Offer Yourself to Me

I complied.

Shocked by how comfortable I was with this man compared to the monster that had hurt me.

Whereas this creature seemed to glory in my pleasure and any hint of response and worship being inside me, the other being had wanted to cause pain, suffering. To hear my torment and see me wounded and broken.

That's not Van. I reminded myself every time I became a little scared again.

He'd paused and was giving me a questioning look.

"Do it." I whispered around him.

"Ahhh." He roughly slammed into my mouth at my beckoning. Stretching my throat as he hit the back and slid down. He tossed his head back and moaned. Gripping my cheeks as he flexed into my mouth. Pumping hard and slamming deep.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry!" He shouted Heavenward. Clutching at me as though clinging to some remnant of sanity.

This isn't me controlling the joining. I wanted to rear back. Confused about what was happening.