Really Reconnecting

*R18*

The hot water in the bathtub engulfed Selene as she lay on Ben's chest, his legs on either side of hers. They had just taken turns cleaning each other and she felt as if she were in heaven. "This was a good idea," she moaned as she turned over to give him a languid kiss.

He held her in his arms and allowed her to kiss him for a few moments, her tongue licking his top lip as if to tease them open. He smiled, but then pulled away a little.

"What's wrong?," she asked, a little confused and unsure if she had done something wrong.

"Nothing," he answered, positioning her so she was lying back down on his chest as she had been earlier. "I just wanted to talk to you for a little bit and I thought it would be nice if we did that while relaxing in here."

She was still unsure as she said, "Oh, okay. Is that why we came here instead of the bedroom?" When he said yes, she went on, "So, what did you want to talk about?"

"Something just felt off earlier in the theater," Ben started to say. He felt Selene shifting uncomfortably and so he quickly added, "Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying there was anything wrong with what we did. I loved every minute of it. You know how much I love you." He hugged her tight and kissed the side of her head to reassure her before going on, "It's just that you've gone through a lot over the past week and our relationship was in a tenuous place. You had just decided to trust me again so I just didn't think that our first time after that would be…well…like that, you know? I don't know if I'm explaining this right. I just know how you are about things when it comes to sex and…I don't know. Do you know what I'm trying to say? You always know what I'm trying to say."

Selene was quiet for a few moments. Then she moved her head to the side to look up at him and he did the same so that he could look at her. She nodded, "Yah, I do." She looked back down and shifted back so she was looking ahead. Letting out a deep breath, she started quietly with, "It felt sort-of rushed in a sense, right?"

"A little," he answered. His voice became sultry as he qualified the answer with, "I mean, not that it wasn't great, because obviously it was. Every time with you is amazing."

She smiled and said, "Don't tempt me right now geeze," as she sat up and hugged her knees to herself. Suddenly, she felt sad.

Ben sat up behind her and hugged her. "Sorry, go on," he coaxed.

Selene turned around so that her legs were around his waist and she hugged him. Then she lay her head on his shoulder and said, "I don't know either why I did that."

Ben stroked her hair and suggested, "It's ok, take your time. What do you think was going through your mind?"

She thought about his question and tried to recall. All day she had been thinking about the evening when they would be having sex for the first time since the kidnapping. Now that she was thinking back on it, she had been feeling a little anxious it about it. But why? It's not like it was the first time. Then a thought occurred to her based on what her therapist had said. She had said that looking at the kidnapping as a trauma, it was like a loss of control over her body and independent action in addition to the pain and fear. Could that be the reason she did what she did in the theater? To feel in control?

Selene pulled back so she was face to face with Ben. She explained her thoughts and he remarked, "That does seem to make sense. I mean, when you have sex with someone, you do give up some control to your partner. Depending on the relationship, it can be equal or go one way or the other."

They both looked at each other knowingly because they were both aware of the fact that in their relationship, Ben usually had more control during sex, and they were both okay with that. But given this, Selene's previous actions in the theater were understandable if she had been feeling anxious about that evening.

She said, "That's true. I mean, trust is something that has to be constantly reinforced over time, right?"

Ben nodded and then kissed her forehead. With an intense gaze, he said, "I swear I'll do just that, baby," and took her lips in a passionate kiss. He bit her bottom lip with his teeth and not-so-gently pulled, almost leaving a bite mark. She returned his fervor with her own, sticking her tongue into his mouth in search of his to play with. After their tongues danced around each other, tasting and savoring, Ben moved his kisses down across Selene's jaw line toward her ear. She let out a moan and grabbed at the muscles of his back, seeking purchase on them as the waves of ecstasy started building within the point between her legs. Even though they were surrounded by water, she could feel her own wetness flowing down.

Ben nibbled on her ear, licking it, and breathing heavily as he did. Each one of those breaths that fell upon her ear sent a shock wave of pleasure from her core out across her legs. And each wave came with its own gush of slickness from her pussy. The pleasure she was feeling was growing and he hadn't even touched her there yet.

As if on cue, Ben pulled away from her ear and started kissing and sucking down her neck. As he did so, he reached one hand down and started massaging the slit with his fingers. He could feel the slickness being washed away by the bath water as he did so and frowned. Instead of continuing, he put both hands on her waist and whispered in her ear, "Sit on the ledge. I want to taste you."

Selene almost came just hearing his words. She let out a gasp and had to take a moment before complying. Ben gave a devilish smile and kissed her as he lifted her up onto the small ledge that was at the head of the bathtub. Unlike most bathtubs with small areas for placing shampoo bottles and such, this one had a much bigger area, suitable for sitting. After placing Selene down, he kneeled in front of her as he opened her legs widely. She had to hold down tightly to keep herself from slipping. "Oh my God," she groaned as his tongue took the first lick.

"You taste so good," he murmured as he continued to drink from her. She put her feet on his shoulders as she cried out with the erotic picture she was seeing in front of her. His golden eyes were looking up at her, giving her a seductive look that screamed with lust and sex. He wanted her and he wanted to pleasure her. She closed her eyes unable to stand the pleasure as it rose higher and higher. Her cries came continuously as did her panting in between.

Ben stuck his tongue inside her folds as far as it could go and started thrusting in and out. He stayed away from her clit though as he didn't want to send her over the edge just yet. He wanted to give her pleasure for a little while longer. He loved seeing that look on her face, knowing he was the one to give her this level of ecstasy. He took two fingers then and inserted them inside as his tongue returned to licking. Selene jerked and let out a loud moan. He pushed them further inside, seeking her sweet spot. He knew from her body's movements when he found it and started stroking at it, back and forth. It was then that he started licking at her clit.

Selene's mind started going blank and all she could see was a whiteness behind her eyes. The electrifying heat that was coming off her could surely power the whole house. The waves were going non-stop and when she felt him hit her spot, the knot inside her finally started forming. It was building and building and when his tongue licked at her clit, the fire that shot inside could no longer be contained. The spasm of her body nearly knocked her off the ledge as she finally came, and the sensations washed over her again and again. Ben held her tightly in place so she did not fall and just kept licking her until she finally pushed him away, still shivering from the climax. Finally, she sunk back down into the tub and embraced him, laying her head on his chest.

Ben stroked her hair, smiling with satisfaction. He could not see, but Selene had a similar look except hers was combined with a sense of dreamy contentment. She could have almost fallen asleep right there from the energy that the orgasm took from her.

After a little while, Ben gently pulled her away and said, "Why don't we rinse off and head to bed?"

Selene was too shy to look at him in the eyes as she nodded and stood up with him.

After they rinsed off, Ben led Selene to their bed. He was naked but she had a towel around her. He looked down at her, cupping her face, and said, "You are so beautiful. I can't believe you're still shy after all these years." He smiled at her adoringly.

She put her hands on his wrists and looked down with her eyes. With an embarrassed smile she replied, "I can't help it. It's somehow different just walking around. I don't know why." She shrugged.

"I didn't mean it was bad. I think it's cute. Just one more thing to love about you," Ben reassured her as he leaned down to kiss her eyes that were still looking down.

Selene looked up and thought, "My God, he is so hot! How can I not be embarrassed in front of him!" His dark brown hair looked black as it framed his face because it was still a little wet. The long strands accentuated his chiseled looks, making him look like a movie star. Not that he didn't already look like one on a daily basis! His golden eyes looked like they were shining and the upward tilt at the end of them were alluring as if inviting her inside. He was giving her his sultry smile and she just couldn't wait to have those lips on her skin again. She removed the towel, letting it drop down to the floor.