The Despair of War

"Alright boy you can go back to your little harem now. I have to speak to Kei about some stuff first." Soh chuckles.

"H-Hey! It's not like that ok!" I yell flustered.

"Heh alright then you can go to your friends." Soh smiles.

My friends... it's been a while since I saw them I definitely miss them a lot. I start jogging back to the kingdom excited to see the girls but also worried about them. I need to stop this war from happening no matter what. A war would mean that a lot of people would die and maybe the girls too. I've decided... I'm going to fight Sanadu alone as well as the old demon king. But if I wanna do that I need to be stronger. I go to a shop and purchase 20 15 kilogram weights and put 5 on my legs and arms and I start doing my daily workout routine. Its definitely harder but it will pay off eventually is what I keep saying to myself. By the time I finish I see Soh standing infront of me as well as Kei. Soh helps me up and notices all the extra weights.

"You shouldn't push yourself to far boy you'll end up hurting yourself. After all your friends will be there to support you right?" Soh asks smiling.

To support me... My friends to support me... But they'll get hurt if they support me. They might die if they help me.

"Sorry Sog but I'm going to fight Sanadu and the demon king alone." I say firmly.

"Alone? What do you mean what about your friends?" Soh asks confused.

" If they help me they'll end up getting hurt or get killed. I'm not going to let that happen which is why ik going to fight them alone and win." I say with an expression of anger.

"Andrew..." Soh says putting his hand on my shoulder.

"You expression... Are you doing this for yourself or the girls?" Soh asks.

I'm shocking by his question and look at me mad.

"I'm doing this for the girls of course!" I yell frustrated.

"Young man... Even with your answer your expression says otherwise. You've fallen into despair just thinking about the war. Calm down you have friends for a reason they are they to help and support you throughout anything." Soh says softly.

I soon realise what he said and calm down a bit. Am I really doing this for the girls? Or for myself?

"Don't think about the war just think about defeating it. With your current power you're definitely fit for the war. Of the old demon king is resurrected he'll be weaker. Fight him with your friends and win dear boy." Soh says with a soft smile.

"But if they die sir then I'll never forgive myself. I made up my mind about it! I'm going to win this war alone and alone only! That's what true victory will be! That why nobody will die! I'm going to protect everyone!" I yell and run off.

I look back to see Soh frowning with a sad look on his face he soon looks down and turns around to Kei. I run back to the where the girls are trying to look as normal as I possibly can. There's no way they'll allow me to fight alone so it's best if I dont tell them. I rush over to them with a smile.

"Hey girls! Long time no see!" I say smiling.

"Ah! Andrew it's been a while! You've gotten stronger haven't you?" Elaine asks with a bright smile.

"You bet! I got so much stronger that Sanadu better watch himself!" I chuckle.

I laugh with the girls as we walk along to pathway. I feel a little sad about not telling them but it's best if I don't they'll lecture me about it. But I must say the good times I spend with them not a single time I was unhappy. I soon brighten up as I talk to them I soon realise that it's getting late.

"Sorry guys I'm going to go train now!" I say running off.

"Have a good time with Soh Mr.Hero!" Minerva says mockingly.

"With Soh..." I mumble quietly.

"Bye Andrew!" Katrina waves.

I soon double Soh's workout routine he gave me. It'll be worth it in the end is what I keep saying to myself. I soon hear something in the bushes. What that?

"Who's there?" I yell.

Kei soon emerges from the bushes and walks to me. She hits me on the hit which hurts a bit.

"Ouch! What are you doing!" I yell.

"You idiot. Do you really think you can beat Sanadu and the old demon king alone? You're delusional." Kei says mad.

"This isn't you business Kei." I say frustrated.

"Your the hero you brat. There is no way you can beat them alone no matter how much you train. Your friends have to fight along side with you. If they get hurt I'll deal with them." Kei says looking at me with disgust.

"And if they die what will I do?" I ask with a mad look.

"Get over it. Soh's lost a lot of people and have you ever seen his upset about it? You have so much people to help you and your little girlfriends... If they die then honor their names by winning the stupid war!" Kei yells at me with a furious look.

I'm silent for a minute. Im deep in thought about what she said. She's right... I hate to admit it but I can't deny that she's right. I can't win the war alone and can't fight without support. If they die I should honor their names and move on.

"You're being selfish going in alone. You're just going to get killed and the world will be doomed. The girls will feel sad that you didnt go with them and maybe think they aren't strong enough to go with you. Damn brat." Kei says.

I'm being selfish? You're the one who won't care if anyone of my lived ones die! I'm not selfish you are! You're all selfish! Worthless! Dammit what do I do? I can't win alone but J can't let them die. My thoughts get worse and worse.

"You're truly like Soh you know? You're acting as stubborn and as sad as Soh was before the war. But in the end some people die and some lived he made through it and honored everyone who died. He didn't want people to fight he wanted to fight alone to." Kei says calmly.

My thoughts are all jumbled but what Kei said makes sense but I still don't want them to die! Is this really... The despair of a war?