Chapter 63 Comes Clean

KK lay on the bed looking at the ceiling, waiting for Santichai to bring him an ice pack. He couldn't help but keep thinking about Asnee's attitude towards Santichai. He is now afraid of losing Santichai. He hides some secrets from Santichai, but he is worried that if he tells Santichai the hidden secrets, Santichai will not hesitate to leave him, especially when Asnee returns to Santichai's life. He sighed heavily, and Santichai walked into the room with two ice packs.

Santichai sat on the edge of the bed and said, "Lift your shirt and let me see where I should put the ice pack."

KK lifted his shirt and Santichai could see KK's left ribcage starting to turn red. Santichai pulled down KK's shirt and put an ice pack on it. Santichai grabbed the pillow and pressed it to KK's left.

Santichai said, "Before I go cooking, do you need anything else?"

KK grabbed Santichai's arm and said, "Not yet..."

Santichai said, "Don't be too clingy."

KK tightened Santichai's hand and said, "Have you ever thought about living secretly with Asnee in the past, even if he has a wife?"

Santichai said, "No."

KK asked, "Did Asnee tell you a lot of lies?"

Santichai said, "Why did you ask this all of a sudden?"

KK said, "I remember you telling me you don't like people who lie to you."

Santichai said, "I don't like it because I don't lie."

KK stroked Santichai's back with his hand and said, "Santichai…I want to confess...I hid some lies from you."

Santichai got up from KK's arms and asked, "What lies are you hiding?"

KK snorted and sat up slowly against the headboard. He smiled, he knew that their relationship might end after Santichai listened to him, but if Santichai hates people who lie to him, then when Santichai knows, Santichai will also leave him. Even though Santichai and Asnee had a ten-year relationship, their relationship ended because of lies.

KK looked at Santichai and said, "Honestly, there is no dishwasher position in HappyCare. Mrs. Pricha didn't happen to meet you on the sidewalk in front of the office building that day. When I saw you that day, I and Mrs. Pricha and I were talking in the hall. I asked Mrs. Pritchard to find you and give you a job."

Santichai looked at KK disappointedly, "KK...why did you do that? So, it's been a lie from the beginning until now?"

"It's not like that," KK said. He reached out and took Santichai's hand. "Do you remember when I told you we had met before?"

"You did it, but you never finished your story or how did we meet?" Santichai said.

KK said, "I met you a long time ago. My first time meeting you, I actually don't know where I went but I ended up somewhere in the park. I prayed to my grandfather that if he wanted me to be alive, he had to give me a sign. After a long time, there was nothing on the street but the squeaky tires, and just as I was about to pull the trigger, a tear landed on the corner of my mouth. When I looked up, I saw that you were coaxing yourself." He looked at Santichai. "The smell of your tears is my grandfather's sign. That night, you made me realize that what I have experienced is incomparable to what you have experienced in the past. To love someone and be willing to accept the abuse of the other party. I made a promise myself; I will go to you and make sure that the tears you shed in the future are tears of happiness."

KK looked at Santichai who was a few inches away from him but did not dare to pull Santichai back into his arms. He continued, "I thought I'd never see you again, but fate has her way of playing with us. When I was finishing my therapy session, I suddenly saw you rushing towards me into the men's room. I hurried to the side, Standing next to the door. I heard you vomit for a long time, but when you came out of the bathroom, I could see in your eyes that you were crying, so I didn't want to disturb you or scare you." KK laughed. "I left you a piece of chewing gum to ease your nausea."

"I sat two rows behind you on the bus on your way home. You chose the second row at the back of the bus because you didn't want anyone to see you when you cried. Seeing you leaning on the bus window and sobbing, I wish I could sit next to you and put your head on my shoulder and wipe your tears, but all I can do is hand you a pack of tissues." He smiled. "Since then, I feel like I'm obsessed with you. I'll walk down the street and look at everyone to see if that person is you. Then I met you again at BellRose Café." He looked at Santichai. "So, I do believe in fate." He smiled slightly and chuckled. "Ah... it feels so good to come clean."

Santichai asked, "Why did you tell me this all of a sudden?"

"Asnee made me realize that no matter how strong the relationship is or how long you have been in the relationship, if we lie to each other, it will end in heartache in the end," KK said, grinning at Santichai. "I'm also afraid that you will leave me if you know it, because you will think that what I did is to pity you."

Santichai was at a loss, and when he was distressed and didn't know where to put himself, someone secretly followed him and blessed him.

Seeing that Santichai didn't say anything, he just stared at him, he didn't really hope that Santichai would forgive him. He sighed, "I'm ready...if you want to break up with me, say it. I won't be mad at you, like I said, we're still good friends."

Santichai looked at KK, and suddenly tears came down. He whimpered, "KK...I..."

KK smiled and said, "It's okay, no matter which way you choose, I won't be mad at you."

Santichai pushed his body to KK's chest and hugged KK tightly. He tearfully said, "I never knew you were stalking me when I wanted to know if there was a place for me in the world, making sure my needs were being met. I never knew someone like you would stalk me. I regret…"

KK held Santichai's tightly, "Regret?"

"I really regret that we didn't meet sooner," Santichai said.

KK chuckled and said, "If we have met earlier, I won't know how to cherish you."

Santichai asked, "Do you regret your decision?"

KK kissed Santichai's forehead and said, "I don't regret my final decision, I am willing to accept the consequences of the outcome." He took Santichai in his arms. "I'm glad I told you this. Now, with you, I have no more secrets."

Santichai hugged KK tightly, but his heart was not calm. Deep down, he wanted to say, "I wish I could be honest with you, with no hidden secrets. Asnee...why can't I forget such a person like you."