Morning, Regret

In the morning of light, the light shines through all the blinds in my room.

I see the clock ringing non stop, the cold air woke me up, making me hug myself for warmth.

but this coldness is just but 2nd rated compared to the one in my heart.

Living alone... a challenge that was given onto me. Learning how to save and learn not to spend money, to be thrifty and rational, a skill learnt through 2 years of training alone.

I look at the dumbells at my beds and the 'special' suit on myself. thinking of everything that has happened a year ago, i sigh at myself for my stupidity.

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1 year ago...

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Born as a billionare, living as a spend drift. my dad cannot bear with it anymore.

so at a faithful day... my dad came into my room, a mouthful of scolding blooming with a boom. a dare was made to make me regret but in my mind happiness was in set. who wont be happy with that 2 year dare. a life alone with freedom to the hair, but then came the seduction of an additional flare. wearing a 'special' suit as an additional dare, and the freedom of using money after the dare, but there was a condition... to lose the dare is to lose being an heir. But in my mind, That was just 2 years of living at but a fool. but clearly it was something that no one would expect... who'd know what will happen in life.

In my 'special' attire i look at the mirror...

A fatty nerd with glasses was there, and yes the suit was a fat costume. A very realistic s#@% at that. that made me full of laughter. thinking of school, my back went sweaty, but that enticement i just want to wonder.

Remembering the school that i was transferred to. where nobody but the principal know the truth. I almost backed out but the punishment was a given. it made me curse. i assured myself that after this my life is pretty much set with all the riches i can hold between my hands.

at the first day of school. i steeled my will

i endured the laughter seen from afar

all the scorn that i used to give

all the anger that needs to be concealed

i thought to myself...

"just wait till i get liberated, you will get toasted..."

Then she came onto my life

a girl which was housed by a goddess

a girl for which my heart throbbed at the first.

she was there sweetly, clad on her attire

her breathtaking smile bloomed like cherry blossoms

her eyes like the starry skies at night

yet her somewhat wild movements added onto her charms

i was only lovestruck there but for a minute yet the screams of a pervert rang onto my ears waking me up from my momentary stuppor. i blushed in shame as i realized again. *I must have looked like a fool standing in there*. and there started a dark memory forever in my head. She was there, laughing her guts out from my dazed stare....

and in that moment my anger went ablaze

i ignored everyone on my way to class

Went to a seat and took a nap

my peaceful sleep looked like a dying pig to my mate. got pictured at, and posted at the web.

when the teacher came, he gave me weird look

with my eyes i questioned, confused

he just ignored me with a turn of his head

and then started the life on ahead...