My baby !

God, this pregnancy have driven me nuts !

I have become an another person completely.

Even I don't recognise myself anymore.

I have been torching Dani way too much.

I don't do it on purpose, but I can't keep myself together !

I turn into a furnace even if he gets his shoes inside the room !

I snarl at him if he keeps the door open when he leaves !

It's not me, what have this pregnancy made me ?

Even I am not liking myself, I don't know how in the hell Dani is bearing me ?

I am dying for the pregnancy to end already !

But, Cathsia said there is no chance of it at least for few more weeks !

What have I done to deserve all this ?

Every other female who conceived with me have gave birth to their pups and here I am waiting for my pups to grow and come out !

Dani was right, I am the last one to deliver the litter.

I heard him saying this to Alpha and I got so mad at him, I didn't let him in my room for weeks and neither did I let him go anywhere else !

Actually, I wouldn't have been this insane, if I had the privilege to turn.

I am getting sick of being a wolf for almost three months straight !

I am used to and love to wander as a human, but Cathsia have denied me to turn till my litter is born !

She said it might kill my pups if, I turned and I sure as hell don't want that to happen !

After bearing this much for such a long time, I can't loose my first pups with my mate !

But to be honest, I am feeling pity for human females !

I badly want to get rid of this bump in my womb within almost three months only, how do they bear that for fucking nine months and few days more ?

I am thankful that I am not a human, only for this reason !

I really wouldn't have been able to be pregnant for that long !

I am acting insane.

I am snarling at everyone in my path, if they don't look at me or look at me.

Pass by without saying a word to me or asking about my wellbeing.

Whatever anybody does, I snarl at them !

And the most dangerous thing I did ?

I snarled at Alpha, for he called Dani !

But thank god, everyone here is overlooking my madness and treating me as their pack member, no matter how badly I behave with them.

Alpha came to me and told me that, he do understand that, I am going insane because the pregnancy is lasting more than everyone else's, but I have to keep myself together.

I can't interfare in Dani's duties of being the beta of the pack !

He have his duties and he must do them.

He asked Cathsia to give me some herbs to calm my mind and since then, I am sleeping more than 22 hours a day !

I fucking don't have any idea what time of the day it is ?

What day it is ?

When was the last time I opened my eyes or closed them ?

I just open my eyes, Cathsia feeds me and give me those herbs and I sleep !

I am afraid I would deliver my litter in sleep !

Today I opened my eyes and my stomach started aching way too much.

Ahh...

Fuck...

Is my ?

Is my litter about to...

Ahh...

God it hurts so much...

Ahh..

I growled as loud as I can,

' Cathsia...

Ahh...

Where are you ?

I think... I think it's time...

Ahh...

Hurry up I am...

Oh god, it hurts so much ! '

' I am on my way, child.

And yes, it's time now.

Your pup is ready to meet you ! '

She told me with the linked mind.

Nobody except her in the pack have this ability, we can communicate only when both of the communicators are in their wolf form.

' Ahhh...

Where is...

Ugh...

Where is Dani ?

I... I need him with...

Ahh...

With me... '

I want him to be with me when our first pup borns.

' Alpha took him with him.

Don't worry, I am here, nothing will happen to you. '

She said.

I am feeling sad a bit, this is not what I wanted, but I can't do anything in it now.

' Come fast Cath...

Ahh...

Please...

I can't bear this pain.

Bring your hurbs as well...

Make me fall asleep... '

I moaned in pain.

' Don't be stupid !

How would you deliver your pup when you are asleep ?

It'll end soon, my child.

Hold on, I am right next to your chamber ! '

She said and the very next moment opened the door and came in my chamber.

She made me stand up.

I badly wanted to sit as my legs were weak.

But she said, the ground would become an obstacle for the pup to come out if, stayed sited.

I stopped breathing as the pain was unbearable.

She rubbed my ears and it felt nice.

After few hours of unbearable pain and discomfort, finally my pup came in the world !

" Congratulations my child, it's a male !

And he is very handsome ! "

Cathsia said happily.

' Can I...

Ugh...

Can I turn now, please ? '

I pleaded her to let me out of my misery.

" What kind of a mother are you ?

Your first baby came in the world and instead of looking at him, licking him clean, you want to turn ?

Silly girl, you need to lick your pup clean of all the blood and the mucous off him !

How would you do that if you turned ? "

Cathsia said.

Ugh, why does she have to be correct all the time ?

I must lick him clean, or he'll suffocate with all the covering around him.

She placed him on the ground infront of me and I sat down.

It feels...

Aww...

He is so cute !

My god, I am a mother now...

I... I don't...

Oh god...

