On your knees**

Ben

I'm pacing in the room. It's been six hours since I've seen Aiden and I haven't left the room. I have a supply of blood in the mini fridge here. My heart is aching. It's like I can feel his anger and frustration. I want to find him and bury my face in his neck and inhale his intoxicating scent.

After I woke up from those memories, I felt lighter. I feel strangely comfortable being a vampire like it's what I'm always meant to be. The memories are coming back bit by bit. I have strange urge for blood, not the one in the bag. I want blood straight from the veins. I remember the feeling of drinking from someone. It's different from just drinking from a bag.

My gums start to ache but the bags of blood in the fridge aren't appetizing to me. I'm worried that I will become like him.

Find me in our old home in 2 weeks

Damian's words come back to me. I want to go meet him honestly. I want answers from him. Not all my memories have come back but I need to know the truth. I need to know I'm not this monster. I've always wondered why I was calm about everything that's happened to me in the past month , I guess this explains everything.

My Sister Bianca has been texting me frequently. Even Liam has been worried sick. I've disappeared from him so it's justified.

The door opens and I spin around. Aiden closes the door softly then ventures in and seats on the bed. He doesn't look at me. I'm so nervous, I'm sweating.

"Aiden I'm sorry. I don't know what came over me." I say nervously. Shifting from one foot to another. He stands up and walks up to me and until we are almost touching. He looks at me then and I hold my breath when I see his angry intense eyes.

"On your knees." His voice is deep and commanding.

"What?" I say weakly not understanding.

"I said on your fucking knees." I immediately complile still a bit confused. I stare up at him. His expression is hard.

He unbuckles his belt and then the zip comes next. He takes out his hard cock. I lick my lips at the sight of him. He is long, big and angry like the rest of him.

"Suck it." He commands and I lick my lips and shift toward until his length is infront of me. I lick the head of his cock. He groans . I continue licking from the base to his head.

I take him into my mouth then taking in as much as I can. He is so big. I try to relax my jaw more. My head bobs as I suck him. I'm so fucking hard.

"Look at me." I look up at him as I swallow his cock. He grips my hair in a tight grip, I wince a little. "Listen baby, don't ever do what you did earlier. I don't like being challenged. If you are angry fucking talk to me, I'm here for you. I'm gonna fuck your mouth hard so that you never forget okay. After that I'm gonna fuck that little hole of yours and you aren't allowed to cum. Do you understand?"

"Mmh yes." I know this is supposed to be a punishment but fuck. I've never been so fucking turned on. I love this Alpha side of him. He felt threatened when I pushed him and now he is punishing me.

"Now open your mouth. " I do as he commands and open my mouth.

He fucks my mouth hard like he said he would. Tears fill my eyes. Spit drips down my chin.

"Fuck, you look good on your knees for me baby." He groans.

I moan around his cock. My hand instinctly moves to my length which is straining inside my pants.

"Don't fucking dare touch yourself. " Aiden growls and my hand stiles. I whine. I want to touch myself so bad.

He fucks my mouth until he comes. My neglected cock is straining in my pants. He pulls his length out of my mouth.

"Take off your clothes and get on your knees on the egde of the bed."

He watches me as I take off my clothes. I get on the bed and on my knees. I hear rumpaging then I feel his presence behind me.

"You look good like this baby." I feel cool fingers cycling my rim slick with lube. Then he inserts two fingers. I clutch the sheets and cry out. Fuck that burns. This really is a punishment. He pushes his fingers in and out of me, I moan.

His fingers are out in an instant and in place is the head of his cock.

"Will you ever do it again?" He asks breathlessly.

"No, I'm sorry." I say whimpering.

He thrusts all the way in and cry out. He groans. He doesn't wait for me to adjust to his length. He fucks me hard. I enjoy it but there's also a part of me who wants to cry because I'm being punished and I've hurt him.

He grips my hips and pounds in me harder, hitting my prostate everytime. The bed is shaking. Fuck I know other wolfs here can hear us. The sounds coming from us are grunts, groans, whimpers and moans. I'm never leaving this room after this, how can i even face them.

My orgasm hits me hard. I cum all over the sheets with a cry. Aiden follows suit soon after. I feel his hot cum inside of me. When he pulls out, it run downs my legs.

"Such a pretty sight." He says and I sniff then I realize I've been crying. Is it from the pleasure or am I overwhelmed by this?

I climb up the bed until I'm met with a pillow and fall down. I breathe in and out. I feel Aiden coming behind then he sleeps next to me. He placing his arm around my waist and pulls me flush against his chest.

"Baby look at me." I turn my head so I can look at him.

He takes my face in his hands and kisses me softly on the lips and on my cheeks where there are tears.

"I'm sorry baby, I was angry. Was it too much?" He asks and his expression is that of guilt.

"No i kind of enjoyed if. Okay a lot." I sniff. "It's just that I felt overwhelmed and you were angry, I don't want you angry at me." I whisper looking down. He lifts my face making me look at him.

"I'm not angry anymore baby." He kisses me again softly.

"Where did you go?" He's been gone for six hours and I know this because everytime he is not near me. I can feel it inside me. And also I couldn't smell him.

"Well I went to a fighting ring in town." I look up at him in surprise. "That's how I cool down when I'm angry. My wolf felt threatened and even though it wouldn't hurt you cause you are our mate, I would've been in a bad mood all day. Snapping at everyone. So whenever I'm angry I go to the fighting ring. There are humans also wolfs too. I try not to use all my strength on humans. "

I nod. "I want to see you fight. " I say

"Next time I will take you with me. I want you to train now. I want you to be able to protect yourself."

"Okay." I say excitedly. I really do want to train. My body feels like it.

"So are you going to tell me what's going on?" Shit I can't tell about Seth.

"I was worried you would not love me now that I'm a vampire. I've heard the other wolfs talk about vampires. They hate them so do vampires." Atleast I'm not completely lying. I'm just not saying the whole truth.

"Baby, I don't care whether you are a vampire, a wolf or witch or any other thing out there. You accepted me when you were human, what makes you think I won't accept you now. Don't ever doubt me baby."

He kisses me again. I feel his hardness. I spring from the bed.

"No." I shake my head. "I'm going to take a shower. Then I want you to take me out on a date." Aiden chuckles.

"Fine fine. I won't touch you again. You want a date? " He raises his eyebrows at me, amusement dancing in his eyes.

I fold my arms. "Well you never took me out on a date."

"Okay fair enough. Go take a shower. I will be right back." I watch as he quickly puts on his clothes and leaves.

I go to the shower. I'm so excited I'm practically skipping.

I'm going on a date. Fuck I can't believe I just dated him, no date no nothing. This is crazy. Our relationship had move so fast. It always surprises me how fast we've gone. I guess that's how mate's are.

Fuck I have nothing to wear.