody and I was worried most of the time. Just because we were always there for her did not mean that she didn't need other people in her life.

In the same way, I needed people in my life. I could not remember ever having a life. I was always worried about getting things done.

If I didn't do them then no one was going to do them. I was so focused on taking care of other people and forgot about myself.

No one remembered when it was me. It was always them talking about the things that they did not like or how they didn't want to stay somewhere.

As the older brother, it was my responsibility to make sure that they were okay. I needed something exciting to happen in my life so I wasn't boring.

I had relationships before but none of them lasted. They always complained that I put too much effort into my family than I did them.

I couldn't argue with that but why would they expect me to put them first? It was my family and most of the time it was ruined because of love.

I could not let something like that happen because of me. Or maybe it was because I didn't love them. I had tried to have feelings to at least feel something but I couldn't.

It was not in me. Love was not something that I was supposed to feel.

The only thing that I had envied the humans was there having feelings. Them getting hurt and being lived and your whole being shared from it.

I wanted to have that. Even if it wouldn't work out I wanted to know what the people I had been with before felt.

How did they feel when I didn't give them the attention they deserved because I could not see how it affected them. It didn't mean that I didn't care about them.

I cared about them a great deal but I just didn't have the emotions. Did I regret it when they left? Yes, but the feeling didn't last for long.

I was better than my brother though. I don't think he ever cared for anyone else but him. I had seen him with multiple girls over the ages and I never saw the same girl more than three times.

He even fed on them and said that they were okay with that. Most of the time it was because they couldn't even remember a thing when they woke up.

Putting them in a trance of them thinking that he was this perfect guy when all he wanted was to have sex with them and toss them aside as he picked the next flavor.

I had footsteps coming to my office and knew that food was ready. I could not remember the last time that I had cooked food that was good for someone's body so I hoped they had cooked good food.

", The food is ready ", said Katelyn as she opened the door to my study.

"Okay ill be right there ", I said as I stood up from my chair.

"Don't ask my friend stupid questions or make any advances to her got it ", said Katelyn glaring at me.

"Why would you think I'll do that ", I say as we walk to the dining room where Erin was already there setting the table.

"Because you have done it before and more than once and you always broke their hearts so they were done with you as well as me ", she said.

She was not lying It was not my fault that everyone she was friends with was attractive but I wouldn't fuck this up for her.

The girl genuinely liked her and the others were just her friends so that they could be close to us.

"I won't mess this up but sorry to burst your bubble those girls before never actually liked you they just wanted to get close to us "_I said as I tapped her shoulder and go to take my seat.

"You moron", she said as she came and sat down beside me.

"You don't have to do that Erin they know how to serve their food ", said Katelyn.

"Ooohhh okay ", said Erin as she took her plate and sat down.

We both took our plates and started digging in. I could just lie it was the best food I had had in a long time. The flavors melted on my tongue and the good didn't test like anything.

"Where is your brother isn't he coming down to eat ?", Erin asked.

"Don't worry about him he will be down here when he feels like it ", I said and I immediately heard commotions from the stairs signaling my brother only he wasn't alone.

"Hello family ", he said as he walked to the table with whoever he was with. It was not a new thing to see someone that we didn't know in the house.

"Hell and who is that you are with if I may ask ?", I asked him.

I just hoped that he didn't pick some random girl on the road and decided to bring her home. From the look of things, she didn't look like she had been fed on.

Everyone else went quiet as we waited for him to answer the question I was glad I was not the only one wondering.

"Sorry, where did I forget my manners. This is Alicia, Mateo's sister. Alicia, this is my family and a guest ", he said as he looked at Erin.