Cathsia wiped the tears which rolled off my eyes. I licked my pup clean and pulled him closer to me, to give him my warmth.

The moment he licked me back...

God, I fell in love with him !

He is so...

My gosh, he is so cute.

A grey ball of fur in my arms !

Clinging to me like, I am the most precious thing for him in the world !

" Yes you are, my child ! "

Cathsia said smiling sweetly.

Alpha came with Dani after sometime, who was speachless to see me and our pup !

His eyes too were wet.

I know, he badly wants to hug me, but he won't reach me if he didn't turned...

There he is !

My dark black wolf mate !

He came to me and licked me and placed his head on mine.

Then he licked our pup and he clinged to him too, as if he recognised his father !

What a satisfying and overwhelming picture it is ! My gosh, I just can't stop my tears from flowing. Dani licked them off.

Alpha came to us and carefully pick our pup in his arms and he snuggled closer to his chest.

He caressed him so lovingly and kissed the top of his head.

" He is so cute, Katharine.

I just...

I just fell in love with him !

Hello baby, welcome to the family.

I am your uncle Cedric. "

Alpha said cooing to him.

He started talking to the pup and like he understood what his uncle Cedric said, he was purring and started licking his face.

" Let him get used to you as a wolf Katherine.

Be there for him and when he is a bit old then turn and teach him that too.

Be there for him. "

Cathsia said with a motherly concern.

I am ready to be a wolf forever for him !

I'll do anything for my pup.

I just...

I just love him so much.

He is the most precious thing for me...

Dani growled in fake anger at my thought.

I licked him and touched my head to his.

' I love you and you are the precious thing in my life and you know that ! '

I said reassuring him.

' Yes, I do.

Thanks Kath, I am so happy today.

You gave the most beautiful and precious gift of my life after yourself !

I love you so much. '

Dani said sweetly.

The pup started whimpering low and whining all at once.

I have no idea what's wrong ?

I am sure Alpha have nothing to do with that.

He is confused and worried too as if he thinks he had done something get this reaction from him.

I whimpered to ask Cathsia what's wrong,

" He is hungry my child, he needs your milk. Alpha, give the pup to me and you can leave with Daniel. "

Cathsia said taking the pup and Dani left with Alpha.

She brought him to me and I layed on my side.

She placed him close to my stomach and he himself found his way to me breasts and started suckling on them.

It is a very different feeling.

Dani have sucked them; in my human form.

That's an out of the world feeling, this one is also the out of the world feeling; but both of them are as different as milk and water !

When he did it, it aroused me to any extent of being crazy and now that my baby is feeding from them, though he is using his hard gums to grab the nipple and suck the milk out of them, I am feeling very nice.

It hurts, but it's going to satisfy the hunger of my baby, so I am ok with it.

' Drink my love.

Drink as much as you want.

This is all for you, baby.

You are my precious gift of life.

Mumma loves you baby. '

I said to him licking.

I hope he'll know and understand this in time.

Cathsia prepared something for me to drink.

May be it's something to soothe the pain of delivery.

It is hurting.

But now that I have my baby with me finally, I can't feel it.

After drinking the milk, he snuggled close to me and I badly want to take him in my arms and kiss him, but again Cathsia denied me to turn.

" My child, a human female can't feed a wolf pup from her breasts, can she ? "

Cathsia said softly.

She's got a point !

I won't be able to feed him if I turned.

And he needs my milk at least for few weeks.

It's ok, as long as he is with me, I don't have any problem in staying a wolf !

' Cathsia, why do I have only one pup ?

The others females have 4-5 pups each.

My pregnancy lasted longer than everyone else and I got only one pup ?

Why ? '

I asked my confusion.

" You've been in heat for so long without a mate my child.

It was your 18th heat when he was conceived.

You breeded after way too long, it's because of it.

But Katharine, you birthed him in your 18th cycle, he is very lucky !

The pups conceived in the 18th heat are considered as lucky, because it's the peek heat time of their mother !

Don't feel bad about having single pup, he'll bring all the happiness in your life. "

Cathsia said consoling me.

I pulled him even more close to me,

' He already brought it to me !

I am not sad, Cathsia.

I was just wondering why did it happened ? '

I cleared myself.

" Drink this, it'll soothe the pain of delivery and will help you sleep.

You need that.

Have some meat first and then drink it. "

Cathsia said handing me the freshly hunted rabbit; my favorite !

I ate it and drank the herbal solution.

I pulled my legs closer to my hands, made a safe place for him.

' Go to sleep love, mumma is here to keep you protected you from any potential danger, my baby ! '

I said to him and pulled him closer to me.

I licked him and we went to sleep.