Sad News (Update)

Hey guys... I deeply apologise for not uploading anything for the past few weeks, but I have some unfortunate news. I'll give you guys the rundown of what has happened and what caused me to stop uploading.

There are two reasons:

First is workload issues. Again. My procrastination compounded my workload and I had to abruptly commit to studying for multiple tests in physics, business, english, math, and psychology, which took up the time I had for writing. Luckily, I've finished most of those and I'm back in the green zone.

However, my second reason is my lost story outline and story notes. To keep it short, around a week and a half ago, my main web browser (Opera GX) crashed, making me lose hundreds of tabs of websites that helped me write. In addition to that, Google has also barred me from accessing the gmail account I used to store the google docs containing all the story notes, chapter outlines, and character progression ideas I had and I had not saved backups of those files. I've tried all possible solutions for both problems and none have worked. Now, I've lost all hope in recovering all the data and resources I lost.

So... yeah. I've tried writing chapters again and again, but it just felt like I was trying to repair a vase that's been shattered into a million tiny pieces and 90% of it was blown away by a gust of wind.

My motivation is non-existent, and I still have more tests to worry about and focus on in the next 2 months.

Before I finish, I also apologise for the previous chapter I uploaded. It was the result of a lack of sleep, poor planning, and a series of foolish decisions. To be honest with you guys, my sleep-deprived self idiotically thought it was an okay chapter at the time. It wasn't until I reread the chapter and read your comments that I realised how bad I messed up. I would devote a few days to rewrite it and deliver the actual chapter I envisioned, but there's no point to that now. I had the next 10 chapters planned in the now unreachable google documents and I can only remember tidbits of what I wrote back then.

Just so I'm clear, I am not saying I want to drop this story. The desire to continue is there, but it's buried beneath the devastation and frustration I'm currently feeling because of the reasons listed above.

For now, this story will have to be put in indefinite hiatus. Maybe I'll write one of the other fanfic story ideas that's been bouncing around my mind for the past year to try and light my passion again, but I won't promise anything. I can't even write a single paragraph as I am now.

Regardless of all that, thank you guys for your support. I wouldn't have been able to reach this point without it.

That'll be it from me. This is farewell, but you will hear from me again sometime in the future. Maybe next week, next month, or maybe sometime around christmas.

I don't really know anymore.

-Capybarian